His biggest fear was just to be normal
To blend in with the crowd, not to stand out like he used to
To do everything by the rules instead of making his own
Like his old dreams were just thrown in the trash from one day to another

But his biggest fear of all was to be okay with never being anything more or less than just okay.

We roll back and forth
From side to side
Looks so needy
Grips so tight

Unbuttoned shirt, ripped dress
Will soon end up on the ground
With all the rest
The gentle touch or the hard hand

The screams for god
The squeeking bed
This night, I may never forget

One of the most beautiful things is a girl who doesn't know how much beauty that she holds inside her

"I love you" she once said
But now they are just fading memories of you two laughing: in the couch or in the bed

"Forever" was another promise she could never keep
Now you can just sit down,remember and weep

"My love for you will never go away"
Too bad she decided not to stay

I think the point I'm trying to make is that you can write,sing or rhyme
But maybe,just maybe nothing lasts for all the time

I think many have a wrong idea about heaven
To me heaven is just being there with you
There could be fire
There could be clouds
But nothing really matters
As long as there's you
This bed
These sheets
Candlelight
And the exact same feeling that this moment may last an eternity

Waking up next to another one
Trying to avoid any eye contact
As it would scare us like staring in the barrel of a gun
As it would make the other human again, capable of feelings

We shut this down because we tell ourselves we don't need it
That we don't ache for a little bit of love
It's just too **** hard to admit

But still sleep around because we like the intimacy
Trapped in a bed until the sun comes
Because we've lost ourselves literally

We ignore everything our heart tells us to
As night falls the world will start crumbling
So when you're still on top of the world enjoy the view

"Why does he drink so much?" They asked

He answered: "To drive away the pain of uselessness. To numb the feeling my world could come crashing any minute with the next wrong decision I make"
And after that ,he drinks another one and does the exact same thing he just said he shouldn't do:make another bad decision

Sometimes I think we are just like the planets drifting further and further away from each other without ever realising it

There were two strangers who had both been hiding in a barn from the storm that was rushing over the town
They both sat, each on his side of the room, and were just staring at the empty walls in front of them
But when their eyes met, something magical happened,they just stared at each other for minutes and a light smile began to form on their faces
Now they realized how ignorant they were before, fate has put them together, so step by step they came closer and from the first touch they both knew that this was just right
And from that moment on, the storm didn't scare them anymore
As they had already found silence,peace and love in each other's arms

It's simple, we're all just sinners.

And I, as the worst of all, laugh at the idea there might be no heaven...

His pills were to eliminate all thoughts
His smokes to hide weakness
His lines to forget memories
Alcohol to feel good again

...And finally a knife to end it all

But in the morning,
When the sobriety strikes
And the smoke has cleared

What will we have? Just another broken memory of a face that fades more and more every day of a night of drinking poison and doing all possible sins