Arii - Hello Poetry

Mar 24

Jia En

Orator

If you really
Meant what you said about
Caring for me,
I wouldn't always have to be
On the lookout
For signs that you
Truly do;
If you really
Trusted me
Then there wouldn't be
That wall between us; or
Perhaps I mean more
To you than most but I
Never really
See
It, you know?
Actions speak so
Much louder than words,
Have you heard?

Arii Mar 24

Me?

I love you more than anything.
Now,
           I’m breaking apart to the
                                                        ground.

I’m wasting my minutes
                                            And hours,
                                                                  And days
                                                                                      And weeks
                                     Andmonthsandyearsand—

I love you more than anything.
How,
          could you be so
                                        everything,
                                                              anything.
How
          could you love
                                      someone,
                                                        something
                                                                            like me?

#love #yearning #desire #insignificance

Mar 23

Jia En

Untitled

Sometimes I feel like dying
There isn't any point in trying
To be the person I used to be
The me
That people actually
Love. Barely
Any
Energy
Left for the simplest of punctuation.
My notebook hasn't been touched in days
(Like I said, there's no point anyway)
It burns to even glance at it
Glance at the me that's supposed to be
Alive and thriving
But is simply
Rotting away
Doing what I can't say
But it's all fine
It's better to leave nothing behind
Than to have set fires for
Others to put out
When I'm not here anymore.

burnout.

#tired #kmn

Arii Mar 21

Rotten Fruit

You bring out the worst in me
And I can’t believe I didn’t see
Your true intention.
No wonder there was alway so much tension

When we’d

Sit around and
talk about

A future that we
didn’t have

A future that I couldn’t see
A future you took away from me.

It doesn’t sting,
it doesn’t burn.
It tastes bitter on my tongue,
but it doesn’t hurt.

No, I won’t let you get to me,
no more,
I won’t let you wreck me
any more.

Leave me be, and
maybe you’ll see
You’re not who you make yourself
out to be.

#wrongdoing #injustice #betrayal #abuse #greed

Arii Mar 21

Shut Down

I’m watching a movie
But there’s no sound, no light,
Then what could it be that I see?
A hoax? Oh, no.
The screen goes blank and my show cuts out.
I don’t know how
To fix the cables and wires and switches
And my,
Oh my,
It’s broken, I think.
“But I can’t fix it? That can’t be!
I can solve this!” I would say,
But I truly don’t know what I’m looking at.

After too long, an hour or two,
I sigh and get up.
"I’ll just call someone to come over and"
"Help."

#acceptance #assistance #help #support #humility #malfunction

Arii Mar 19

Here, Now.

I
can’t
Tell.  if
The      sky
Above       Is real

Or not          Quite there

Quite near                            Enough
To hold                                                   The stars
In the                                                                             Palm of
My hand                                                                                         And be
So glad                                                                         That I
Can see                                             The light
That shines         All through

The night.       Will it

Go out? Will it?

Will      it?

Go
out?

#stars #sky #reality #dream #darkness #light #shining #twinkling

Arii Mar 18

Candle Wick

Sometimes I feel like
I’m stuck in a dark cage
With nothing for company
But a tiny, tiny flame.

It gives off
a comforting warmth.
It’s nice having company,
But still, I am torn.

I fear for the day
It’ll extinguish in a second or half.
I would feel not but sorrow,
For I do not have

A lighter, or a matchbox
To bring back its light.
What can I do,
If not, beg to keep it alight?

#candle #fire #burnout #loneliness