I am but a mere pebble
your waves floating me to sleep
rocking me gently
foam seeping through my gray cracks
pulling me out into
an endless, endless ocean of blue
bringing me into a deep, deep silence
lulling me into a black, black sleep

I didn't question,
when you came into my life
nor did I oblige you
when you said the few fateful words
I love you
And I would never agree
to let you back into my
wretched, blissful life.

I stand here
Tall
Happy
Feeling better than I ever had
The single light receptor
In this black and white world

striature il bicchiere
come una lacrima contro la mia faccia
le nubi piangono con me

//Translation\

streaking down the glass
like a tear against my face
the clouds cry with me

Shadows dance along whitewashed walls
scattered dark shapes float in the air
outlining thin patches of sunshine
splattered like yellow paint
on my bedroom wall
staring out the window
feeling more depressed than before
thinking of reaching up
taking the glowing ball
by its feathers of light
taking it in my arms
and carrying it away
not to hide it from the world
but only
to scatter sunshine

The single tear
gliding to the ground
landing with a plunk
That no one can hear but you
That single tear
sailing down your cheek
that tear
can tell its story
the story of heartbreak
death
sadness
life and loss
That single tear
that you friends and family
can see with clarity
they will know
the story of that tear
as soon as they see it slide
down your pale face
just that one glistening tear
says it all

don't pull the plug
from the power source to my life
keeping me alive
making the single dot of light
that is me
go out...

Now all is black
and I ponder
silently in the dark
wishing,
wondering,
waiting,
for my dreams to come true.

Do you cower at the sight
of its slender figure
slowly slithering closer
across the cracked fall leaves?

they crunch under the weight
of your black and green scales
winding your way
c
  l
     o
  s
e
   r

Like a thread
flowing along in the dust
your bright red eyes
pierce my soul like a dagger
and when I fall to the ground
you slide up my chest
until we are face to face

I look you in the eyes
never wavering
never blinking
unmoving
your tongue flickering
mocking me

But I can't take it
My eyes twitch
almost unnoticeable
and the fire in your eyes
seems to get bigger
more powerful

The horns on your head
glowing red
like the devil inside me
And your eyes turn blue
crystal
like the crashing waves
outlining the setting sun
behind it
But my heart has frozen
your eyes cold as ice
pierce my soul like a knife
but I am already dead
.................................

No string holds me
No chains bind me
Nothing is holding me back
But you are still here
by my side
The wind blowing your hair in your face
And I'm not sure if I care
But why have I not left?
I have every opportunity to go
But I haven't gone

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                                                     forbidden wonders
                                               hidden beneath the waves
                                        All the secrets forming underneath
Buried in the darkened deep. Hidden. So no soul will find it. Forgotten. Never found
Sinking low, swimming deeper. falling onto the black sand. Falling in the darkened deep
Finding it's hidden secrets. It's virtues. The masterpiece that lies within it's dark shape
dive  dive  dive  dive  dive  dive  dive  dive  dive  dive­  dive  dive  dive  dive  dive
I will find the forbidden wonders. The hidden virtues. The  *Darkened Deep

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and I fall                                                         D
Suspended in the air
Then my feet                                                       O
My hand leaves its hold
My voice comes as a hoarse whisper
"F l y"                                                               ­              W
Will I fly?
Will I fall?
I can't go any higher  
This never ending mountain continues forever                           N
It is no different          
I look down
I can only see an endless abyss of clouds
I look at the sky above me
I grab the ledge
My feeble hand reaches up
Higher
Yet I keep going
I know I can't
I can't make it
Higher
Higher
Climbing this endless mountain
Up this never ending cliff
I heave a breath and I continue
My legs slowly grow weaker
My arms shudder
My shoulders ache
Higher
Higher
And I can only go up
My hand leaves a streak of blood that now lines my cheek
I wipe a tear from my eyes
The cliff makes deep cuts in my palms
Higher
Higher
Up
The only way
My breath comes short and rough
I scale the jagged rocks
Higher
Higher
Is go up
And all I can do
The bottom is far beneath me
Higher
Higher
I can only climb up
It's peak lies hidden in the heights of the clouds
I am clutching to the side of this endless mountain

your harsh words set my heart ablaze
following the flames that light up my darkened soul
for I am not one to be weakened by hate
but I am the master of truth, justice, candor

I may battle day by day
to send your stinging words away
for I wash my bruised skin again and again
scrubbing away the hurt left inside
from the remembrance of you
the resemblance, but also semblance
misleading, misjudging, misinterpreting
leading me away
into a dark hallway of misery
but holding clarity
sending my mind into a black hole of despair
a single light will shine.
the question is,
will you follow it?

Flying high above the clouds
Just to set out your shroud
Trapped inside with nowhere to go
But suddenly, the plane has gone slow

Skyrocketing to the earth
You wonder if it’s worth
It to die and to never be found

Watching you fly in the air
Plummeting to the ground and you want to help
But you have to stay strapped to your chair
You can hear a dog yelp
From off in the distance
You know there is no more resistance

You know that it is over so you give up the fight
You don’t want to die like a knight
So I decided to write
This poem about your flight
the flight that changed your life
and mine
but not for the better.

I used to know
a two verse song
it went like this;

If all hell breaks, who would be there to see it
And if we all die, who would be the one to know it?

If this song was to be sung
echoing from a crowd of people
began by one voice, elaborated by many
by now the song has died.
and I am the one who knows it.

Day after day,
month after month,
time goes by
people are born,
and others die...

no one can stop
the tick of the clock
tock
tick
tock,
and although many try
I know you will die
if you try
to defy
the fly
of Time.

if you've tried one thousand times
and you've failed
then try one thousand more

and if only one thing works
you've won
this endless battle

A heave in a deep breath
adrenaline courses through me
making my weak body shudder
I struggle
I huff, annoyed
My legs feel like ice
my head pounds
Sharp pain echoes through my shoulders
My world
My life
crashes beneath me
in one single blow
I drag myself to my feet
sighing heavily
gasping for breath
*Even you can't keep me down

I know
That no one is perfect
but why do we have to play by the rules
because you are perfect
For me..

1 knife
2 hands
3 tears
4 regrets
5 wishes
6 people loved and lost
7 friends gone
8 souls circling
9 times I tried
the 10th time I will succeed

too many lives changed..

too many to count.