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anne Dec 2013
His hands lie resting avoidant, anxious like trapped dust on top of the shelf waiting to be swept
His eyes turned away looking at the plaster wall as if the wall was his only companion in the room
His smile is hidden from its owner scared of the punishment it may face
His heart is overcomed by all the talking in brain, all the **** thinking like a disease  
His knees bends like a single corner of a shy square
His whistles are often quiet but when frustrated they are balloons getting furiously poked by a needle
His footprints are subtle small occupants of my mind, and he is my everything
Yet if he would be in my heart, his square shyness would not fit in my round heart
inspired by an simon armitage activity in a creative writing class in SFSU.
PEARL SMOKE Jun 2018
Scared Prt 1.
2014
iM Scared Of Losing What
iHave Left.
iM Scared Of Seeing What
iHave Left Go Away.
iM Scared Of Disappointing
My Loved Ones Again.
iM Scared Of Being Reminded
What the reality of Drugs.                        can do once again.
iM Scared iF iM Sober Then Fall
iWont Ever Change again
iM Scared The Drugs Can
Take over me Like it Has before
Once more.
Scared Of Feeling Numb And Live The Whole Drug Addiction Cycle all over.

Scared prt 2.

I Relapsed & Now I'm worried.
Will I Go back to my old ways?
As much as I desire The Feeling of escaping my reality,
I can't live Like that. I don't want to be a drug addict all over again.
The Feeling Is pleasant . The Living of being 1 Is Horrific.

Scared prt 3
2017
I’m scared
Of never finding hope
To believe my life has no worth
To never finding a light
To get lost in the
Darkness of my depression.
Im Scared
To never feel true happiness
To believe I have
No purpose in life.
To see I really don’t matter ..
I’m scared to prove
Myself right.
To really never start a life.
I’m scared to
Then lose my self again
To lonely nights with toxic touches

Scared prt 4

Be aware
I’m not scared like I used to be.
To lose  you, see you walk out.
Watch you leave & end us.
I have drugs.
To replace you,
Forget who you were
Erases our memories & best times.
Be aware
If you do me *****, I don’t care.
Drugs will always be there .
Il depend to forever not feel..
If you leave me, I won’t cry.
I have lines to get me past times.
So please know , I’m not scared.
To be left ,

Scared prt 5
2018

I’m Trapped.
I’m not ok , I’m not safe.
The habits creeping up.
Slowly but rapidly.
I believe I got it together.
I tell myself I got it under control.
But do I really?
Relapsing after 2yrs is making an impact.
I’ve been falling frequently.
For a short time but I’m still using .
It will take ahold of me unexpectedly.
Slowly convince me this Drug life’s worth risking .
I need help .
I look fine.
I haven’t used severely but my minds hyped.
Il Get To that level.
If I don’t reach out in time.
My thoughts are converting slow
I can feel the careless emotions growing.
That’s why I’ve found it so easy to use and get away with it.
“Just today” “it’s only alittle” “I can handle this”
That’s until I build up my tolerance.
Lord Help me .. you know il cause heartbreaks if I turn back to what I Once was..

Scared

I’m so scared.
To get played again .
To get lied and betrayed.
I’m scared of my reaction.
I know il die alive.
I won’t even have the strength to ****** you.
I’d be so broken and just let the world walk all over me.
If you Do me *****
I’d lose it completely.
You’d prove all my doubts correct.
Assumptions I already knew were true in my head.
If you play me, Id lose my head.
Literally, go insane due to confusion & hate.
If you hurt me.
Drugs is what I’m going to be out searching.
Not even ask for an explanation.
I’d be too focused walking straight ahead to my connects house.
If you do me shady.
I Will Be angry at the world.
Scream to the top of my lungs
“WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS
I would drown myself in drugs.
I’d hate the world completely for hurting me when I’ve done none wrong.
I’d go So crazy.
How can I So Loyal Be Played With.
Etcetc can’t even write more

Scared prt 6

2018
Im not scared
Anymore .
I don’t know what to feel
Anymore.
I think I’m worried,
I just don’t feel it
Anymore.
My thoughts try to
Tell me something’s wrong.
I Can’t think of anything..
I’m unsure If I’m ok.
I don’t know if I’m
Even thinking straight.
I remember once feeling
So afraid.
I had to seek help on my own .
For the sake of my sanity.
My heart felt a heavy
Storm coming.
It rushed me to look out
Find shelter .
With strong material .
I started moving .
But did I act fast enough ?
Did I act before or after
Time had already passed..

Scared prt 7.
I’m scared
To Relapse & Stay Stuck
To give up recovery
I’m scared to
Look at you and walk away forever.
To just not care wether you believed I truly loved you.
I’m scared
For my love to be trapped
For all My strength to be gone
Lose it all ,
I’m crying.
Addiction will forever live in me
Wether Active or Overcomed
This drug will Always come
Aslong as I’m Happy , Positive
I won’t want to take a hit
But Even if nothing’s going on
My body & mind will randomly itch.
Ive been walking with this for too long to just erase it .
To forget I had a habit .


Scared prt 8
Jan 2018
Im not scared
Anymore .
I don’t know what to feel
Anymore.
I think I’m worried,
I just don’t feel it
Anymore.
My thoughts try to
Tell me something’s wrong.
I Can’t think of anything..
I’m unsure If I’m ok.
I don’t know if I’m
Even thinking straight.
I remember once feeling
So afraid.
I had to seek help on my own .
For the sake of my sanity.
My heart felt a heavy
Storm coming.
It rushed me to look out
Find shelter .
With strong material .
I started moving .
But did I act fast enough ?
Did I act before or after
Time had already passed..

Scared Part 9
Am I Fine.
Will I not rack a line.
Never touch a Rock in my life.

Am I Good.
Will I not Use again .
Will temptations not be seen as threats ?
Can I handle.
My urges to not Tweak again.
Will my triggers Be nothing to worry about?

Will I never feel tempted.
Have I finally over come every Obstacle of addiction?

I’m sorry.
I’ve worsen , I’m stuck once again.
This time it will be harder .
I’m a recovering addict
Stuck in a constant relapse Cycle.
What must I do
Should I sit & wait
On my next down fall ..

SCARED PRT 10

March 2018
I Didn’t notice.
Like always
I believed I had it all under control.
Everything was ok.
Everything seemed fine.
I felt normal,
I would stop soon.

I was Wrong ..
I Fell Down So quick.
I went hard.
No dubs or teeners.
I went straight to a Ball.
I just went all out.


I lost myself again.
I Lost control of the substance.
I Was trapped.
It became a problem.
One I wasn’t aware of.
I Had no recognition of at all.
I Didn’t see that I couldn’t stop.
I kept going
Kept using without seeing the frequency.
The days spent stuck.
I lost touch with reality.
This previous Relapse
Has been the worst in my life .
I haven’t had a binge like this time since 2015.
I used every day .
For 6 1/2 Weeks.
I lost track of the days & time.
I Sniffed & Smoked 2 8 ***** all to my self.

At the time I didn’t see how crazy that was.
Those weeks, an 8 didn’t surprise me.
The amount didn’t shock or Worry me.

I was fine , I had control.
I was doing ok , everything seemed & felt normal.
It was just a small relapse.


I was wrong
I lost touch with reality.
I formed a habit .
I was addicted again .

The sad part is
I’m able to acknowledge this Only through writing.
In real life , my denial mind
I’m able to handle my addiction. I’m ok & Dont have a problem.


It angers me.
Since my 1st Relapse
In August.
I’ve Fallen Very often.
It saddens me.
How I quickly Skipped
The Weight.
Why does it worry me?
My mind will no longer seek a Dub when I’m triggered to use.
It will want Another ball.

Anything less
My Addictive mind
no longer craves.
It now settles for Big.
This relapse has changed the game for my addict ways.
I’ve Relapsed every month
Since August.
I Had it all under control.
I Was able to use and stop.
Just this last time
I completely lost it.

Scared prt 11

I’m scared .
To lose my strength.
Have no durability.
To Give in So quick.
Be that weak
Where I don’t fear Tweak.
Find it easy
To just go seek.

I’m Worried
To reach that level .
Just Relapse constantly .
not care who Knows.
My problems
Have me overwhelmed.
Every day
The Stress grows .
I can’t bare another
Tug & Pull.
aniket nikhade Sep 2016
Let peace be there in life
Let peace be a part of life
Peace when attained will give life an opportunity to bank upon an uncertian future in the present and over a period of time define the same,
if not completley, then at  least in part and part of it.

Let peace be there in life
Let peace be a part of life
Let peace occupy a definite place in life, even when it’s clear it’s not going to remain there forever and become permanent.

A little bit of disturbance not only breaks the silence of the moment in time, but it also affects the peace of mind leading to deviation, again which obviously is not the need of hour.

Finally it's peace of mind, which when attained will settle down the chaos and confusion of life over a period of time.

Dreams
Desire
Passion
Contentment and finally it’s peace of mind.

Restlessness of mind seeks peace for sure, since devoid of it was life in the past and also prior.
If silence is golden, which definitely it is,
then once when peace of mind is attained the value of silence will get enhanced because life is now moving more towards what is known as satisfaction.

Dreams
Desire
Passion
Contentment and finally it’s peace of mind.

Over a period of time it’s understood, agreed and accepted that time passes by quickly,
time slips out of hands,
what remains are dreams as they are,
as it is and as they were.

Dreams have got a place in life
Dreams are part of life
However, dreams play a very important role in shaping the future with regards to what is there in the present.
The only thing that needs to be remembered, then at that point in time is that dreams have got substance while imagination is more of what goes on in mind.

Dreams
Desire
Passion
Contentment and finally it’s peace of mind.

If something has changed,
then it’s the presence of the present moment in time in the present,
since the attention it has gained is much more than what is used to get prior.

Definitely odds have their own way of making there presence felt in life
Odds when overcomed change life, since experience gets enriched
In order to shape everything in the present in a better way expertise is put to test and in action.
As of now everything is not the same as it used to be in the past and as it was prior
Things have changed since odds are no longer a part of the way

Dreams
Desire
Passion
Contentment and finally it’s peace of mind.

Distinguished from the past,
defined in present,
the existence of the present moment in time in the present gives life the much needed meaning and substance,
devoid of which life was when it came across and against an odd and faced the same.

Strange are the ways of life
Strange seems life, but then this unique strange thing in life called “an odd”, gives life a new meaning and adds substance to life making it much more interesting.
Definitely odds are part of life and they have got a place in life, however, when odds are overcomed life gets a new way to look at the outside world.

Dreams
Desire
Passion
Contentment and finally it’s peace of mind.

Strange are the ways of life
Strange seems life, however, that’s life and life continues to go on along with the same.

Life continues
Life goes on
Life follows the present moment in time, which very soon will become a thing of past.
Life will then follow the next moment in time, which at that point in time will represent the moment in time.

Life goes on
Life continues
Life follows the same.
aniket nikhade Oct 2016
Let the present moment in time settle in it’s entirety
Let everything come back to normal from where it started as it is,
as it used to be and as it was prior.
Let everything come back to normal
Let today be a part of routine as was yesterday
Everything will get worked out,
everything will fall in it’s place,
if one decides not to give up.

Odds are part of life
Odds have got a place and make there presence felt in life,
however, life is also incomplete without the inclusion of odds as a part of life
Odds when tackled successfully and overcomed they then determine the calibre, capability and expertise of an individual.

If something has happened for good, then good will be followed by better and better by best, if it’s decided to continue along the same line of getting things done.

To start with something of which there is a faint idea that something like this can be done is the easiest thing
To continue along with the same is an uphill task and that is what is known as doing something apart,
different from routine,
however, everything in life happens over a period of time and so does expertise, which is gained only when experience is earned.

So one way or the other
In someway for sure
Bottomline has always remained the same as it is forever,
Never give up in life,
then no matter what comes along your way.
Always remember
Keep it in mind and follow the same
Never give up in life.
Dark soul May 2015
The hunger and anger striked upon with
For the vicious play of life
All gone frenzy for
the lust of power of ruling
Lust so crave full
One doesn't mind its own destruction for owning it    
Kings thrive
Armies rise
Kingdoms fall            
They think that they have
the power over all
But deep down underneath
power consumes us all
Realms burned to the ground
By the people overcomed by Madness of power
Didn't realize that
they were the ones
Playing for nothing
but those remains;
Ashes of the forgotten ones°•.
NOLWAZI JOUBERT Jun 2015
Just an odinary girl
with an extraordinary heart
i cannot keep quiet when i know
that my heart is bleeding.
I cannot keep quiet anymore
and i know it that it attracts my enemies.

I wouldnt fear to be hated
neither to lose a friend
lonely did i come
and lonely will i depart
i know they throw curses
but how far will they get through
that solid heart.

I used to have a smile
that glowed in the dark
for it overcomed the shadowed night
but now all is hallow
and i feel my heart sinking
into the shallow seas

i know they throw curses
but i am still willing to forgive
even though i would never smile
anymore
i feel sorry for you
because you dont know
how far pain cant shot through my heart anymore
Sometimes the Trails that you have to go through.
Are the things that ave you from death or worst.
For though the trials you become strengthen enough.
To overcome the next trial and so forth after that.
So instead of giving up, and taking one's life after.
You keep preserving through all of these trials .
For when we see whom Christ is as our Savior.
He shall be with us through all of our trials.
Helping to strengthen us in all things against us.
That the evil scummy demons throw against us.
The voice Sep 2013
So passive so suddle
So hard to believe
One chance and that's all
It takes to make the best
So.long of a road
So hard of a challenge  
So hard to see
Intimidating to be
Really trying to go ahead
Ahead of a non ending world
A challenge that can't be overcomed
Ahead to a strange mistery
A simple blow in the air
Calling out my name telling me to breathe
Telling me to not stop
Pushing me of calling me out
And guiding me
Into this life
That I am meant to live
But how?
Live?
That's so easy yet hard,
Something I yet don't seem to understand,
Life out there is like a holocaust
Words ****
Looks discriminate
Phrases simply push you away

How to live this life
When this life is against you!!!
How to live??? WITH GOD!!!
Dark soul Apr 2015
What was the time when we started the evolution of ourselves ?
What was the time set when the first clock was built ?
Past is only an abyss overcomed ,
Passed and been through with our minds physically and mentally
And future a chasm to be magnetized into and dragged down in ; working and going so hand in hand that like writing this piece of verse being the present is being my future as well
The window of transition from present to future being so narrow it actually overlaps one another in ways
So thoughtful and ineffable
The present being me writing these lines and the future being the outcome the whole verse which is now in process while I write this
Only a thin line of perspective and time difference or backlog occurs between them
Keeping the both distinguished from
each other letting them mean what they truly attribute for
There are three abstracts working simultaneously -the past present and future
The cognition of the brain undergoing a change in every single milli - seconds ; a transition from its current state of mind , carrying the neural data of the past nostalgia into the future
Those 3 abstracts                                               Playing its game of mutation and novelty over mind and body ...
While in all this the soul is the one feeling the time .....
DAVID Aug 2016
silence the everlasting
fire, and the thirst of
your skin,  well satisfed.


never doubtfull,  your eyes
shine of placer, desire, and
complete satisfaction.

humdty in my pelvis, the
silky and sour shine, in the
lap of this gratefull  and loved
lion.

and for a minute,
just in that moment, im
complete, serene, loved, wanted,
a full beast, serened and thankfull

the sorrow, the pain, and fouling acts,
and the brutal theft, are just bumps,
overcomed, erased with the humidity
of your ***.

doubtfull is the one, that  
has not loved, her lie is a heavy
cross, dark, fatal, deadly, her soul
will never love beneath the divine
phalus.

in return, your eyes, truth,
love and venture, loving an
impossible, but loving even so,
stertores of your  loved and
kissed ******.

penetrated, softly and ferouciously,
are the echo of the fire, crashing the
sea, making life, steam, watering the
earth, generating the trofhic cicle,
of life, fire and water, steam of life,
passion between two beasts,
beautiful and loved.

your honney and your
desire, WILD, intense,
evergreene,  are vitals,
for a beast of montecristo,

that just drags, harm and pain,
of betrayal, every cut, every  scratch,
every stabing, made of me, the strong man
that y am.

unbreakcable, and living, loving impossibles
destroying the lies, ending the weakness
of  layars, full of hate,  and envy,
for losing  that, holding our
lives.

after that, and for their weakness
montecristo is the winner, a beast
with a heart, learning to love, the possible
and the impossible, to dissapear in the other,
rapped in her ligth, and her beauty,


the evil and weak of the mondego girls,
only speed up, their catastrophy,
y stand alone before their mistakes, and their
lies and anathems, turn against them,
truth clean the waters, and the fire make the
steam, that generates life, makng a full cicle.

so, threw desire, and mutual passion,
impossible happens, in the name of life,
and love, the desire quimera, could never erase
the time we touch, dispise the difference
full and wild.

generating steam, making life,
roaring, *******, groaning, and
in my mind and in yours, the same
desire, the overwelming truth, our truth,
and the incompresible lie, vain, the
echoes of the false, and ther infectious lies,
corrupting wath was always life.

the false notion of love, and their
acomplisses, with her conning, and the
not aceptacion, vain or insane,
dark, crazy and
incomplte.
this one's for the ladies. is not the engine is the choices, just that and aceptation , ] all mi love for the ones with aceptation and a clean heart.[
Thato Mar 2015
There are voices in my head
That decide to
Come out every night

They control every
Subdivision in my mind
And induce all the pain

They give freedom
To all my thoughts and secrets
For them to fill my soul

They give me the strength
Throughout the night
To face all my fears

But in the morning
I'm back to the same
Fears I overcomed at night

But how could such be temporary
How can it come only at night
And just disappear like that in the morning

Dear voices in my head
Speak to me now
For I've lost all hope
In finding my true worth in life
kittyka Feb 2014
life surely brings you down
but who said it leaves you there hanging on a twig
you may raise concrete walls to protect your self
but are you ?
you seal away the  " bad "
not knowing that there are moments
just waiting to take you n show you the great little things
but alas you are to scared
you have given up ...
given up to soon

your to stubborn to break those " protective " barriers that surround you
to proud to admit you alone
to hellbent on your believes
that you don't even stop to realize
that what if...
things are no longer how they use to be
what if..
those people who tormented you have ... have started a new
what if...
things around you have finally changed

why
because you are to scared to get hurt again..
petrified that you will be left all alone out in the cold

just remember
that HE
gives you things
not beyond you capacity
because he knows your limit
he knows what you are capable off

and once you succeed
you grow as an individual

because you have overcomed without taking the easy way out
eccedentesiast Jan 2015
In the closet, she laid curled up on the floor. Her vision overcomed by darkness and all she could hear was the collision her eyelashes made with the lens of her glasses.

She remained very still as she heard her fathers heavy footsteps slowly fade away as he headed downstairs. She didn't want him to find her, nor her mother.

She was tired of receiving hateful glances and shouts directed at her. She didn't understand why they hated her so much. Why they used her in order to release their anger.

She dreamed of the day she'd finally be able to leave this horrible place that no longer deserved to be named home.
Nitish thakur Sep 2017
1.
(Short quote)
I have legs,I wanna fly..
I don't have wings..,
But I wanna try..
I can leave everything..
But not my dreams..!


2.
(Cover)
Sometimes things can change,
But you don't  try..
Sometimes you weep alone..
Cause you are wry,
Sometimes your ego..
And self respect becomes greater than you..
Sometimes you take it as wrong..
Sometimes you just need to try..
Every situation and circumstances..
Can be overcomed..
And i will be overwhelmed..
If you say me a "Hi"..

Sometimes,you let me cry..
Cry and only cry..
For my miseries and mistakes..
Baby do you think..
I only need to die..?

Maybe You will be happy,
May that happen too..

But Till I am alive..,
I wanted to saw your charms and beauty.
The beauty which was ever mine..,

Even you didn't admit,I knew all that..
I don't know what happened and how.!

A STORMY WIND CAME AND BLEW THE ALL..! But still,sometimes when I am on the ****,everything slows down..and when I am sinking,I see a spark..far away. I don't if it's  hope. But,I know..Even if it is..you'll never Recognise it.
(It's caption) :-
Say that you love me..,
Say that you miss me..,
Say what you feel..
Say you'll **** me..
For my habits,and my mistakes..
Say that you'll slap me hard,
When you meet me..
Say that I look ugly..
Say that you'll be mine..
Say whatever it is,
It will be fine.

Say at least anything,
And I will be okay.

If you won't how will I know.
I have listened a lot by your eyes,
But you said I was wrong.
How can I be wrong again.

3.
I still remember how you had disrupted my silence..
I remember,how you had torn the papers of my copy,when we had a quarrel,
I remember,how I had cut my hand,
I remember,how you had plucked a flower.
Still remember,you used to unrooted the grass,to throw on me.
When we sat together,in the ground.
Ouch,still remember how you had bite my fingers..
When you were eating out of my hand.
I remember,how you broke the phone,
And how you smashed the bottles,

I still remember,how you had broken the flower ***,
And was still laughing.

I remember,how you fell by dad's bike,
And had broken the pass lights,
And i lied to him.,I had lost control.

I remember,how you cracked the IIT,
I remember,how you was on infinity.
I remember,how I had become less for U.
I remember,how you had come home..
And said me to treat as a friend.

I remember,how you had said to "forget you",
And termed my love as "****" .
I remember,how calmly you broke it,
And how harshly it made the sound.
I remember,how I had been numb.
Hadn't eaten by weeks,
How pointlessly i passed the streets.

4.
I miss you in the darkness,
I miss you in the  light.

I miss you being missen,
When i was high.

I miss you on the question-
"Why i am shy"..?
What's  wrong with me,
If i also loved you.

I miss your laughters and,
Well,laughing really hard. .

How hard you have been .?
The desires.
Jonae Oct 2018
Drowning inside of my head
My thoughts poking at me
Edging me to do things that I shouldn’t
To hurt others... to destroy myself, to make everything bleed

Struggling to think of happy thoughts
Brighter days;
Being overcomed by waves of anger and sadness

Empty promises cause my mind to surge

Why do I keep letting people do this to me -
Why can I not tell them how I feel -
Why do they say what they can never do...
Why do I believe?

A hurricane is storming inside of me,
My tears the only sign of pain
A sign that only my bedroom sees.

Though I’m grounded
I’m lost at Sea
DC raw love Dec 2014
When paddling down the stream of life
Things for the most part are beautiful

Yes we do see some strange things
Things that we've never seen before

As we continue our journey
Through this stream of time

Some parts of this journey is very kind
You will deffently hit the rapids
Where your heart starts to pound

But there not forever
As you begin to calm down

There will be rocks in the way
That will make your trip hard
But there easily overcomed
And your journey will go on

This steam we go down
Has many obstacles

Some very easy, some very hard

Keep this in mind
And your life goes on
Tori nelson Dec 2014
People who are broken
Are the strongest.
They can't be broken anymore
Because they already were.

They have faced the darkness.
They have choked on the hatred.
They have felt other's pain.
They have engulfed the fire.

And, in the end,
They have overcomed it all.
People who are broken,
You better stand tall..

Because, really,
What is there left to fear?
Abednigo Mogale Oct 2018
Speechless

You hinder me helpless
Shred my pride and leave me defenseless
Head spinning words lost
thoughtless
Weak from my knees
Air lost from my lungs
breathless
Eyes shut hearing disrupted
Senseless
Your scent choke my veins
Starving my brain of oxygen
Overcomed by weakness
How do I escape your grip on my soul
To find my sanity
Lifeless
The alphabets
Run dry
counting numbers end
How do I describe
Without the meaning of words
How you make me feel.
Speechless
Alexander Stutz Nov 2015
Lost and forsaken
Bottled up regret
Look down deep
At things that where said
Broken dreams
Layed to waste
Explosion of dread
Overcomed with greif
Tears fall
rivers form
Fog rolls in
Brace yourself for a storm
Mystery worn like a cloak
Darkness hides motives
Looking for hope
Chains of depression locked
Cage sealed shut
Blood fills the cuts
Memories seep out
Wounds inflicted
So thought of her don't fade
Hold on tight
Need to breath
Every breath reminds
That night
Fire burns
destroying beauty
Flames dance with despair
Dreams engulfed in the flames
Nothing left but mortar and ash
Deception was the ignition
Trust was the wood
Every kiss kindled the fire
words caressed the smoke
Leaves fall like butterflies in the night
Slowly fading mid flight
What was once indescribable
Is now a novel
Left to me to know the ending
For life and love fragile glass
No heartbeat left to bind back together
Gr8Ryzyngz May 2019
Praying for
A renewing of my faith
My rooted and grounded
Has been wavering of late
Asking earnestly
That these tests
In my testimonies
Be overcomed rather than
Be the earthly death of me
But if dear God
You can't or won't
Take the bitterness
Of this very large cup from me
Please let thy will
Bring out only the
Best it seems you see in me
Minhazborah Aug 2019
Two happy souls met in the last bench,
Encircled in chit-chats and gossips,
They together built an imperishable relation!
Swimming deep in this oceanic bond,
They symbolized each other as a light house of joy!
More like an antidote to their poisonous wounds!


With a sudden shift!
A new face was welcomed now!
And the need of three musketeers ,
popped up in utter joy,
Just like a dove within two love birds!
Chit-chats and gossips widened,
And the circle was now of three!
A circle,very unique and blissful!
But as a group of three,
The essence of oddness prevailed!
Further,chit-chats and gossips,
Replaced by backbites and betrayls,
Confusion and pain hidden quite good,
By a handkerchief bleeding with tears!

They cursed time!
They cursed the bond!
They cursed the number"3"
For making them question....
Why even a knot in the bond,
Can't ease away this pain?
Why is this so tender?
Why so fragile?
And....

What is FRIENDSHIP?










So my dear this is to tell you that.....


Just like the sun let its shine upon the moon,
Just like the moon let its shine upon the Earth,
Playing the role of three musketeers!
It still faces eclipses,
Widened with darkness,
Overcomed with shine and shine,
It still lets a new beginning!
PEARL SMOKE Jan 2018
I’m scared
To Relapse & Stay Stuck
To give up recovery
I’m scared to
Look at you and walk away forever.
To just not care wether you believed I truly loved you.
I’m scared
For my love to be trapped
For all My strength to be gone
Lose it all ,
I’m crying.
Addiction will forever live in me
Wether Active or Overcomed
This drug will Always come
Aslong as I’m Happy , Positive
I won’t want to take a hit
But Even if nothing’s going on
My body & mind will randomly itch.
Ive been walking with this for too long to just erase it .
To forget I had a habit .
PEARL SMOKE Jan 2018
Ive hurt
Every time I lied.
I’ve beat myself over
For denying what was true
I care deeply for you
Though you see lies
I don’t make you a fool
I don’t intend to
I hate the nights
Where I have been wide awake
Were you asleep think
I’m dreaming too
It’s hurts me so much
That I can’t be true , I can’t resist
i breaks me down that I
Relapsed ,
Wanting not to do but
addiction manipulatesr Too
I hate that as I lay you
You must imagine I’m having a good time .
When I’m High
You imagine that I’m enjoing
Not knowing all I think is how
much more this ***** tearing me apart.
I’m crying.
Addiction will forever live in me
Wether Active or Overcomed
This drug will Always come
Aslong as I’m Happy , Positive
I won’t want to take a hit
But Even if nothing’s going on
My body & mind will randomly itch.
Ive been walking with this for too long to just erase it .
To forget I had a habit .
BABY IT HURTS ME
I’m continuously Struggling
To Get over everything
Be able to resist.
ITS HURTING ME
Baby I’m thinking , I’m breaking
I’m tearing.

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