As I conquer the last step and take in the new environment
Everything around me is brown
Different hues of the same color
So new, yet so familiar.
My eyes shift to the table where you sit
All of a sudden I feel the air change
I can't breathe
The chemistry is thick and I can't fight it
I sit down and take a closer look
Your eyes pierce me with a shade that I've never experienced before
The indigo tint is a welcome relief
And it's one that I certainly didn't expect to find here
Like a magnet, I feel you pulling me across the table
With every glance, the urge grows stronger and stronger
I can't put it into words, but something is there
A million thoughts, feelings, hopes, and dreams are exchanged without using a single word
Loneliness and hopelessness fade into the background for just a spell
And I don't know what to do next.
I giggle as I'm drowning
I'm gasping for each breath
I turn my head and cover my mouth as if that's going to stop the deep blue waves from rushing over me
It's not enough.
I sink deeper.
Sleep it off.
I try, but I can't get you off my mind.
All I want is to find you and allow the magnetism to take over.

If you could see me now

Would it make a difference?

I'm not sure.

And

Honestly,

There's no way to know

Because

Even if you did,

Everything has changed.

Sure.. you'd see me,

But...

It would be in a different light.

There were so many things that I wanted you to know.

I strove hard to prove it and show it because

Actions speak louder than words.

But, the opportunity never presented itself.

Then, one day, I broke down.

I said.

I said all of it.  

Well..

Almost all of it.

I stopped just shy.

(And, I still wonder what the outcome would've been if I didn't. That, however, is another question for another day and another time )

But, now...

Here I am...

Living out that 'dream'.

If only you knew!

That's the line that keeps running through my mind.

The musing that haunts the quiet moments.

Would it make a difference?

Would you begin to call me your own?

Would you say,

'I can't believe that I can call you mine', lov

If you could see me now?

Is the healing worth the pain? 
Is the peace worth the anger? 
Are the scars worth the wounds? 
Are the memories worth the void? 
I promise that I never meant to hurt you. 
That's one reality for which I was not prepared.

I don't feel creative

no

there is no starlight

in my soul


I can lie

or tell the truth

but I am saying nothing

new

I've seen what my heart can do.
Now...
There's no going back.
Everything pales in comparison to what I know.
Because...
I've seen what my heart can do.

Love from Others....................Love for Another
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