"shiz" poems
She remembers the day the stick turned blue, “wow for **** up the spout”
He remembers her smile when she told him. Smile, really?
Then there was telling her parents, “okay we'll make this work”
Then there was telling his parents, “You threw your scholarship away for this ***** you're a dumb ***
She remembers the morning sickness
He remembers the hangovers
She felt warm inside when he said it was her choice
He felt like dying when she said she was keeping it
She framed the first ultra sound photo
He deleted his Myspace page
She noticed the day she started showing
The same day he noticed the legs on the waitress
She was snickered at behind locker doors
He quit the team
Her mom brought home baby shoes
His mom circled the classifieds
She got peanut butter cravings
He got hand gun cravings
It's a girl
It's a girl
She remembers finally talking again after four months
He remembers being cornered after 3rd period
She wanted to pick names
He wanted to hang up
She remembers their second first date
He remembers how nice she was
This could really work please kiss me goodnight
We'll see how this goes please don't kiss me
The doctors say the shadow on the ultra sound could be nothing
What if the thing on the picture is something
She prays for the health of Amelia
He begs God to do something about this
They have such a bright future ahead
He had such a bright future ahead
She goes to Goodwill for maternity clothes
He rings her up at the cash register with a kiss
She remembers buying baby clothes at the mall
He remembers how cute the onesies were
She sees him smile
Amelia...good name
She's due next week
He packs his cleats to make room for the crib
She packs to move into his house
His dad packs for a motel
She's still craving peanut butter
He's still craving the waitress
She ate peanut butter
He ate the waitress
She's in labour
He's in traffic
Hold my hand
Ouch...Okay breathe honey...ouch
There's no crying
Nice, quiet baby
Amelia's dead
I'm not a father
She cries into her shirt
He leaves the hospital
She cries into the onesies
He returns the crib to Wal Mart
She burns the ultra sound photos
He grabs his cleats
She gets a hair cut
He quits his job
She returns the diapers and shower gifts
His new Myspace says “single”
She shops for a prom dress
The waitress finds out he's seventeen
Her mom hugs her as she falls asleep
His dad pats him on the back after wind sprints
She can't stop starring at him during prom
He wonders if she went to prom
She writes Amelia in bubble letters on a piece of paper she hangs on her wall a reminder of what's important
He buys a Costco pack of condoms and tacks one to the wall a reminder of what's important
Jan 4, 2010
Jan 4, 2010 at 10:17 AM UTC
It's fun...
Like f'n with the lights on.
So I can see every inch...
Of your body...
Wincing with pleasure unmeasurable.
That **** so ****
Like the way you look at me...
Undressin' me mentally.
I can read your naughty mind girl...
That's why I spank your behind girl...
That's why I make your toes curl...
When our bodies unite and become a blur.
Dec 8, 2009
Dec 8, 2009 at 8:15 PM UTC
Don't do drugs
I don't do drugs,
They're for mugs,
And thugs,
And used to exterminate bugs,
I don't do smack, crack or nick knack paddy whack,
I don't do green its not clean, you don't know where its been,
I don't do drugs,
I don't do **** or fizz there all a pile of ****
I don't do rush bush or the silent hush,
I'm scared to trip, or take a dip, specially with me plastic hip,
I just don't do drugs,
I don't do coke, the smoke, the devils poke,
The line of fine, is a crime, you'll get time,
Don't do drugs,
It's for mugs,
And thugs,
But mostly they're used to exterminate bugs.
Nov 4, 2015
Nov 4, 2015 at 3:06 PM UTC
To me, perfect is an opinion.
Nobody's perfect is the same.
But the tell me this,
why is "you're so perfect" a compliment?
Why does another person's perfect matter?
We wake up and strive for perfection.
But what happens when we get there?
Do we lose our motivation?
No, because we never get there...
Even when you think you've scaled your mountain,
all it takes is one insult,
to send you thundering down again.
Or does it?
What about body positivity?
Or not giving a **** anymore?
well I am not those people,
and my perfect is on the floor.
Sep 1, 2017
Sep 1, 2017 at 8:16 AM UTC
I wonder if
Emotionally stable people just
Sit on the throne in the mornings
Flushing out
Unwanted emotions
Filtering through
The daily
Bs
Sep 19, 2020
Sep 19, 2020 at 9:27 AM UTC
I feel so alone
In the big, big world
The true me will be shown
I need to let go and face the real world
I have to let go
I have to sort things out
Everything is moving so slow
I have to get out
I have to swim to the surface
This feeling is like drowning
But I have to resurface
Everyone around me is breathing
I can see them
Drawing in breath
I'm not one of them, not a gem
I can't breathe like they can, this is like death
I'm suffocating
In my sorrow
I'm suffering
Dreading living tomorrow
I'm not suicidal
Though sometimes I wish I was
But this is survival
I will live life with no clause
I am all alone
No one understands the way I feel
You say you do, but no, I am alone
You don't understand, my walls are like steel
I am lonely
yet I am afraid
I am the one and only
Don't try coming to my aid
Youwon't anyways
You don'tcare
Your sympathy won't help Anyways
When you became my friend you should've been aware
Of the burden that comes with me
I cry and I scream
Just like a banshee
My tears are a constant stream
I'm suffering
I feel like I'm dying
I'm drowning
I feel helpless
Why do you continue?
Why are you Reading my misery?
Go ahead contribute
I will soon be history
Why are you reading?
You don't care anyways.
Why are you pleading?
It won't help anyways
So let go
Live your life
Go on thrive and grow
You don't need me in your life
Besides
I'm just a lonely girl
Sitting on one of the sides
Of your screen, I'm no pearl
Just a ugly freak
Who is alone
Just a depressed geek
Who is alone
So Go on
Live your life
Fulfill your dreams which you have drawn
This is the way I feel this is my way of life
Deal with it
Just Like I had to
For 12 years I have put up with this ****
I'm sorry If this offended you
I still love you all
You have a place in my heart
The old me is not here at all
My name is Mattie I have been torn apart
This is all
Goodbye my friends
I love you all
Stay strong my friends
May 25, 2014
May 25, 2014 at 4:33 AM UTC
I said "Hey
What are you doing today"
She replied "Don't know
Gotta go"
And that's all she said
To me
Cause it just seems like
You don't want to talk to me no more.....
So you just say goodbye
Hey please, just give me the time of day
I don't give a **** what the hell you say
Just talk to me
Ask me how I'm doing
And tell me how your days been
Juet talk to meeeeeee
Just talk to me
I see you walking around
Your hand's in his
But I say I don't mind
Cause I don't want to see this..
****
Cause while you're talkin to him
You could be talking to me
But you don't care...
You're hanging off every word that he says
Hey please, lets just sit and chat
Yeah yeah, lets talk about your cat...
But you say no
I've found someone better to talk to
So lets just leave it at that
You can't tell
But my heart is breakin
Yeah yeah, my hands are shaking
I really wish that I was faking
But I'm not...
Cause you don't wanna talk to me
Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 8:17 PM UTC
you said my dreams couldnt fit reality
really!
cuz i thought dreams were listed anything
and now all grown up
ive learnt that dreams can go beyond that fanticy
and luckily ive hit that 40% mark
see you the one who prevented me from reaching my destiny
keeping me hiding me from everything.....
and now im stuck in this sadpit
deserting my pain
and with every move i make the sand just
iches deeper and deeper into my soul until ive had my final breath
but until that day comes im ready to face my
deepest and darkest pains even if that means going back to that AWFUL memory lane.....
but right now who gives a **** about the pain....
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 1:37 AM UTC