my heart wasn’t intact when I met you
but you took my pieces
and arranged them into a puzzle I didn’t know could complete me.
you held them close,
cherishing the small details they entailed,
and warmed them when they were bitter.
one day,
you decided my puzzle wasn’t yours anymore,
and you threw away those tiny, curvy fragments.
a few there and a few here,
I will find them.
I’ll piece them back together,
and find my heart again.
looking up at the stars,
I wonder why my heart feels this way,
the same way it did before I met you.
october 1, 2018 (10:57 PM)
Ariana Bagley Sep 22
I miss being vulnerable
the feeling of being open
the ability to be exposed
and pretend I’m not broken
I miss letting people in on my secrets
I miss people wondering my fears
I miss people wanting to know more and more
but all those people have disappeared
those people took parts of me with them
leaving holes inside for me to find
maybe that’s why my heart hums
but I have to keep an open mind
I’ll hide the pieces people have left for me
(I wish people would’ve done the same with mine)
I’ll pick them up and hold them dearly
(oh and I wonder why I’m so confined)
do I really miss being vulnerable?
letting people in?
I can keep telling myself, “people always leave”
but I’ll only regret it in the end.
sept 21, 2018 (7:15 PM)
Ariana Bagley Sep 13
I’ve spent my whole life
pushing people away
until their presence was gone
with the fear of getting hurt
now I spend my days
trying to open up to every person I meet
without a fear
I’m used to the feeling now
too many people have left without a reason
without a care
and now I open my mind to everyone
in hopes that someone will take me for who I am
sept 12, 2018 (10:22 PM)
only time will tell us if you were the best one for me, if I was the best one for you, or if we were never good for each other in the first place.
august 28, 2018 (7:20 AM)
Ariana Bagley Aug 29
4 months ago today
you made me the happiest girl in the world
I hope you were happy too
now,
we’re nothing but strangers with history
me,
I’m heartbroken
you,
I don’t know
time is the only thing that heals a broken heart
and time will only tell me if you miss me too
august 26, 2018 (1:28 PM)
Ariana Bagley Aug 22
you told me
“I promise I won’t ever hurt you”
we were laying in my bed
I looked at you
in your deep brown eyes
and convinced myself you wouldn’t
now I’m laying in the same place
as my brown eyes fill with tears
convincing myself that my heart might never heal
all because of one broken promise
august 20, 2018 (10:38 PM)
how many times
will I come home
& wonder if you’ll be here
how many times
will I cry
& wonder if you’ll ever be happy again
how many times
will I decide
that this is just my life & I’ll “get through it”
how many times
will I fall apart
picking up your drunk pieces
and wonder if my sober ones will heal
how many times
august 10, 2018 (8:14 PM)
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