and in that single second
came an eternity of sorrow

It hurts
when a heart breaks
but even more
a broken heart
whose shards
shatter another

I have spent a lifetime
cutting myself in syllables
and
bleeding in sentences.

I'm dubious,

I will never know what life brings for me.
Some days, I believe in my abilities and
Moments later, my other mind will interrogate me.
Who am I and what do I bring by existing?

I will never know since I'm so doubtful.
Doubtful of all the beautiful things in life.
Especially love, since I don't exist
To love anymore.  

If we're not here to love, what are we here for?
If we can barley live, why are we living after all.
Maybe one day I'll find my path,
But for now, I'll continue to be in a quandary.

n.n

Our story is a love letter.
As long as I live,
I will write to you.

On the outside I’m strong
Inside I’m fading
I say nothing’s wrong
While completely breaking
I laugh along
Like my heart isn’t aching
I don’t belong
In this world of faking