"You lied to me"

"Why did I trust you?"

He looked in my eyes,
  Those ocean shores began to become waves I've never seen before

His voice was a sound my ears never heard but was familiar like something from the past.

He answered. "You knew me.

And you didn't"

It's either

Our hearts are
               MONSTERS
that's why our ribs are cages

               or...

Our hearts are
                G O L D E N
that's why we protect it with our chest

Either way

We should never let it go.

We release a beast

Or

We lose a treasure

Don't let me be your dream
  Something you need to achieve

Let me be your nightmare
  Things that keep you up at night

Don't let me be a flower
  You need to take care of

Let me the unexpected sprouts
  You never saw coming

Don't let me be the girl
   You wish to have by your side

Let me be the girl
   You need to have all your life

I'm never something pretty
   Because I am always insane

I don't need you to protect me

I need you to know me

He lives in the past
   And She in the future

Time was never on their side
   He waited for Her to exist

    In the few moments of air he  breathes

    Because the present never happened where the two people would meet.

Let me love myself without the light

Where every imperfection shows

The sadness in my eyes

The sleepless nights with my mind

The voiceless thoughts unspoken

The irrational fear of being judged

Let me love the me I was, am, will be. Let me love the darkest parts of me

My fingers went loose
  
  Like the moment you touched my hair

My lips curved and smiled

  Like how yours would everytime I laughed

My feet stood straight

    The moment you stood before me

And then I let go
  Of a kite begging for the wind to take him away from this world

Like I did,
    With you.

Find peace in the heavens

Where I whisper to the air the things I missed

The words I dare to hear

The guy I begged to live

In my place.

I got so drunk
  I begged my feelings to leave
  But it stayed

Until I woke up
  My head was in a storm
  It was raging my love for you

So I threw up
  All the expectations I had left
  That you would come back

And beg me to stay.