I have a really bad thought and I'm just putting it out there, I could totally have over exaggerated and don't know the real story so tell me if I'm wrong.
Doesn't it feel horrible if you don't want to adopt them? Like their humans and they want a family, but if they aren't wanted it's off to another place, another strike, another day without a family. They start all over again with some other people a little more broken every time they are rejected, but they need someone to love them so they pull themselves together hoping for the best, but expecting the worst.
What if they want some of the kids and not the others...do you split up people who finally learned how to trust others contrary to the abandonment and being let down a number of times.
How do you look someone in the eye then learn they don't want you and are even the slightest bit okay with it? I guess it comes with time after time doing this, but I couldn't do it.

It's really hard to be nice to you
I used to know you
You were the person I said everything to, I cared about you, and every time I look at you now I see the past like it's jabbing me in the chest
I missed you every day it hurt, but now the pain has lessened to a mere touch.
we did our time & like a boat sinking into an abyss at the bottom of the ocean, we're done for.

The inevitable is that the thing we call a heartbeat will no longer exist and it will not come back

I have learned that if there is ever a time when someone makes you forget that, that that is what great writers and the "genius" beings try to tell others about.
the reason we read or listen or look at what they created is that some people have come to the realization that they comprehend something so amazing that once you feel it that heartbeat will feel like it ceased to exist

Find that so dying won't hurt so much.

sorry cut it that night and every time I think of someone else you slip into my mind
this is a nightmare I can't escape while I'm awake
I told you this would end and I told you I was more trouble than you would come to realize I'm worth
Do you want to know why?
To ease the blow when it all inevitably fell apart, leave the door creaked open so when you left it was soundless & painless
Oh god, but the pain is relentless
I fell in love
You taught me to trust is to be deceived, but to hold a knife behind your back was to be careful
So tell me...
do words matter if there isn't anyone to hear them?

don't act like you didn't do anything, you know what you did
You stopped talking to me
I'm not your *****, it may had taken me a while, but I realized it
I stopped grasping on
Don't you miss the long texts I sent you while you only replied with a yeah or ignoring me in the halls unless no one else was interested in you
Now tell me boy, what were your intentions, destroy me & make me a horrible child?
leave me speechless?
I have money that it was so you would have a girl, little and trusting, who would always say "he's a good boy & a good friend. He will be there. Trust him, I would put my life in his hands. Be his girlfriend, be his fiancé, be his wife."
You don't even know when it is all coming apart
I'm out of breathe from the memories and broken promises

it didn't seem alright
I mean I don't really know why I even did it
Jealousy or greed, stupidity
I'm not going to be able to change what happened and will pay for my sins
sins, can you call them that when you don't have a religious affiliation
This isn't okay by any manner and you deserve to be as harsh as you want
the faster your run the harder you hit the ground
so I'm sorry
if the silence comes
it was because of everything

when someone tells you be to be small and you've spent your whole life trying to be looked up to contrary to your size things get messy
It was a small remark which they treat as any other sentence in the English language and they probably don't know what it means for someone to say that.
They laugh and I laugh because that makes me "normal"
I am not normal by any means so maybe I should stop trying