I must learn closure
the correct way
so the next time I see
a person I've dismissed
they won't be bitter
they will  happily smile
and say "hey"
they will remind me
that I did exist to them,
then I can go about my day

for a brief
moment
a second of hope
a glimpse of happiness
life appears
simple, small, innocent,
& promising
like that of a child.
Then I grew up
and got lost
in it's
magnitute.

careful
what
you
look
for
you
may
just
find
it!

There is no feeling worse
than dying slowly
and being unable
to save yourself
no rescue, no help.

my soul cries aloud
screams stretch for miles
still no one hears
I'll eventually
drown in my tears.

because I was young
and beautiful
I thought I was
something;

boys lusted
girls admired
I had fun until
I grew tired

a wise old lady
with a smirk on her wrinkled face
pulled me aside
and put me in my place

she told me I was nothing without love
so I got out of her grandson's bed
to avoid tears;
I titled my head

when I came up there it was;
hoovering above
I realized, everything is nothing
until it finds love.

I hope she's happy
because I was not.

I hope she's honest
because I was not.

I hope she's sincere
because I was not.

I hope he understands her
I hope he respects her

I hope he values her
I hope he loves her

because he was unable
to do these things for me

three years of nothing
I sacrificed everything!

It takes two
to make a wrong.

but she has you
and I'm alone.

he left me
moved right along.

As a woman.
As an African American.
As a poet.
I can only hope to be,
As close as a
phenomenal
woman as she!