they say you wear
the face of whom
you loved most
in a past life.
perhaps that is why
i can only see you
in everything.

~

i break like glass;
you break like waves
on the ocean.

~

~

perfectly lonely
winters night
you on my mind.
forever i’d lay here
with you in my head
cause heaven ain’t
too hard too find.

~

~

foolish are the brave
faithless are the lost
but hopeless is he;
who can love only himself

~

perhaps the greatest
suffering one can endure;
is too find someone
you cannot exist without;
and then existing without them.

~

what is love but the act
of complete surrender
to hand oneself
over so willingly
in the most beautiful
and purest form of faith
to abandon reason
to trust in madness
within that uncertainty
dwells true happiness

~

if i told the sea
the way in which
I feel for you;
she would leave her shores
abandon her waves
and follow me across
the endless horizon
in search of you.

~

the hardest part;
is knowing what
we could have become.
how the planets would
bend between us,
how the stars would weep;
in awe of our love.
how the heavens would burn
whenever we’re apart
our atoms belong together.
they have traveled
across an ocean of time
from one life, to the next
bound to each other
forever searching,
forever entwined.
that’s the hardest part;
admitting, i was made,
to love only you.

~

~

honey, you ruined me
for anyone else
nothing could ever compare.

~

~

moonlight pouring
through the window
spilling across the bed
her eyes, a wildfire burning
as she got in my head.  
a velvet touch
on satin skin
each flash of brilliant white;
a billion stars
for my eyes only
as she lit up the night.
her soul displayed
her heart unfolding
each word a perfect verse;
within your soul
that summers night
i saw the universe.

~

~

be careful what you wish for
in the darkest corners of your mind
when no one else is around
the desperation of your prayers
in the stillness of the night
be careful what you wish for
for the devil listens too
and he doesn’t always come
with a pitchfork and horns
sometimes, he comes dressed
as everything you ever wanted

~

~

with tired eyes
and mumbled breath
suspended in limbo
between the veil;
of the world awake
and realm of dream
each night i wait patient.
for there is place
where the safely insane
and longing hearts
meet once more.
amidst a sea of faces
the hands of time fall still
and then i see you;
your stare cuts me open
your gravity pulls me in
helpless, i smile.
for to be lost in your darkness
drowning in your gaze
honey soaked kisses on my lips
is the safest place i’ve ever known.

~

~

if my mind
was the universe
thoughts of you
would be the
stars that fill it
endless
countless
beyond measure

~

~

there is nothing more tragic
than the souls falling in love
simply at the wrong time

~

~

her beauty is overwhelming
like watching the most perfect
thunder and lighting storm
she demands my attention
and i cannot help
but gaze in sheer wonder

~

~

if my life was a novel
each experience
stained
forever in ink torn pages
somewhere within
a chapter is missing;
this is when i met you.
this is when everything good
happened all at once.
on those pages;
words dance
universes bend
stars weep
and time stops.
on those pages;
skies clear
seas calm
and i smiled.
for you arrived
just as a dream
from nothing
to a monsoon
a wildfire
burning through
tearing down
you revealed
the parts unseen;
an aurora borealis
a beauty so haunting
you brought me
to my knees in worship
and now;
after endless nights
countless moons
time has made me honest.
honest enough to admit;
i lost you
because i felt
so utterly unworthy
of someone
with so much wonder;
a magic unlike any other.
a bruise that never heals
i press it down;
it hurts to remember you
but it feels so good
to just remember
that it even happened at all.

~

~

perhaps foolish our hearts
for thinking we could
hold onto this forever
like castles made of sand
we once stood so beautifully
frozen in time, side by side
together as we gazed out
in awe at the waves
as they washed us away

~

~

there is no greater romance
than a love through words
that pour from the soul
staining endless pages in ink
there is no greater romance
than the souls cheated by time
yet stay afloat through the memories
when their hearts start to sink

~

a summer night
moonlight spilling
onto your bed;
a fleeting memory
a moment lost in time
laying beside you
a beautiful rapture;
and all the chemicals in my head.

~

to look out into that
endless ocean of stars
is to look deep into ones self
you are the eyes in which
the stars use to gaze back at their glory
you are an aperture of the universe
looking deep out into the darkness
to witness it’s own magnificence

~

i miss you.
i miss you more
than i ever thought
humanly possible;
over 1000 moons passed
and still;
you dominate my thoughts.
i see moments and memories
of you all around me;
everyday.
in everything.
i’ve never known
an allure like this.
so, constant.
unwavering.
i miss your advice
i miss your presence
every stolen glance
every sacred moment
magic pouring from your
cinnamon apple
stained lips
in the corridors
of my mind;
you usher me in.
in the darkest depths;
yours is a light
that never goes out.

~

even from afar
even without words
even without touch
honey, i could adore you
like dandelion wine
in every time line
in every life time.

~

~

like surrendering to the ocean
floating carelessly, weightless
lost deep within her waves
i am terrified; and yet at peace
loving you feels much the same
the more i fight these feelings
the more i struggle amidst this storm  
the more i drown in my lungs
and you pull me under
but to be lost in your waters
submerged beneath your waves
and drowning in you
is the sweetest hallelujah
i have ever known

~

the sun and moon
yearned for one another
but time kept them apart.
tracing the horizon
an endless dance
they wait for an eclipse;
proof, that even against all odds
the most improbable love
can always find a way.

~

oceans swell and foam
within her;
i was a ship
upon her waves.
planets bend
dancing between us;
the stars, in audience
jealous of her beauty.
the universe held it’s breathe
the hands of time long frozen
something brought you to me;
a cruel fate she’s spun
for now i have seen eden.
i have eaten from her tree
i have tasted her magic,
and no other kind of love;
would ever be enough.

~

~


the most tragic pain in love
steams right from the root
when our hearts can crave only
the most forbidden of fruit
the most tragic pain in love
is the flame that won't die
all we long to possess
that money can't buy
the most tragic pain in love
is the pain we are taught
when our hearts try to forget
what cannot be forgot


~

~

the hardest part
was admitting;
not that i had
loved you once
and it was lost
but that i had
loved you once
and never stopped

~

~

it was in those moments
between each stolen kiss
in that deafening silence
with starlight pouring
from your lips
i felt planets collide
universes bending
into one another
our love was never
bound for this world
our love something
else completely
as ancient as the stars
transcending even time her self
something else entirely my love
something extraterrestrial

~

~

our hearts had loved
and loved, unshaken;
behind each stolen smile
they both were breaking.
we found comfort in each other
a place to be safely insane,
a world away from normality
a place free from pain;
there are moments when i hear you
your voice trembles in my head,
and now i’m stuck telling fables
of the things i never said.

~

~

sometimes, i wonder
even after all this time,
in the quiet moments
when no one else is around
deep in the corridors
of your mind
do you ever find me again?
i still think of you.
the way you’d grab
my hand in yours,
whenever you had
something too say 
that just couldn’t wait.
or the shape of your mouth
as you’d hold back a smile;
i remember you.
in every finite detail.
perhaps, i cannot forgot you;
perhaps i refuse too.

~

~

she is a flower moon
on a still summer night
filling the sky
surrounded
outnumbered
by an endless
ocean of stars
suspended in blackness
radiating wonder
her presence;
unlike any other
her light;
a perpetual glow
even without trying
even without knowing
you outshine them all.

~

~

every tide brings with it change
every wave each breath anew;
lonely nights sat by your throne
longing to worship you,
empty roads lead me in circles
now right back at the start;
and i nothing left to blame
but my own foolish heart.

~

~

beneath a midnight sky
she took his hand in hers
placed her head upon his chest
and with a whisper she and asked;
“will you love me forever..?”
her head racing
her heart hanging in limbo
she waited in silence.
gently running his hands
through her hair
he pointed her eyes towards the heavens
“just as the stars continue to shine,
and display their beauty
even long after they are gone
i will love you, just the same
each and every night
forevermore
and long after i am gone

~

~

i struggle to define
exactly what
you mean to me
these eyes
have gazed upon
an ocean of faces
in this world
but still yours,
the only one i see
eyes that gaze
deep into my glare
cut me to the core
but god no longer cares
to hear my voice
laying passed out
on the floor
my head at war
with my heart
i simply cannot
understand
why a love
as real as ours
is left forgotten
in the sand
i walk this shore
an endless loop
in the hope
that i will find
just one more
moment
to feel your
love again
even if its
in my mind

~

~

the hardest part
about missing someone
is not in the memories
you carry closest
but the ones
you had no idea
you’d miss so much

~

~

the heavens opened
lightning crashing
though blackness
rain pouring, torrent
thunder echoed eternal
the sky crying out in anger
the universe in mourning
at the parting of our love

~

~

her lips pressed against my lips
like honey soaked confetti
her fingers cut me open with such beauty
like a daffodil machete

~

~

her beauty is the novel
that no words can describe
her beauty is the moonlight
the stars could never find
her beauty makes us equal
from sinner to a saint
her beauty is the sunset
van gogh could never paint

~

~

here is a place
my heart comes to mourn;
a place where these thoughts
are seldom my own.
a place frozen in time
your face covers these walls;
a cold lovers waltz
still haunting these halls.
a window through time  
i am left to adore;
here is a place;
i will love you, once more.

~

~

moonlight spilling from her eyes
magic pouring from her lips
the universe in audience of her beauty
even the stars would weep with envy

~

~

she was all that
i had ever wanted
to be closer to her
just like icarus
blinded by desire
and without knowing
i had flown too close to the sun
the love i once thought
could save me
had burned my wings
and left me drowning at sea
gasping for air
as the waves pull me under
it was worth it all
for that moment in time
i was closest to you


~

~

give love even to those
that deserve it least
i promise you;
they need it the most

~

i have loved you
in every way possible.
in secret,
behind whispers
hidden from sight;
words etched into canvas,
from another life.
in rapture
embraced
two bodies entwined;
too nothing but strangers,
the ghost in my mind.
i have loved you
in every way possible.
slowly
from nothing;
too then all at once.
infatuated,
possessed;
still craving your touch.

~

now all that remains
amidst the frost and the dew
a sun beam in an indian summer
and memories of you
sometimes; our ability to not forget
is the most tragic kind of pain
and the more that things change;
the more they stay the same

~

~

perhaps if the stars
could ever gaze back
upon themselves
suspended in the night sky,
revel in their own beauty.
soak in their own majesty.
in awe of their own wonder.
perhaps only then,
they would understand;
what i see in you.

~

i’m here again.
i see you without seeing you
i feel you without touch
another night, black words
on white walls
i find myself hopelessly
seeking you out.
restless, relentless
i no longer know what i even
hope to find at its end.
perhaps only the stinging comfort
of knowing your near
within my grasp
like the gods of old
filling the night sky
with so much wonder
for i to only look upon in awe.
like pyramus and thisbe
through a crack in the wall
we whisper our love.
you are engraved within me
this cannot be for nothing
i refuse it.
countless moons
have come and went
radio silence
an entire world between us
yet i cannot give up;
the idea of you.
i exist in a fantasy,
a childlike dream
i peel back the veil of time
and gaze into you once more.
i do not know
what souls are made of
but what ever it is;
ours are the same.
and if that is all
we where ever destine to be
a flicker in time
a fleeting moment
a blip in space;
then i have cheated
fate from her cruel wish.
for i have lived out
countless life's
with you in my mind  
my muse;
i have dreamt you
into my existence;
and here you remain.

~

there is a subtle beauty in madness.
an eery wonder within sadness.
like the musicians of the titanic
their final lullabies
dancing through the air
amid the screams and the panic
a moment of beauty
an expectance of fate
a beautiful surrender
as they perished beneath the waves

~

~

our love lost among starlight
frozen beneath waves i lay covered
with nothing but memories of your magic  
my dearly beloved

~

~

beneath an autumn sky
my heart calls on yours
in midnight desperation
i ache for your touch
nights of wine and worship
still linger on my tongue
like a phantom you walk my mind
every moment i’m alone

~

sometimes i come here;
just to remember you.
sometimes i come here;
to read each word written
relive every moment stolen
like a favourite novel
i find your magic once again.
for here is all i have left;
and behind words
you exist forever
here you are my ghost
my midnight haunt
here i think of you
sometimes;
most times
always.