Is it worth it, you and me?
What would have happened
If the stars didn't align
On that fateful day?
I imagine he and I
Would still be together.
Maybe we would be closer to marriage.
She might still be my best friend,
Always planning the next adventure,
Sticking around through it all.
Would I have tried to **** myself again?
He always knew what to say,
And her opinion would have rang in my ears.
Perhaps my mother and I
Would still be close.
Maybe I wouldn't have left the house.
I would have never met her.
These feelings, this confusion,
Would not exist.
But think about this:
What if he and I still didn't work out?
Perhaps I would have met someone new,
Or perhaps we just fell out of love.
What if she and I
Still didn't make it until the end?
The adventure stopped?
Perhaps I still tried to **** myself,
And it actually worked?
You were the one who got me help.
What if my mother and I
Still faded away,
And I still left home?
I would be completely alone then;
Maybe even six feet under.
Nobody would be my comfort.
Is it worth it, you and I?
We will not know until the very end.