"somehwere" poems
There is a place i go to hide
There is a place where i wished i had died
There is a place somehwere near
Where i have often gone and cried
This place i tried to share
But no one seemed to care
To me it was magical
Buf i didn't really dare
To hope that they could see
Because this place encompassed me
And wasnt about them
It was where i had come to be
To be who i am now
Its where i found
Out who i truly was
Its where my heart was bound
I went there often
I havent been back
I miss it
That beautiful rooftop
Where i would sit
And cry
Or wish i could die
Or think about suicide
Or where i would go
When there was no one home
And i could sit and think
I miss my rooftop
It was my place.
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 2:07 PM UTC
I see no degradtion
in my broken passion of words
these words I speak from my deepest creases
my secrets hidden in the birds
I let you read me in my peices of peices
and I am called absurd
I let you let me shift you with my magic
now your vision of me is more blurred
Ill let you hunt me down
so lopsided and up and done battered
I open the door hallucinating and tattered
its not not like you never mattered
I just have remote in my hands
I have intrusive in my wastelands
now my lungs expand
slow
ly
I lift my eyes and bend my head
without voice I preech muse of the dead
Im yearning for more than lifes bread
and we yell enough
enough
was said
but I get on my knees and I beg
life I say might there be something better that you can
grant
to express myself in ways purer than this
because I feel that I cant
I will carry my mind somewhere further than any foreign land
somehwere to a brutal coma
where little aliens of dripping uphoria exsist
hidden deep in every uncharted abyss
they will come up from the mudd
I will unravel them with the unraveling of this flower bud
I will lift my head up then nudge
in acceptence of all these empty cabinets
they have been emptied out by my wet mouth
to ease the pain and **** the drought
that burries itself like a baby
under the sheets of blood in my eyes
Oct 31, 2010
Oct 31, 2010 at 9:08 AM UTC
I see no degradtion
in my broken passion of words
these words I speak from my deepest creases
my secrets hidden in the birds
I let you read me in my peices of peices
and I am called absurd
I let you let me shift you with my magic
now your vision of me is more blurred
Ill let you hunt me down
so lopsided and up and done battered
I open the door hallucinating and tattered
its not not like you never mattered
I just have remote in my hands
I have intrusive in my wastelands
now my lungs expand
slow
ly
I lift my eyes and bend my head
without voice I preech muse of the dead
Im yearning for more than lifes bread
and we yell enough
enough
was said
but I get on my knees and I beg
life I say might there be something better that you can
grant
to express myself in ways purer than this
because I feel that I cant
I will carry my mind somewhere further than any foreign land
somehwere to a brutal coma
where little aliens of dripping uphoria exsist
hidden deep in every uncharted abyss
they will come up from the mudd
I will unravel them with the unraveling of this flower bud
I will lift my head up then nudge
in acceptence of all these empty cabinets
they have been emptied out by my wet mouth
to ease the pain and **** the drought
that burries itself like a baby
Nov 1, 2010
Nov 1, 2010 at 6:32 PM UTC
T'was fun
Somehwere i've never been
Forming bonds i've never had
Trying things i've never tried
Fallacy in my reality
Driving under the sun
Then I came back home
But
Somewhere
Perahps another reality
I am still driving
I never left
I can sense it
Also
It might have never happened
But If you ask around it did
Mar 27, 2021
Mar 27, 2021 at 12:39 PM UTC
what was it like?
Being ripped away from
the only place you ever knew,
the place you grew up in, what you called home.
In a ship cramped between foreign people.
Bones, both yours and theirs, protruding,
digging into your sides.
Did this scare you?
How did it feel?
Your neck, ankles, wrists chained.
Your body binded to others
who suffered the same fear of this unkown.
Frozen, immobile, confined to this state,
Uncertainty lacing the air
Your lungs filling with dread
How did you breathe?
what was it like?
arriving somehwere new,
completely different and obscure
where you would be stripped of being yourself
where your name and beliefs would not matter
where you were judged by appearance
and your abilities.
Did you know this?
How did it feel?
Doing what they wanted
Having no control of your life
Being defenceless to them using you
Them placing their hands where they should not be
Sold as if you were an object
Treated like animals
Did that break you?
What was it like?
When they took them away
without even a second glance.
as if they werent your most prized possession.
as if your blood did not run through their veins
When he said the boy was not his
and refused to raise him
Did that hurt you?
How did it feel
To be considered a slave?
Oct 15, 2017
Oct 15, 2017 at 6:32 AM UTC
*is there a special rule book, that tells you how to be?
All the right things to say and do, that they have and not me?
Slowly I am wothering, a flower deprived of sun.
Longing to belong to, somehwere or someone.
I wonder why god put me here, when clearly I don't belong.
Or else they wouldn't send us away, I guess we can't get along.
Nobody would even notice, if I just went away.
Cause' I'm not fit for this place called earth, and I cannot stand to stay.
You can cry, but they won't take sympathy
because you're less than human
You can try to run, but they'll just **** you quicker
because you're barely human
And I can pray to God that they spare my life, but not even God can stop them
because, I guess, I'm not even human*
LDW
Mar 5, 2014
Mar 5, 2014 at 1:00 PM UTC
Dylis on a table,
tag around her toe.
She tried to make it somewhere.
Dylis on a table,
disease around herself.
She tried to make it somehwere.
Dylis on a table,
She tried to make it somewhere.
AIDS the on to travel,
she has found herself nowhere.
Dylis on a table,
tag around her toe.
She tried to make it somehwere.
Had to let life go.
Aug 8, 2012
Aug 8, 2012 at 12:02 PM UTC
I never knew how much you meant to me until you were gone
Until you disappeared to hell or heaven
To be with your sister or not
To decompose and help a tree grow
To reincarnate and come back to me
To fill the void
To anywhere but somehwere with me
To anywhere but somewhere I can see
To anywhere but the place I need you to be,
Here with me
May 19, 2021
May 19, 2021 at 1:34 AM UTC
I wanna write a letter to you
but I thought it better if I used
my metaphores and told a story for ya
this one starts when I was young
before all that numb stuff
back before love was a cup
full of drugs
back where I grew up
there wasn't much but
a couple of us kids
livin life like we wished
the sunshined all the time
you could catch us out side
from noon till night
ridin bikes, playin play fight
on the same side, bein knights
slaying dragons with our swords
or soldiers out at war
always packing action with
whatever we imagined happend
I remember vividly
impatiently waitin for the gamin
on the end the week
on the ps 1,2,3,
360, pc, or wii, just
livin the dream with my brother
somewhere in the suburbs
in the pool gettin sun burnt
little fools with each other
gettin noodles after supper
time seemed to fly so slow
waitin on the cold
so we could go play in the snow
till we're red in the nose
knowin Christmas coming close
it was simple livin those days
when we were children
at times I miss it kinda wish it
didn't ever end though us back then
wanted to grow up so bad an
reminscin it's the same **** it's
wishin we were somehwere different
missin out on the beauty of livin
minute to minute that's livin in now
so stuck up in the clouds
come down an look around
what you'll find is pretty awesome
opportunity begins to blossom
everything stops looking so rotten
so often lost in those Glory days
never stop to entertain that hey
maybe today's the golden age
sun still shinin an I'm feelin great
slow down bud there's
so much to do
growin up it'll
come so soon
the futures bright and
the past was great but
for a while let's
live in today
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 10:49 PM UTC
as I sit here, watching this door in the dark,
my mind wanders to what just happened.
my mind blanks out and replays everything that
was said in that one instant of that long night.
on everything, I regret every word, every loud,
disgusting word I yelled at you.
I know you were somehwere
feeling the same way.
I know you were somewhere fuming with heat and sorrow, wanting to come home.
but I knew you probably wouldnt,
since you know what I would have more to say.
But tonight... if you came back...
I would say nothing.
I wanted you back home,
safe with me, with the little family you have in me,
where you know I love you no matter what.
I burned a hole in the door that night,
hearing myself breathe, my heart jumping at every sound that passed my ears.
after an hour, my heart gave up on looking
so I rolled one and turned on the tv to drown the room with sound until I could forget.
I went to the kitchen and looked in the fridge ---
you bought me my favorite ice cream yesterday
and when I looked at the tub... I wanted to drown
in my own hot tears that dripped down my face.
I snatched it and sat back down,
still anticipating that you would open the door.
after two movies and a show noone new about,
I gave up on listening,
I gave up on you coming home.
I slipped into a sleep that was uneasy but still
comfortable to my hot chest.
I laid there on the couch, half drowned
in ice cream and **** smoke.
my mind drifted to you and a future without you,
I drifted to a world where we werent we,
I shivered in the thought and when I could take
no more ... I popped up in a sweat,
and in my chair... was you.
Dec 7, 2015
Dec 7, 2015 at 7:05 PM UTC
I will never be able to tell you in person
Wish you would just understand
I saw you somehwere in my thaughts last night
We were holding hands, "Honey I'm not myself without you, please come back"
Feeding my eyes with your dreams all night
A thousand questions reside in me
End up answering them too,
No matter how much I'm busy
Wherever life takes me
I found myself back with you
Your thaughts wont just elope,
This struggle will not end here
Your memories will never fade
My love can never age
I have asked you from the divine giver
This i say from faith,
One day I'll hold your hands, "Honey, don't ever leave me again"
Jan 31, 2020
Jan 31, 2020 at 3:00 AM UTC