there is a way to feel no hurt
there is a way for their words to lose
the sting

there is a way to die by no others hand
but your own

.
to care deeply is to be blissful and terrified all at once
you should not be able to put me back together.
you should not have the power to tear it all down again.

all the questions you ask of god echo back.
how have you not yet learned to save yourself?

I think in a small way, I always knew it was you
you've always taken care of me quietly
told me difficult truths
surprised me with my favorite drink
(you memorized my order)
because you knew I was sad before I even
told you
you make me want to be a better person
I am a better person because of you
I like myself better with you

there is a time and a place in which I am entirely and completely loved. in which my demons have been quieted and my mornings are soft. I will be safe. I will love and be loved without questioning.
I will create my own paradise.

but now that I've found you
and you're millions of miles away
it hurts worse

come home