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it's been a strange trip
trying to get to the point
where I know myself
 Mar 2021 Ian Dankowski
I’ve settled for the scraps for so long,
snapping up what gets tossed my way
like a feral dog
desperate for sustenance.

So frantic am I to consume
these crumbs of nourishment,
ever-focused on the next bite,
that savoring each taste isn’t possible.

Instead I willfully ignore the lack of real nutrition,
and anxiously await the next throw.
I can only imagine what a full meal from you would taste like.
 Feb 2021 Ian Dankowski
You don't know me.
I read books, listen to music, watch movies, meet friends.
I cook, I bake, I drink,  sometimes to much.
I learn new things, sometimes not enough.
I work, eat, sleep , repeat.
I draw, I wirte, I exercise.
I try to date to the date.
I have good days and I have bad days.
I struggle everyday, more than you can see.
I do all these things, trying out new ways to be me,
  that you know nothing about.

Now you don't get to look down on,
Don't you dare try lecturing me.

For you left when I was a child
and didn't care to visit.
Now you're back in my life
but it's not for my good, is it?

I owe you nothing.
Keep your distance.
gotta love your family
It can't be

That I will spend an entire life,
Begging for love,
Confused by anger,
Afraid of frowns,
Eager to blame,
Bored with myself,
Waking up dead,

Can it?
I tried to sneak up on myself. Tip toed. Didn't work.
is this
what it feels like
to be a fossil
in the making?
to have pebbles,
sand and grit
swept slowly
on top of me.
not to mention
the crushing
and deafening
of miles of water
pressing it all down
to bury me.

but sometimes
sometimes there's
relief and light
when someone
digs through the
weight to reveal
the shadow of the
creature that once
lay there.
but then that husk
is reduced to
cinders in a mountain
of others.
and i guess you could say
that 'power station'
is adulthood.
or life.
 Jan 2021 Ian Dankowski
i'm a self destructive person

so i relate to the lines

'fine, make me your villain'

because sometimes i'll make myself the villain on purpose

because i think it's easier than letting someone try to forgive me

maybe i really am the villain
now i've lost two of my best friends as well as my ex-girlfriend. but do i really care? i don't know. god i ******* hate myself.
 Nov 2020 Ian Dankowski
it's just a cut.
it's just a bruise.
"what's on your leg"
it's my new tattoo.

it's just a disguise.
it's just another lie.
"what's with all the sweatshirts"
it's just style, why?

it's just a tear.
it's just a scream.
"why are you crying"
it's just a bad dream.

but it's not just a bruise,
or a tear, or a lie.
it's always "just one more"
until you die.
 Nov 2020 Ian Dankowski
I hear you speak
I can hear your words
But I'm sorry
My mind won't let me listen.
All I want is you to be mine.
Even if it takes years or infinity combined.
All I want
                                                            ­    has

In the End, It will all fit together.
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