you will never be forgotten.
ever.
your name twisted into metaphors and colors and distractions will forever
be painted across pages and pages of her favorite brand of notebook,
no matter how many she burns
there will always be one she forgot,
and she will only find it once she had almost forgotten you.
she will find the one Papyrus notebook
and all of your metaphors and colors and disractions will come flooding back,
just like how the ocean in your eyes
flooded her heart all those years ago.

He is eighteen
He doesn't look clean
High off no sleep
Thinks he's twenty

No girl ever gave him attention
But the minute he grew up
All theirs eyes turned ontohim

And I was there to see it all
Encounters with him
Weren't strange at all

He walks the hot pavement
Like a god who made it
He can't take it
That everyone wants his attention

He is eighteen
Smoking
He doesn't look clean

If you reach down his pocket
You'll find a bag

His money
Is gone

His mother is worried sick

He's got a sister
That looks up to him

Yet he's selfish
And was taught by his father
To not care for them

I saw it all
This didn't surprise me
That much

I feel calm this time around

there are no waves left now

to accompany the melancholy

there is just a warm yellow sun

and I am a lake left in desolation

and sadness can be heard

in the silence of my being

and it is not beautiful

like the Sea

Where I will go
The ground seems
Cold
Though I don't know

Where I will go
Down a hole
The earth seems
Birth less

Where I will go
I don't know
Sometimes it seems
To flow into something

Do you ever wonder why sunflowers follow the sun?
Its because there is darkness inside of them,
They hold onto it,
But they are greedy,
They want light too.
But they can not have both.
They keep the darkness,
Passing it to their seed in hopes they can have the light and the dark.
But we know they can not.
They keep the darkness.
Because if they let go, they fear they will never grab hold of the light and they will have nothing.
If they let the darkness go,
They fear they shall forget their past,
And have no future.
So they keep the darkness,
Never knowing what true light is.
Even though they look happy or surround themselves with the emotion,
The will never know the light,
Because all they have,
Is darkness.

Rest your convictions on
The foundation of knowledge
Lest one day it will dawn,
Your beliefs sunk into sandpits

You are composed of desperate lies
From your head all the way down to your feet
Your whole existence depends upon
A delicate web of deceit

Dishonesty is clearly reflected
In the blue oceans of your eyes
You are so deep in denial you
Won't accept that you wear a disguise

You put a mask on your face each day
To cover up your many flaws
You are an actor playing a part
You crave the attention and applause

The world is your comfortable stage
Your story nothing more than a show
I wonder if there is a single
Piece of you I actually know

On your skin you paint a facade
To again coat the aching scars
Hollow promises are falling down
Fading faster than shooting stars

You protect your heart with empty lines
And apologies you wish you meant
Can't you see that I need more from you
Than the excuses you invent?

I deserve the real you not the
Careful persona you fabricate
I want to see what rests beneath
The image you work so hard to create

Manipulating our arguments
You try to distract me with anger
Hoping I won't notice the fact
I am staring at a stranger

You embody the character
Those closest to you think you are
Yes you are well meaning but
You have taken this drama too far

In relationships you cheat
A girl gentle and admired
Out of her forgiveness and hope
That your old ways will soon be retired

You are a child playing pretend
A boy wearing a grown mans shoes
Dress up is the game I hate
Yet still it is the option you choose

I don't understand why you would
Rather have admiration than trust
Your true colors are revealed and then
That admiration turns to disgust

I don't want to hear your honeyed words
Unless you mean them from your heart
Your actions don't reflect what you say
The conflict is tearing me apart

Once again you tell me you will change
As you have sworn a million times
But I'm tired of trying to
Decipher your threadbare pantomimes

I was never good at charades
You probably already knew that
You take advantage of the way
Im unsure of who Im looking at

You are Dr. Jekyl, Mr. Hyde
My best friend and worst enemy
An angel until the demon rises
You transform right in front of me

A natural shape-shifter
You effortlessly deceive
You cowardly hide under the
Cloak of false expectations you weave

I can't figure out your motives
I don't think I ever will
Maybe toying with emotions
For some reason gives you a thrill

I'm misled by flattery
Compliments and ascensions
I'm naively distracted by your charms
Struggling to see your true intentions

Now I know you are a fraud
Crying crocodile tears
Your forgery becomes apparent
More and more as the end nears

Betrayal courses through your veins
Secrets drip out of every pore
I don't even believe in your love
Or the feelings we share anymore

My patience is wearing thin
Your unreal mirage falls apart
I wish you would let me see past
The illusions and into your heart