I didn’t know
until you said it
how it felt
to be loved

I didn’t know
until you did it
how it felt
to be broken

I didn’t know
until you were gone
how it felt
to be lost

I didn’t know
until you didn’t matter
how it felt
to be stronger

Your lack of expressions
told me a lot about you

if you ask me
what I do to get better
i'm going to say
absolutely nothing
because doing stuff
made me sick
broke my heart
destroyed me
so now I'm
taking a break
and healing in peace

if i accept myself it won't be dangerous
for others to like me

I’m not online
you can’t reach me
but I’m still trying
to go outside
so you can find me
and tell me that we can
work this out
if only you would do that
my dreams would come true
cause I’m sick and tired
of only seeing you
putting in effort
being the perfect guy
in my dreams at night