I went to the love of my life's wedding today

I listened to her say the words that i would never be able to say,
he was the object of the love that i craved.
she looked at him with the same affectionate eyes that i gazed,
he was the one hearing: "for the rest of my days".


i went to the love of my life's wedding today

We
       Only
                 Breathe
                              For
                       ­               So
                                            Lon­g
                                                       .

2010 i tried killing my self survived that its bin a blessing since then

humid, skin to skin
lipstick stained cigarette stub
i wish it’s your lips

Pain is better than numbness,
because at least I can feel
my life not just move through it.

When I left
I thought about you constantly
within my memory there were only
images
of you
which is nothing new-
it happens often
right when things get better
I think of you
of us