I dress up
With nowhere to go
I look up high
To get hit down below
My life is constant
With nothingness
I'm a sparkle
In a void
Of boringness

I lay in bed and dream
As years pass me
I'm nearly thirty
And still
Never laughing

I love feathers
And sequins
Dancing in the evening
Glamor and stars
Colors and mars
Yet I'm stuck
Here
Where i want
To dissapear

I'm not wanted
I don't fit in
I don't want to fit in
Here
I want to dissapear

To a land
With love
And hues
Shining
No curfews
Eccentricity
And electric
That shocks
Every single
Bore
Away

So the shining flamingos
Can have a place to stay
Yet here i am
In my constant cave
Bored
And alone
Turning
Into stone

All i can do
Is cry
In my orange dress
Cry
in my pink wig
Cry til
Midnight
*** after that
I die
In the colorless-ness
Of my life

Fate brought us together again
You became my closest friend
Broke my boundaries
Promised me foundries
Fountain of youth
Me and you

You build me higher
Then drop me
I find myself in you
And then lose myself
Again
My dearest
fairweather friend

My therapist says you're a red flag
The cycle of abuse
It's all obtuse
The way you use
Me
The way you fool
Me
I forget
I regret
I want you
She asked what i see in you
I said
I simply care about you
But do you
?

Fate won't let this go away
We are here to stay
That leaves me deeply afraid
As i cry on the floor
Heart dropping
Sending me through Mordor
You're an angel
And a devil
You're a daisy
That stole my petals
You want me
Even if I'm broken
You have stolen
Me

My sanity
My strength
My place
I love you
I'm addicted to you
I want you
All of you
I want to laugh
I want to be free
I want it
you and me
Gorilla's forever
Red and green
But you're
Never listening
We both love music
But you have different tastes
I like taylor swift
And your all over the ******* place

I'm too basic for you
I'm too weird for you
I'm everything you need
Unless you need a drink
I'm your ever after
til you start to blink
Meet a guy
And then it's goodbye
I ask why
And suddenly I'm caught in the lies

Fate stuck us together
I thought it was beautiful
Ever after
Angels and Bliss
Bumble bees
And midst
But it's raging fire
And left over desire
It's broken glass
And a hidden mask
It's a sting
To my very being

To be stuck with you

I feel the stars
The moon
Passion is in full bloom
It's from me
To you
The galaxies
The planets
The sound of music
Dancing within

We became friends again
We became ok
Within
Close with bonds
Laughing til dawn
Like nothing was ever
Wrong

This must be where we belong
We don't believe in things like destiny
But all say we're soul mates
Destiny struck us down
Made us believe in it's sound
We are destiny bound
This friendship
Is not lost
It's found

Gorilla's
Hummans
New york
Bryan ohio
Blue green and red
It'll never end
We no longer need pretend
We can live without one another
We have each other
Stardust clings to us
It's love
It'll always win
I'm excited to begin
Again
And never
End

Oo oo

My blood spills
I'm angry still
Still
And angry
There is plenty
Of reasons to ****
Never for a thrill
Only to let go

Your blood will spill
You are my ****
Yet I'll be angry still
How can I
Contain my mind
Remind
And leave behind
Hell

My nails fall off
They dig deep into you
My brain explodes
Guts on the wall
I've lost it all
I fall
I'm no devil
But no angel

I'm broken still
Angry
Never chill
I am a drill
Digging into you
First your skin
Then your malicious grin
Will bleed
Only teeth
Remain

I only know pain
I am human remains
I am inside your brain
I'll make you explode
Guts on the wall
Make you fall
You still have it all

Yet i bleed
Anger
And sadness
Red
And blue
The ugliest of hues

My body goes numb
They bury me
I eat the dirt
And swallow
I am deeply hollow
All that remains
Is anger

I am angry still
Stiff
And angry
Dead
But rage

Will i ever
Turn a new page?