Your eyes tell me how you really feel
The once bright stars I used to see
Are now lost in your blue eyes sea
The glowing is gone
And I know
I will never have you
The way that I used to

dying to see you is like watching glass shatter in front of your eyes
You jump when it breaks
You’re scared when it shatters
You may even be cut by the shards of glass
But at least you can see through the open space clearer than before
The sun is bright and the stars still shine but but by bit
The dying you feel is to feel yourself breathe loud enough so he can’t hear your heart cry anymore
I can’t help but reach for you in the night
I still wait for you to walk through the door just like you did before
I wish it wasn’t so hard to have kept you
And so easy to let myself push you away
I loved you
I love you
if love is blind and hearts are made to be broken
can’t we blink throughout the cries and tell ourselves the time we spent away leaves the hatch on my door always open
Don’t close the entrance of your mind to me
Or at least lie to Me
tell me it’s over like my heart doesn’t beat to hear the words you’ve spoken
Tell me the same things you did in the start
Let me relive all of the best **** parts
Remind me to look through memories in different glasses and then I’ll get that the love we shared never really happened
I was used, you claimed the abuse and I apologised until I was blue
You were loved I gave everything up
There is no one else
the hole in my heart and my belly where our bond would’ve grown manifests itself like a knife to the bone
Watch me bleed and then watch the scars heal before you leave as if you can’t let go when You feel unease
Close your eyes picture me
Watch it set in stone the way you would have grown apart
And ‘how  could you do this to me?’
Please don’t tell everyone the things I said if my words are left to lingers like
The figure of you in the hall
and the ache of my want on the end of my fingers telling me you made me whole
captivate my mind and make me hate you
Like I can’t help myself but play a song on repeat by a drugged up depressed rapper who’ll die too young to leave a legacy
Ill tell you know I can’t help but listen and relate
as if I wish I could put that same fate on this
Life that I hate
it’s like an addiction
The dopamine in my brain makes me want to scream the chemical imbalance too unstable just to see that I came last on your list
Of people to see
And places to be
I hope you cry without me
I hope you choke
Throw me out
Come on make me shout make me scream this silence is so deafening
you break my heart and I let
You in you still hold the door
Open that
You’re
Closest before I get the chance to ring
breaks in communication make me want to sing
like the signal was lost through blurred lines and you can hear me through the wind
Sending my love
Through wires from pillar to post, the time when I hired you as the person I loved the most
The main host
a catalyst in my story called
‘Men already make me scared and then you became by ghost’
I should be sorry
Or be hit by a lorry
it’s the knocking at the door that I’ll never hear and the smell of burning toast
the way your coat drowned you in it and I drowned in you the most
hey if you stay can you tell me how to go
How to live without you
How to not let it show
From the day I captured your eyes
The times we got high
then you said your goodbye with little but no reason
do your drugs pretend your fine move on
Change the season
Remembering you were vulnerable and beyond liaison
but don’t tell me you’re the one whose hurt when I can’t step into my room or sleep on my bed or eat for days on
I’m not hungry
Only for you
I’m not tired
Not of you
I’m not enclosed by our space it’s that I want you close and I miss your face
And the saddest part is the part where you loved me in a way where you never truly did

Hazy eyes,  a dark night sky, perhaps beautiful in the right light
With old churches come broken walls and broken grave stones that can't put up a fight.
Eyes don't always stay open, that's why we close them when we cry.
If i open my eyes and look up to religion all i seem to find  is the words you tell yourself when it's your time to die
However, isn't believing in god a chance to repent
That sacrifices must be made if your life is for sale but all you can afford is to rent.
I guess that's where i'll miss you even though we never met.
The lines read between words and the meaning between sighs.
From open space to where we land, trace your hands
we erase the lies that i'm hard to love and not worth the time
The ground beneath me is still, the envious green in the trees makes the leaves rustle.
I kneel, steel rust the smell of blood, why is it the pain that makes me feel?
The wind whistles, its the brisk and the cold, is it the dawn or the storm that might unfold?
I guess we'll never know.
If we don't live to see the day
They say life is a lesson.
With bad grades who'd think i'd do the math?

Overlooked and under-appreciated
That’s how our love deteriorated
You showed me love how bright it shines
Stood by my side when I saw no light
Through the dark, my broken side
Cried for someone else
Taking all of your pride
How could I have been so blind
Too tear apart a thousand times
Too run away and change my mind
Go back to the love that gave me pain
Wondering really whose to blame?
Love never made her question will he stay
He stayed and stayed
To learn when he should walk away
Where was my heart when you was so kind?
Love I can’t stomach or leave behind
colder days and colder nights seem longer without you by my side
they say ‘at least you’re still alive!’
Not knowing how bad she wants to die
Clutching onto what she had
While pulling her knife out your back
her body frail and the chalk around her white
broken mind like the crime scene you’d Find
Where the last resort was suicide
We stay alive and bide our time
Only too awake to the same disguise
Through dreary eyes I still wish you the best
How could I be so heartless ?

Paws, filthy draws.
She'll scratch your back and claim it's yours
She doesn't belong to no one and this is how she reigns
Without the flick of an eyelid
This may sound a bit morbid
But she would die before she's trapped in any man's orbit
She can't be tamed, but she takes things too deep
like mother nature she brings me peace
when my mind is asleep, she's strong enough to weep
Her hearts worn and still warm
The greatest masterpiece I've ever drawn
Her face when she could tell I wouldn't yawn when she spills her heart out in any form
Changes, she'll mark her territory
This isn't a love story
I was just double checking that she knows her glory