If I was a mute
would you have listened
to what I wanted to say

If I was a mute
would you have done
the things I wanted to do

If I was a mute
would you have said
the things I wanted to hear

But why do I feel like a mute
when I had spoken all along...

In your eyes, who am I ?
A friend, a brother or just a passer-by

Is there someone you want me to replace?
Or im here just to fill up your empty space.

Im afraid, I will just be treated the same
As if this was a role playing game

I don't have the courage to confess
As im scared that you will not say 'yes'

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm blinded
But I love you, and that's what I have decided

When someone interrupts your silence
You feel irritated
But when they are finally gone
You feel devastated

You want her back
So you begged and plead
But end of the day
You're the only one who bled

I feel unheard and unseen
Depressed and weak
Trying to grab on to hope
As I try to survive each week

I looked happy
Cheerful in everybody's eyes
But deep down is where
All my true feelings lies

Nobody knows me
As I keep everything inside
I want to let it free
But all I did was lied

What is wrong? Are you okay?
Is all they will ask
So all my life I have decided
To live behind a mask

I want to scream
I want to cry
I just want to put a blade into my thigh

I want to buy a weapon
I wan to buy a gun
I just want to shoot the demon inside of everyone

I want to suicide
I want to feel pain
I just want to shoot the bullet right through my brain

Its a race
loneliness and depression
Who will get me
Hell or heaven