"stupidness" poems
Andy my friend I am praying for you
I know what happens is hard to go through
We all love you and hope you will smile
I hope to see you for a long time trial
I know cancer is a hard battle to win
But I am hoping that you will stay in your skin
The reason you fight the battle so long
Is the same exact reason you will become strong
Andy, you are not the cancer that is inside
Just push all the stupidness of this illness aside
Us people will still look at you the same
Within my heart you will always have fame
You are a great person and someone I will never forget
Even though to this day we have never met
Andy, you are important to this world and me
Even though cancer is in you, we will fight it, agreed?
I will stand with you and fight this battle until the end
I hope that you know that in me you have friend.
Dec 18, 2014
Dec 18, 2014 at 11:05 AM UTC
Please forgive the lies.
Those lies you realized were real lies in your eyes, that look at my eyes that cries.
Please forgive my tick, my tick that flicks when you click my impatience.
Please try to forgive the tears I cried, my hands tied down to the chair of my stupidness.
Forgive me for the different masks I've worn because I was born with a face torn..
Please, forgive me for looking at that mirror
Glaring
Staring
Preparing, to attack and smack
Break this make-up of me and off my face.
Forgive those scars across my heart that left marks on my inner wrists, forgive my fists that ball,
hit walls and doors to settle the score between love and hate.
Please forgive me for wasting your time, I'm fine. That line, like the line you wait behind dozens of people who I've said that to.. please forgive me when you tell me "I'm beautiful" because the thought of me possibly, being pretty, is new to me.
Forgive me when I say I'm lonely or feeling alone because I only have myself in my mind
and behind the door of thoughts are secrets kept, sept underneath the rug if uncertainty.
Insecurities, get the best of me,
Forgive my darkness
Forgive my awkwardness
Forgive my serial killer mentality, hunting down, killing off my confidence and any compliments I receive.
I enjoy bringing myself to low points
And at this point, I need a new point. A hight point. And the distance between my low point and my high point is a long line of self awareness and weakness.
I digress, my progress is better, my confidence is higher, I guess..
You'll be impressed with what you don't know,
What you should know,
But what I don't show.
My confusing image of myself
"Love thy self"
Lord please forgive me for I have sinned.
Trying to die earlier than intended is a sin.
Trying to force pain amongst my body is a sin.
Please forgive my dark thoughts, my depressed ways.
Forgive those who attempt the same attempts i attempt.
Forgive those who drag themselves to the ground, buried underground with tomb stones above their heads.
Forgive the knives they used to bleed out their tears and sadness.
Forgive the pills that sit in the stomach of the people lying on the bathroom floor unaware of their scared mothers faces.
Forgive the flowers you place in front of their grave of hopefulness buried with terrible self consciousness.
Please forgive me when I say, please don't delay, but I really can't stay..
Apr 16, 2015
Apr 16, 2015 at 11:48 PM UTC
got poetry to show to my friends but im thinking of deleting my twitter
my thoughts aren't as cool as I wish they could be, so bookmark my HP page for the updates
the summer is chillin and im going places my mom doesn't want me to go to
just because a place brings back bad memories doesn't mean I shouldn't be there
Im past all of the stupidness and accepted my foolishness, no need for the reminders my ego is drowning
my link on my insta no need for tweeting my emotions my tumblr is boring but so are your hobbies
im writing for some dollars for more pencils, im running out of them
i got some money but thats for anything that comes coincidently coincidence
no need for some pens because I cant erase mistakes with them
nhom site under construction so give us a few weekends our weeks are productive we hustle until we get it **** what you're doing
there isn't any way but the need way so excuse your missing bikes, we're 16 and we're foolin
we order pizza and write down ideas no time for galleria
we ride for adventure on two weels
interacting for promo no need for hiding behind some screens
my life is a run on but thats how it should be no time for breaks, sleep is an option lead is necessary
rooftops capture sentences paintings illustrate our visions
if you dont contact me then why should I
I should be humble but my account has 4 zeros, my mom dont trust me with it so I dont know the pasword
That child support is piling up, I dont really care
got miles on miles on miles on miles on miles ridden on my bike but I haven't gone anywhere but the city
Im aiming for the carpet so when we go back to school I'm bringing my summer
Got numbers as options but there's no reason to hit them up, got a good one I'm grateful
I'm riding fast my way don't slow me down, is this a comeup? I don't know I'm just going along
Come up from suburbs, I want to live high until my view is the moutains
Im from Dallas but that don't mean nothing, no city defining where I'm going because I was on the 26th floor when I was at my lowest and I wasn't even on coke
these days my grind is so lowkey, im sleep deprived
my paint never dries, my brushes are always getting washed but these projects aren't for the public
I only have a few questions, is love really real? should I sleep more?
i dont know but Monarch dr is gonna be in a book one day
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 4:43 PM UTC
You picked up a salt shaker
mistaken for a pop
You went to take a drink
And the word stupid came up
You caught yourself in a stutter
Unable to speak
People began to laugh at you
And the stupidness started to creep
Your memory wasn't the sharpest
And you received ****
As people made fun of you
The word stupid slowly began to slipped
Now you sit here in a dark corner
Beating yourself senseless
Continuously convincing yourself
You'll alway be stupid
May 2, 2016
May 2, 2016 at 7:41 PM UTC
I can't wait for you to notice me.
I can't wait to spend hours on the phone.
I can't wait for the butterflies to erupt.
I can't wait for you to laugh at my stupidness.
I can't wait for the late night walks,
hand in hand.
I can't wait for the lonely yet romantic kisses.
I can't wait for the cute, ******** photos that I'll remember.
I can't wait to make memories that will never be forgotten.
I can't wait for 'friendly' touching.
I can't wait to fall.
I can't wait for you to say 'I love you'.
I can't wait to say it back.
I can't wait to get heartbroken.
I can't wait for the tears and agony.
I can't wait for the moment your forget me.
I can't wait for the times I can't forget you.
I can't wait for you to actually remember me.
I can't wait for you to say you miss me.
But what I can't wait for most,
is when I fall back in love with you all over again.
Jun 6, 2013
Jun 6, 2013 at 12:42 AM UTC
Hating my self for feeling unloved.
Hating that people say I Love You to many times.
Hating when people cry about spilled milk.
Can't take it....................But I Have To.
Can't get out of here.
Can't make my life better.
Can't move an inch.
People complain about life.
People aren't thankful for what they have.
Sick of the complaining.
Sick of the sad stories.
Sick of You.
Can't take It get away from ME.
Leave me be. Did you get the hint?
No. Ha Ha Ha...........
You will never get the hint.
You are so blind by you sure stupidness.
You are blind and can see whats infront of you.
Im sick of you hurting her, Complaining that she's no good.
She does what she can. Not what she can't.
Do YOU get the hint know.
That we are better off without you?
Leave me be. Leave her be. Just leave disappear in to the abyss of my
Memories. Leave now. Run away. Get away from me.
Dec 2, 2012
Dec 2, 2012 at 7:07 PM UTC
Running was our thing
My connection to you
Now I have to share with her
She who always is trying to best me
And is ruining the fun
And relaxation
That comes from so many of my favorite things
Reading was our thing
Something I could relate to
Our shared sense of humor
Is now being forced into stupidness
Because I have to share with her
We didn't have much in common
But the few things we did are gone
Because of her
My friends that are closer to my age
I'm gone one time because of a conflict
Now they're not my friends at all
They say I'm a role model
She looks up to me
She doesn't
She just sees it
As a competition
I try to be patient
But I can't
People say we are so similar
But we are nothing alike
She is loud and commanding
She wants attention
And has different sides to her
That no one else sees
Because she is so fake around others
People are disappointed in me
When I dislcude her
But when she does that to others
No one cares
Or is disapojnted in her
Because she isn't supposed to be mature
And I'm supposed to be setting the example
Jul 14, 2016
Jul 14, 2016 at 1:23 AM UTC
She was so proud of herself !
She had turned her soul
Into such pure despicable ugliness
That all the girls were jealous of her
Mastery of Misery !
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They would gather before her
And with worshipful songs
Would **********
To her image
And sing praises for her
Magical malignancy
And self abusing prowess
•
•
( it was the golden age of HELLO POETRY poetry ! )
•
to
THE BOYS
it was the very epitome of WONDROUSNESS
The total
Marriage
Of *** & DEATH
Of
POWER & IRRESPONSIBILITY
//
EARTH & HELL
Of
MAGIC POWERS
&
SELF DEBASING HUMBLENESS
//://
to me
It was just
******* BORING
••
as is all display of
STUPIDNESS
Mar 29, 2015
Mar 29, 2015 at 12:05 AM UTC
Servile
--
We been
KISSIN ***
for 1000 years
•••
We run like **** eatin lunatics
Thru the spread legged high school corridors
Looking for death or some other toy
••
We find eachother & tear eachother apart
Looking to hurt the most vulnerable
••
We love to entertain !
We hope the masters are amused
And find our stupidness non-threatening
••
At the height of our debasement
We cut OURSELVES with razor blades
Like good little slaves!
--
So uncool !
So bleak!
••
We compete to see who is capable
Of expressing the most grief!
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We boast that we will NEVER CHANGE
•••
NEVER CHANGE !
•••
Servile
--
All the creative power!
(LOVE itself)
So abused and laid to waste
Sep 18, 2013
Sep 18, 2013 at 7:29 PM UTC
I'm up 'till wee hours in the morning
writing about you.
Restless and depressed.
I love you?
Mar 15, 2010
Mar 15, 2010 at 5:35 PM UTC
theres love in my eyes that no one is able to see, i dont think anyone is able to see the despaire i have inside of me i try and try to let it out but nothing works except crying just balling my eyes out it feels better like im refreshing my screen, or talking to people who are actually there to help, with helpful words that help with the tears just makes me feel better in the end i dont know how to explain the feeling to certain people because a lot of them dont understand it maybe i just feel the need for attention so im forcing myself to feel like this..i have no idea. those thoughts i have of "i wish i was sick or hurt so people would notice me or see me or at least pretend to be my friends" i hate the fact that some days i can be off in my own world in this mood that just sweeps over me and starts tearing me apart piece by piece and then i just sit there in silence eating my lunch with friends all around laughing and smiling and having a good time or even a bad day but they seem to make themselves happy again with a fake smile that almost everyone brings along with them. but instead i forgot mine and i just sit there thinking of all the things, maybe thinking of that stupidness that i want myself hurt so people would notice me more, or just maybe people will notice how i look today and they'll ask or wonder and i'll be able to tell them all about it and they can help or relate or just say a few words to put a smile on my face. but then the fear comes back..the fear of what if they dont care? what if they get annoyed..that big fear too its like how do i get the attention i want when its hard to . i think now i should nust continue getting all the help and advice and support i need from friends because thats the only thing going to help me keep going.
Aug 9, 2013
Aug 9, 2013 at 12:40 AM UTC
I stumble in the darkness.
I try to see but I am blind from what is happening to me.
I cannot see.
I don't see the lies.
I don't see the stupidness of you love.
I stumble over everything.
When you say.
You love me I stumbled.
I keep coming back for more.
Wanting more.
After more.
Can't I just leave you here.
Can't I just forget.
Its like my memories keep playing back and forth.
In my messed up head.
Confused at the point of not coming out of it.
Sing me a love song one last time?
Dec 4, 2012
Dec 4, 2012 at 10:19 AM UTC
I hate that I miss you
Why my heart did I have to give?
How I miss my beautiful care free days
Heart un affected by your stupidness.
Sick of every thing u say to me
Your sweet nothings, like a scratched CD.
Feeling angry and frustrated, cause I chose to love.
Thinking that I love you, is a bitter taste to my mouth and a lump in my throat.
Silently asking my self, what the **** did I just get into.
Loving you is hard, for its taking my everything to not walk away.
For the heart is fooled and letting go, it doesn't want to do.
I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU. Cause that's why I'm missing you.
Mar 17, 2018
Mar 17, 2018 at 5:24 PM UTC
I sit for most of the day
almost always by the window
I place my muzzy body in a tall wooden chair
run my fingers through my eyes
smear dreadful thoughts
which begin with pain in my left thumb
deadness plocks
I am captive.
I want. I tell myself what i want.
I want it to be mine, to come from my aching bones and tingly devilish spasms
petrified
patricide
but its not me. or is it
a solemn search
where the lights are off
I want a vessel to open
in soft creamy sunlight streaks
with warm feel
gushing the stupidness out
numerous arms will captivate me
others. not mine
in crisp air
easy kisses
plop
May 28, 2016
May 28, 2016 at 5:26 AM UTC
They had waited in ill conception upon the
reality of man, between the moment this was
but a flicker in the eternal motions of what waited
eons for it unwitting birth of perpetual existence.
But where there in metaphorical thoughts urges
the reality of thought into eventual birth. And it
tasted upon existence and succumb to it taste and
wished to depart more on its hungered birth,
The signs had fallen upon the calendar of mans
folly, where there had been no relevance now
conjectured thought had birthed it into place.
Like an egg it hatched upon the civilization of mans
wanting of retribution. All ill conceived musing
now given an illegitimate form of what feel on the 13th
13th moment of mans fall of what was meant as luck
now befalling into disrepute. Now given the day of
mans weakness upon its self wheres its weaknees falls short.
Feed me glutton upon the stupidness of mans folly and reap
the seeds sown in tempestuous ignorance and on this day the
worst tiding will fall on the many now called man.
Aug 19, 2016
Aug 19, 2016 at 4:49 PM UTC
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I JUST LOVE
the new heading
WHAT 'S HOT
( though it should really say
WHO'S HOT ? )
/::/
I mean
HOW CAN I GET THRU THE DAY
without the POETIC PICTURE
of some *** - crazed babe
Lying in a pool of BLOOD
begging for some
ANYONE
to fill her " private parts " ( hee hee hee ! )
with his THANG ( hee hee hee ! )
while she writhes in helpless ecstasy
/:/
and then (?)
OH MY GOD MY ******* GOD !
he dumps her for a real girl !
and she cries and cries
YOU !
YOU !
NOW I KNOW !!
NO ONE WILL ..... EVER ! .... LOVE ME !!
;;;
but
NO ! NO ! NO !
We all cry together
••
you look so **** in your naked ****** stupidness
and we all want you so bad IT HURTS !
//
a broken girl !
This image reminds me of a helpless country
and shows us why AMERICA would want to
Bomb it !
Or of a poor black man
And why a cop would want to just shoot it !!
//
NOTHING IS MORE LOVELY THAN THIS SENSE
OF HELPLESSNESS THAT US POETS CAN CONVEY !!!
//:
HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT !!!!!
//
oh
I can't write anymore !
Knowing that right back there on my home page
HOT POET BABES
ARE MOANING AND GROANING
AND LUSTING
AND GOD KNOWS WHAT ELSE
AND THAT OTHER READERS ARE PLOTTING
TO GET TO HER BEFORE ME
AND STEAL HER AWAY !!
/::/
Oh baby !!
YOU
YOU
YOU
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
don't break me too babe !!
//
I almost got my pants down !
//
and you look so hot !
In your ****** stupidity
Jul 5, 2015
Jul 5, 2015 at 9:37 PM UTC
feeling your heart is frozen
no beating heart for love
you will see it is very cold
looks so strong but fragile
so much beautiful
but everyone afraid for catch it
red turned black
harm turned cold
fervent become desolate
because a little stupidness
waiting something will make it harm again
make it melted
or it will broke into pieces
Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 5:23 AM UTC
Oh. Why.
Simply, solely why
Why why why why why
Why why why why why
A brain filled with big, bushy questions
All summarized by why
Why this, why that
Why me
Why me
Why me
I am aware, fully, completely aware, it is not just precisely me, specifically
Yet all my concerns, are me, mine
Oh yes, selfishness
Arrogance, little piece of high-nosed nonsense
You talked and talked
About what you believed in
What you thought of
Ideals, theories
Ha-ha-ha, they laughed
As if they were somehow understanding
Receiving the message
Bip-bip
Brain in a mush of stupidness
Of ignorance
But you're worse
You are so sensible to little useless, easily-perceived reflexes
Realizing that their blank eyeballs were staring at you
Billiard *****
Motionless, waiting solemnly for their turn to shine and roll
On their gossips
And you joined their stupid cascade
Of mascarade
Because you cannot, not listen
And hide information, in the pockets of your ear
Because you were made to shut that ******* mouth of yours
Because all you said was a mess
Of words
All you were ever destined to be was chaos
You were always meant to be disastrous
And you shook the wrong things
The wrong people
The ones with enormous plastic globes just underneath their foreheads
Boundless mouths, that stretched words till the capability of visibility
And cosmic nostrils that sniffed your brains out, till all you were left was a black hole drifting into their credibility
Aug 28, 2018
Aug 28, 2018 at 4:40 AM UTC