I miss you so fucken much its not even funny anymore!!! :(
As soon as your back
and I get to see you
prepare yourself
because imma run up to you
and almost bowl you over with my hug
okay?
okay
:D :) <3
x

DRAFT:

Splinters of my sanity stick in thick blood
pressure on my chest
I cannot breathe this fluff
There are keys like coins going into me
My lungs are slot machines

I called my mom
To ask if this is normal
Ive been with you
For 3 months
And im sorta infatuated
And i like you more everyday
And i admire you
But i dont love you yet
Everyone says thats normal
But love has always hit me like a freight train
And im wondering how much time
I should spend waiting on the track
With you
What if it never comes
My mom just reexplained insanity and said
And how have those frieght train loves
Worked out for you?
Fair point

And as I write these lines,
I long even as my fingers dance,
forming the potential
to be better.

And as a writer,
as a appreciater,
a critiquer,
a lover of words in general,
I find lately even insecurity here, among what I've always loved the most, where I've always felt the most free...

In my passion, I can't... find... words!
Is this what writer's block is?

Ughhhhh!

no thumbs up????
***!
I posted this because I need the affirmation!
I need to feel known! Out of a zillion people who are interconnected
I wanna be recognized. I wanna be validated!
please. any response will do.
negative or positive.
ROFL or ****
LOL or ***** or U ****
anything!
ughhhhh
If I was a cat I'd play piano
If I was fat i'd sing a techno song
and flail my arms!
I feel so alone
in a world so full of people
please respond
please reply
please? anybody.
I'm alone.




anyone?

anybody out their?

no?

no one at all?




(logs off )

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no no no no no no no

I had a revelation on the train
GOD has revealed himself
he hides behind flirtation with death
oh he hides
and the music
keeps going
and I have nothing
but the vibrancy of youth golden locked golden key that turns but I am a clumsy troll on top of a mountain, clumsy troll on top of the mountain wearing a frowny face, frowny face

and he drops his giant club in the ground
to sob and cry
because he couldn't get
his soup and wine
oh no
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SPOILED

HES" wearbing a frowny face he's wearing a frowny face
he's crying because he's left to the mountain
in this video game world
press b
press b
press b
press b
press b
press b

I hate this
I just wanna give up
but then I don't
some days I feel like im ready for death
then come days when I feel like I wanna live forever
I Really really do hate my life and I hate myself im not ******* happy I've had happy days but nothing big ughhhhh im super lost!

Snuggled waiting for you to get home **** it THIS IS NOT A POEM!
this my first time in this might be my last
I'm tired of merry go rounds and places I can't have fun. You were everything but you're worried about everything and you're everything feels like everything but getting distracted by the fights and the other couples smiles.. no please no don't think I Ughhhhh no I love you oh here you go not listening to my feelings feels like our speech is shattered and both thinks we're out to cut the cord we put around our necks  sigh* I'm tired of hanging for no reason what's next I'm not looking forward to Valentine's bliss not cause of you but the day after this..... Help me I'm bout to drown in something else