Call for something greater,
A horse with name long forgotten,
A smile given never to return,
Taken across the sea,
Where the lover might be.
But is not.

He is lost to our eyes,
We are lost to his voice,
He’s one with the horizon
Carrying our hopes and dreams.
They mix with the well of life,
They’re nothing now.

He’s nothing now.

The hollow part of my neck breathes in the heart of hearts.
Your eye I see from within my soul,
All unravelling from the tip of a finger ,
Skins changing mingled in dust,
Jaws assembling
A head full of stars,
An eye in the centre of your being,
Seeing within
As you always were,
As you will always be.

I never said I loved you, John.
But I did.
I never said I saw you, John
but I did.
I never said I heard you, John.
but I listened.
For all the good it did to me.

I never expect to be fuller than this,
but I still feel an emptiness.
Hands won't heal the mess that was made.
Hands won't feel what words have left.

And I'm sorry.

Every cell I am of begs for forgiveness.

On my knees,
I never see a thing.
On my knees,
I never feeling anything,

I'll never let you get so close.
I will not share my thoughts.
I'll not destruct myself in front of your eyes.
I'll never give you the satisfaction.

I'll never let your words hold me down.
I'll never let your fists break me into pieces.
I'll not give you the joy of seeing me on my knees,  looking for the shards of me.

I'll not let your kiss stain my skin.
I'll not let your heart regulate my own.
I'll not give you the gratification of seeing the white in me turn to red.

I'll never let you close again.
I'll never hold myself against your body.
I'll never touch your soul.
But with all that, I know I'll never find
Peace.

I see the fighters waging their wars
against unseen enemies,
against the very air they breathe,
against the bodies that pull them down.
I hear their battle cries.
I hear the swords clashing.
They are on a mission:
to bring you down,
to bring all of you down.
No one dares to stop them,
Not even the blood they bleed.
They're here and they want to make it known.
They have found voices inside the caves you closed them in,
They have found freedom in the clothes you put them in,
They have found truth in the mouths of another,
They have found strength with hands collided,
They have found love in eyes intertwined.
They have found each other.
So to all the world: beware!
Beware, be alive, be awake!
For true love is waking from its cave,
Dormant all these years,
it wakes, with hunger
unforeseen, with thirst
unmeasured.
It wakes.
It opens its eyes to the world
Its ready.
Its awake and ready.
Beware, beware those who have tried to pull it down!
beware!
Its the tree of life,
it lives well on,
after you’re gone.

Please, be mine.
For a day.
For a night.
A thought.
A look.
A glance.
A wall.
A border.
An ocean.
A lifetime.