613 200 Hours
25 550 Days
13 Cars
11 Jobs
9 Dogs
6 Surgeries
5 Children
4 Grandchildren
3 Marriages
2 Siblings
1 Weary soul.
No regrets.

All or Nothing?
To have it all?
Or leave it as nothing?

To go all in?
Or
Let it be?

To take a chance?
-and see where it goes?
-leaving everything open?

To give up -and sabotage it?
-without even trying...

To give it your best shot?
Or take a step back?
-to allow time to tell?

All or Nothing?
-A Loss or Win?
Sad or Happy?
-Pain or Love?
Regret or fulfilment of joy?

Try or Succeed?
The Unknow?
Or
Unexpected
-pleasant outcome?

To have it all?
Or leave it as nothing?

-ALL OR NOTHING

© By HF-Whisper
12/5/2021 10:12PM

Toxic together
They both want it to work out
Love is so unfair

That dream so real don't want it to end
Able to enjoy work being a regular
Being in charge takes its toll over time
Wanting to be normal not complicated
Be able to be free not on a schedule
He was in the shower thinking about life
The water rising his burdens away
An argument played out in his head
He knew it wouldn't play out accordingly
This moment would arrive unaware
A fuse would burn out not able to speak
Made him uncomfortable imploding within
Unable to comprehend words
Didn't like confrontation from control freaks
All he wanted was to be upbeat and chill
Made out to be the bad guy and monster

I spent 83 days wondering why
1,992 hours crying
And 7,171,200 seconds dying a little more inside

I can't say I'm sorry for what happened before
I left because
I didn't matter to you anymore

One side obscene in ignorance,
the other sanctimonious
to emetic effect

In the mid ground we most of us sit
whiplashed necks crying
as each rabid side bays allegiance

shut up, breathe clear air
drink tea
read
be fair

To drift
Be taken far out
Brought further into
Subconscious
Slew of symbols
Color coded
Neurons colliding

Sever
To untether
Physical form
From spiritual
Deep inhales
Counting down
Vibrations

Hey,
I'll see you
Out there
In shadows and
Swirling cosmos
With three eyes
And bright aura

If tomorrow never comes for me
If I shall not wake in the morning
Would you know I love you
Would you know I care