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Zoe G Aug 2019
I don't drive yet:
sitting in the backseat
I put my whole day on repeat
all the worries
little mistakes
embarrassments
choices I made
look out the tinted window
and see the driver
in the car across
staring at me
she smiles
I smile
and then
I remember
and then
I see
that the world
is more
than just
me
Zoe G Aug 2019
You're in my mind
like all the time
but more than often-
today

walking through the halls
like you were with me
but you weren't

talking with excitement
like you were with me
but you weren't

text-6:08 pm
just wanted to let you know that you were in my
head
all
day
                                                                ­                     text-6:10
                                                       ­                                          <3 I miss u
Zoe G Sep 2019
Cards spread out on the table
Drinks spilled on the floor
Look through the glass-
you can't see my reflection
anymore

Food untouched on plates
streamers all over the place
Popped balloons on the floor
What was this party even for?

All the doors opened
a cold breeze comes in
who knew a party
in the night
could bring
the darkness in

A crowd of people
turn to emptiness now
What happened to the music?
Why has it quieted down?

I'm the only one at this party
had some bad news
about you and her
so I told everybody
and it ruined the mood
they're all mad at me
and left
cause I brought you two
together
so I'm the only
now
and its no fun
when you can't talk to anyone
but yourself.

I'm the only one at this party
And its not fun
cause I can't talk to anybody
but myself
but me
even you and her
left
for better company
New
Zoe G Sep 2019
New
This is my breakthrough
This is my breakthrough
I will give my
love and trust
to
You

This is my breakthrough
This is my breakthrough
To know you hold my soul
and make me
new
My worship to God :))
Zoe G Dec 2018
Thunder
Rain
Lightning
Pain
It's so hard to
sleep
when these
emotions
won't go away
Zoe G Mar 2019
If the sand meets the sea
will you cry softly with me
If the ocean stays blue
will you remain loyal and true
If the sky floats above
will you forever be my love
even on my worst days
Zoe G Aug 2019
-Will you wait for me?

-I'm not ready yet

-Soon

-Don't worry

-I won't forget

-Promise you'll remember?

-Good
Zoe G Feb 2021
A new Saturday slaps me in the face as my body suddenly becomes conscious. My brother's obnoxious alarm sounds through the hallway. Turn that off already, June. I recite the words of my mother, Kat, inside my head. Then, I hear her voice from the bedroom down the hall, "June, honey, can't you turn that off?!" See, I told you it was coming. My mother is trying to get more sleep since she switched from the day to night shift, and since my brother has his alarm on repeat till he wakes up- which won't be for another 20 minutes, I'm the one who has to shut it off. Yawning, I gingerly swing my legs over the edge of my bed, still sore from helping my brother chase the dogs he walks. That's a story for another time.

I make the routine trip to his room, and open the door. There lies Kam, his legs too long for his bed, his room too clean for my liking. I reach over his peaceful body and the click click of the off button echos. Just as I turn the door ****, a fleck of white outside gravitates my eyes toward the window. What? It can't be. They're sleeping! Ghost-like figures of my brother and mother are walking away from the house hand in hand. I rub my eyes and they're still there. How?

Somehow, seeing them without me makes my heart drop. Memories of birthdays come to mind, Kat always made those days so special. All the bright decorations and gifts. The sweet smiles and strawberry cake. She always puts so much hard work into whatever she does. Then I remembered the look of relief on Kam's face when I caught one of the dogs who braved the electric fence. Kindel didn't have to bring me along on his job and split his income with me. But he did anyway.  

I looked out the window again to see that the fake versions of my family were still walking- without me. Desperately, more desperately than ever before, I wanted to be with them. To walk with them, and hold their hands. I keep staring, watching, waiting for them to walk my way. But, instead, they disappear- without me.

My hands instantly cover the newly discovered pools in my eyes. I can't help it. I've never cried before, but my body suddenly releases all the tension it's ever held.
A gentle hand suddenly touches my shoulder, "Hey! Hey! J! What's with the tear- '' Instantly, I turn around and hug Kam tight. So tight that he coughs. "Aw Jbird! cough I love you." My face buried into his broad shoulders, I can feel myself softly smiling in relief.
Zoe G Jul 2019
I remember writing a poem about war
wasn't much of a poem
more of mixed emotions
poured out on a piece of paper
with no compass to follow
so it made no sense
and that's okay
because thoughts don't have to be
perfect
to be



important
Your thoughts matter lol i was going somewhere totally different until i got to the last line
Zoe G Aug 2019
i love your voice
i love your heart
and your love for God
your eyes
your hair
your confidence
the way you care
how you stroke your hair
your dedication
the little things that make you frustrated
your smile
your laugh
how you reassure
and encourage me
how you get excited
and the way you look back
at me
Zoe G Oct 2019
Want a piece of the magic?

Find peace
in the
madness
Zoe G Apr 2019
on a rainy days
the sky seems to say:
'even i'm not ok
in the calmest hours'
------ ------ ------ ------
on a rainy days
the sky seems to say:
'even i cry
in my worst hours'
Zoe G Aug 2019
I ask myself "really?" sometimes
when i do dumb things that make me want to hide
like when i went over to my friends house
and dropped a crumb on their floor
and didn't pick it up
or when i made the conversation all about me
when in actuality the other person was hurting
or when i got too vulnerable and everyone was confused
or when i slept too late and lost the whole day to a snooze
or maybe when i stared at my friends brother (for a long time)
and now he thinks i'm a creep
when someone drops their books
and I walk away
when i try to give advice
but the person goes astray
I try not to mess up, but I always do
being human is something you just can't remove
thinking about silly stuff I've done
Zoe G Aug 2019
To relive a moment
even a simple second of time
where you were near
when you were here
because I miss you
you made me happy
and that felt good
Zoe G Aug 2019
Needing to close my eyes
but if I do
I might lose the moment
To the one who never rests pt. 2 kinda
Zoe G Jul 2019
Rewrite the page
erase the mistakes
and start over
a clean slate
fresh beginnings
clear mind
focused heart
new time
Zoe G Jul 2019
When you have nothing to do
your thoughts take over you
Zoe G Mar 2019
When everything goes
wrong
you begin to
see
who
you
are
---
The darkness
reveals the
light
---
Sometimes the
light
is just a
grey
area
that
can
become
brighter
---
We all have stuff that needs to be worked on. Every-one-of-us
Sky
Zoe G Aug 2019
Sky
oh me
oh my
it's falling
down
the clouds
the clouds
are peeling off the sky
blue
and
white
on the ground
people screaming all around
you look up and nothing remains
but nothing is something
so all's the same
like paint
in puddles
on the cars
drip drip drip
down windows
from afar
it seems the world is ending
suddenly
suddenly
the ground disappears...................










and I wake
up
Zoe G Aug 2019
Didn't mean to ignore you
Sorry if I didn't look you in the eye
if I listened to your words
they would become a melody in my heart
and I might fall in love tonight
so I'll keep my distance
I will stay away
use anything to fill your space
so I don't fall in love
Zoe G Mar 2019
Spring day
new start
fresh feeling
in my heart

Hope for today
only one smile away
but I know
somewhere
in the world
someone's
hurting
today

So I take a moment to pray
and throughout my way
I'll think of them
and hope that life get better
someday
no
today
because I know that feeling
being boxed in
by
everything
Zoe G Dec 2018
Isn't it
fascinating
to think
that we aren't that far away
44 minutes
and 1 day
till I'll say
I've been waiting to see
you
my
friend
I find it interesting that someone you want to see or spend time with could be so close, yet out of reach for whatever reason.
Zoe G Mar 2020
They explain what I went through
Said it had purpose, meaning
Said that I'm better off
A lesson learned is knowledge gained
Is what they say
But how do you describe my pain
From day to day
Still lingering
Forever the same
No matter what I do
To try and escape
It's always a part of my
Heart
So now what can you say?
Zoe G Dec 2018
Deep Inside Thoughts
Empty room
Lonely room
One window room
Four wall room
One door room
Will you escape?
The pressure of this place
is caving in
Yet it would be a sin
to just leave
and walk away
When the room in trying to
communicate

Your longing feelings
are overwhelming
because everyone seems to have a companion
but you

Each
empty
lonely
room
has a friend
So why are we longing then?
Zoe G Jul 2019
There's more
and we know this for sure
because we can't see everything
with one glance
Zoe G Jul 2019
When I left
I thought about you constantly
within my memory there were only
images
of you
which is nothing new-
it happens often
right when things get better
I think of you
of us
Zoe G Dec 2018
We talk through
smiles
When we pass in the hallway
we smile
when we stand in the stairway
so close to one another
we still smile
and we don't utter a single
word
we let the curves of our faces
speak
for us
and we understand
one another
more
intimately
Zoe G Dec 2018
o
oh
oh why
oh why do
oh why do you
oh why do you need
oh why do you need to see
oh why do you need to see me
cry
and
be
open,
vulnerable
Zoe G Dec 2018
They said
"YOU! Yes, YOU can change the world!"
But can
YOU
change
the
world
by
YOUrself?
Zoe G Dec 2018
Things
weren't supposed to be this difficult
Things
weren't supposed to be this hard
Things
weren't supposed to leave us breathless
drowning in our scars
Things
weren't supposed to hurt us
leaving us alone
Things
just weren't supposed to happen
but
they
happened
in
my  
home
Zoe G Aug 2019
You have to ask the question to get the answer
Zoe G Jul 2019
Time flies but where to? Where do my seconds, minutes, and hours go? But in reality is the time mine, do I possess it?
No, rather
I borrow it.
I borrow this flying time
and soon I must return it
Zoe G May 2019
I can't wait for it all to be
over
and
done

Longing for the
day
when i
reach
the finish line
and embrace
the sun
Zoe G Feb 2019
So
our time is now, in the
moment
but what if our time is
up, over
and we don't know it
yet
--- --- --- --- --- --- --- ---
So
our time is up,
over
but what if our
time is now, in the
moment
and we never
knew
it
Zoe G Aug 2019
love is so hard
but that's what makes love seem easy
the difficult moment make love
something you need to fight for
the challenging times give you new insight
carefree times give you reassurance
and peace settles your souls
as you grow
into one
Zoe G Aug 2019
To keep moving
and never stop
mind forever racing
heart nonstop
beating to a
sprinting pace
no rest
no brakes
no breaks
pauses nonexistent
when breath
is never fully exhaled
My friend can never calm down
I always pray she finds peace
This is for her and for anyone who has anxiety <3
I love u all and I hope u find calm in the chaos
Zoe G Dec 2018
I hold on to everything  
yet I can't seem to let anything go
Broken shards of
memories  
that mock me
And fight my mind.

At night these thoughts  
destroy me and take over my soul
And suddenly,
I find myself
Quiet and all alone

"It's okay to tell me everything,
Yes,every single thought"
they say.
But how will that help when these
Troubling emotions  
Won't go away

So here I am again
at night  
Afraid of myself,
afraid of the light
And suddenly I find myself
Quiet  
And out of control

I feel like a lonely star
in the sky.
In this life I once
felt hope but
it became too
difficult
to repair from the
troubling emotions!

My smile hides these
tears,
and you only know
my cover,
But I just want something  
better,
to not feel this terror.

I get broken each day,
Keeping these  
emotions in my core,
I wish I'd find  
Myself very soon.

I won't practice  
my smile in the mirror
Or make my fake smiles
More clear
I'm  tired of living behind  the mask
With these TROUBLING EMOTIONS!
I hope while reading this you are able to see both sides as one.
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Zoe G May 2019
No name
no title
the unknown
nameless
blameless?
the forgotten soul
hidden
secret
kept away
with no place to stay
a random occurrence
on a regular day
when I met untitled
i was just messing around
us
Zoe G Aug 2019
us
we will be
alright
Zoe G Dec 2018
You don't cry in war
You don't just find what you were looking for
Because the person that loved you
might not care about
you
anymore

So why do you keep score of life
if its just a bore
to watch the strife go
on and on
like an overplayed song

That's what they say
but I think it's ok to cry
and say goodbye to yesterday
because I'm not counting
your score
Zoe G Sep 2019
And so I'll love you from a distance
and give your space
--like a fire that burns so beautifully
but makes you want to step away--
as obsession is something
I cannot chase
since I know nothing about
you
Zoe G Mar 2019
For the longest time you loved me
So what happened now?
What happened now?

You loved me for the longest time
So what happened now?
Can we figure it out?

Cause I still love you
I'm still gonna love you
I'll still stay
Even if you go away

Can we figure this out?
Can we figure this out?
Cause you loved me for the longest time
Then so suddenly you changed your mind
and left me in my own place
In my own state
Without you

But I thought you said
I was your everything

Now you're gone
Now I'm here
but I still love you my dear
So can we figure this out?
Because I haven't moved on yet
I haven't moved on yet
I haven't moved on
I haven't moved
I haven't
I....
Zoe G Mar 2019
When will the morning come
When will the day start
When will my pain
melt away
with the dark
Zoe G Dec 2018
I need to
SCREAM
but
I
just
can't
I
tried
to
let
go
I
tried
to
rant
but
I
just
can't
Zoe G Oct 2019
it feels nice to

think

that you love me
Zoe G Aug 2019
Wish I could do something to fix
the room
adjust the lighting
catch the picture that's about to fall
cover the white blotches on the wall
finish painting the chair
add the final touches
tilt the clock slightly
fluff the pillow
face the chairs to each other
align the TV
and make it perfect
but there's no such thing
the room of life
Zoe G Aug 2019
....to slip in
you match
style becomes
what they like
attention is suddenly your friend
it feels good to fit in
until you lose yourself
Zoe G Dec 2018
How
great can You be?
to
create
whole galaxies
shape the seas
and form life
as far as my eyes can see
to
move the mountains
name the stars
and form the earth
with a slight movement of your arms
to
uphold the mind
the way we think
knowing our
hearts
deepest desires
and composing beauty
in the fire
to
know the number of hairs
on my head
to what we need to say
before we lay down our head
to
remembering every single name



and
still
love
me?
I truly believe that God cares for me
Zoe G Aug 2019
Step into this world
I call it diary
its not physical
rather mentally complete
when sorting around
the mess inside
this world of ours
inside our head;
our heart;
our soul
we see our words
and are taken aback
at just that
Zoe G May 2019
Holding me back
these excuses
robbing my brain
from moving
forward
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