It was deafening
Threatening my very
Being
My very
Me
They made me bleed
Nothing
No hue
No you
No blue
Or red
Or pink
Or love
Anything
They said to take it
It'll help
They said to make it
Or they'll tell
I didn't try
And they don't know why
So take it
Take it
Take it..
Let it rip your ears out
Rip the drums away
Tear the plums away
No shade
Only grey
All day
Every way
Who can live this way?
No sad
No glad
Only racing
Only bad
Only something
So they're not
Mad
I was nothing
Merely a vessel
Of blood and beating
Beating to nothing
Just physical pain
No gain
No lanes
No driving
No freedom
No air in my hair
No air in my lungs
Just guns
To my soul
Guns
In my pool
Guns
Instead of drums
BANG BANG
in my head
BANG BANG
I felt dead
They tried
To take me away
They lied
And said it's okay
They smiled
As I told them it's pain
They ******* tried
They lied
And they denied
Me help
They kept me
Melting away
They kept me
Locked in a cage
They kept me
Without any ears
I couldn't hear
I couldn't
...hear
I couldn't bare
Not to hear
The drums
The reds
The hues
The lows
And the beats
The tunes
And melodies
The breeze
The bliss
I couldn't ******* stand this
I missed
So much
Beauty
Feeling it dancing in my skin
Again
I know
I'll never let them win
Never
Ever
Ever
I'll never swallow another
Gun
I'll never allow
Another
Run
Of this
Emptiness
I'm forever in love
With the multicolored noises
That keep me breathing
That keep me dancing
That keep me
Alive
Inside
The emotional drums
That fills my lungs 🫁
Just experienced anti depressants again that made me worse lol