Love Hurts

I miss him already

Whisper me sweet Nothings
Will me to survive
Let me live a lie
So that I may stay alive
Betray me in the shadows
So pain I may be free
Don't mind if I'm deceived
As long as your here with me
Act as though you love me
Claim to be my friend
I'll put the truth aside
And I'll be happy to pretend
So at  least I won't be empty
At least I'll think I have worth
Because right now my time is short
And I'm not long for this earth
My life's become a prison
My soul rots while I'm confined
Tried my hardest to fight my demons
Lost the fight and lost my mind
The hopeless can't hold on too long
For how does one live without purpose?
So please whisper me sweet nothings
Lie, convince me I'm not worthless.

Under everything dark and scary is something beautiful and worth loving.

No matter what you think,
All things are beautiful...

Including YOU.

I sit in my room and feel alone.
I wish there was some way I could make my dad see that I can be with you.
In five days it's going to be Christmas and I wanted to spend it with you..

So I guess in a way I'm alone on Christmas without you. well kinda.

Being a ***** means.......
I stand up for myself and my beliefs
I stand up for those I love
I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things my way
I won't compromise whats in my heart
I live MY way
I won't allow anyone to step on me
I refuse to tolerate injustice
It means I have the courage &
The strength to allow myself to be me
So try to stomp on me, douse my inner flame,
Squash every ounce of beauty I hold within
You won't succeed
And if that makes me a *****, so be it
I embrace the title and I'm proud to be a *****!!

Bubble baths are the key to tranquility and quiet time!

I love you
I hate you

But I still cry for you
Can you guess why?

No ; ....
Well I'll tell you why
I cry for you because now I know the truth of your leaving
you didn't leave for her...

You left because it was me you were ashamed of !
And you were ashamed of something that never even happened !
So I hope you happy and satisfied , because  baby I can plan your descent .

True Love?
I *used to believe it existed,
But when you've had your heart torn out
And thrown on the floor
you just don't care anymore
...........
Ask me why I keep on *Loving?

As soon as I wake up, My head is filled with you
The way I feel about you--- Oh, only if you knew!
I smile and giggle whenever your around
And just a glimpse of you stops me from feeling down.

Six feet of dirt above;
More dirt below
I want to move....
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But there's no where to go.

Dark
Thoughts are poising
A cold black heart
No chance for awakening.

Darker
Every coming Day
No light at the end
Let it slip away

Darkest
Of hours surrounding
By lost hope and faith
it's all for nothing....

The silver gun rests on my tongue,
It feels so right but tastes so wrong.
I feel my finger trembling as the trigger and him debate,
An argument of past regrets.
A future that awaits.
I stop to pause and think if this is how it ends.
To stop the pain and suffering,
And my life of just pretend.
A life without love to be showered with or shared.
I have nothing to offer you but this burden I bear.
DON'T TRY TO STOP ME!!
AND DON'T FEED ME WITH YOUR LIES!
For every false you tell me, another piece of me dies
With all hope lost
And a pain that INCREASES
The trigger is pulled and my body goes cold, Escaping a world of
HATRED and DISEASES
Visit me if you must but don't **** me for my choices
You and the other's brought me here.
WITH HATRED IN YOUR VOICES
My name and a date is sealed with R.I.P
Now etched in stone,
I'M FOREVER ALONE.
A better world without me.

Sleepless nights
Dark not bright
The heaven cries
As my heart Dies

Anxiety is your name, but do you know
you make everyone anxious to read your
wonderful words, that fall from your mouth
down to your hands, and on to paper?

Your work is quite heart filling,
Some might even say a little Thrilling.

I can tell by the way you write,
That somebody along the lines of
major duchebag or just plain abuser
has tainted your beautiful smile,
because I'm sure it's not there as much as before.

I don't want you to have anxiety from fear of being hurt,
I want you to have that, heart warming, butterflies in your tummy
Anxiety

So the next few times I read, I really hope
it's ten times better then now.
Your words right now are to sweet to let die in sadness
Let them flow just from utter happiness.

I miss you every second of the day
when you are away

You take with you my smile
Even if it's only for a little while.

Everything seems so dull and gloomy
Only your return can make me happy.

Come soon I am eagerly waiting for you
My heart aches and wants to be with you.

You are in my every thought...
and dear, I miss you.
V-V

Jinxx I can't say I know what your feeling,
But I can say whatever it is I've been there,
Trying so hard do nothing but tearing and pleading.
Why not talk about it? Come on pull up a chair.

WE ARE HERE JINXX!!!!

Someone here is probably dying on the inside,
Crying her eyes out, not for anything random,
But she is crying for YOU you Jinxx.

Please don't go Jinxx...
Your poems hit so close to home...
Not only to me but to almost every single person on HP.

Your words are inspiring,
Not depriving.

Your words are comforting,
Not worthless.

YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS

You are special to everyone.
You are special to someones heart.
Not just everyone on HP,
But the one who is crying her eyes out,
Sending you messages trying to reach out to you.
The one who needs you most.

YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND JINXX

Don't go leaving us all to wonder what happened?
Don't leave Creep all alone in this world,
Don't leave all of your 69 followers alone in this world.

Don't let your demons take control Jinxx,
Cause I promise you the ground isn't as nice as someones love.
A hospital room isn't as comforting,
A knife isn't the best of friend,
Pills aren't the only pain killers...

Sometimes all we need is a smile to be put on our face by someone we know who cares and we care about.

*JINXX YOU ARE NOT JINXXED FOR LIFE...YOU ARE GOING TO BE LOVED AND CARED ABOUT FOR LIFE...I SWEAR ON MY LIFE.
JUST PLEASE DON'T GO!!!!

You don't know me like I know you

You don't love me like I love you

You don't care like I care

And for the record...

You can't love me, as good as I love you.

People always ask
"Do you still like him?"

Honestly, I don't know.
But I do know there's just something about him...

*I can't let go of...