"hur" poems
Schwinny, Baby,
You were supposed to be
my
Bicycle.
So I don't ask for anthing special.
No dark Harley divas
To whisk me off into the sunset.
But I thought we were at least
On the same road together.
So please.
Don't go droaning on how
Life got too complicated.
I mean,
You've got one flimsy gear.
And don't go moaning how
The road got too bumpy.
I mean,
You went blind bonzai batshit
over burnt black tar pavement.
You just
Let go.
Threw away your
Chain of reasoning
Faster than I could brace for impact.
So am I bleeding?
Yeah, I'm bleeding.
And the worst part is,
I still need you!
No, No, no.
Not like Pom Pom pammy
Needs her purple-plated pogo stick
Nor like Princess Paris
And her prissy pink prom queen limo,
No.
I mean I need I need you like
Alibaba needs his golden cherub camel,
Like Ben Hur his crimson-fury chariot.
Because work is 37. Blocks. Away.
And it starts in 16 minutes.
And the bus is really unreliable.
So we ride again,
Guts against the wind.
But now I've got all ten fingers and toes
Crossed,
Two by two,
And point in fact,
Racing down Guadalupe with
Forked Philanges
Gets really hairy.
But your suicidal tendancies simply scare me.
Your thirst to incur first degree burns,
Fractured femurs,
And flayed skin whittles my patience
To tire track thin!
Think I'll
Roll my dice with a Segway.
She'd be a quaint, play it safe kind of girl.
Type to show off
To a Mom and Dad
Reveling in rosemary jubilation.
Aw, son.
We knew you'd land a keeper. That's my boy.
But in ten days tops,
I'd begin to miss your fiery imbalanced breath.
I'd yearn for your bipolar 180 turns that
Make my heart skip that terrible, syncopated beat.
So let's just say,
I'll give it one more shot.
But ***** just promise you'll stick around a little longer.
It's storming outside and
We both got a few blocks to go.
Feb 4, 2010
Feb 4, 2010 at 10:17 PM UTC
some days, his eyes are full with angst
his arms down his sides, with his fists as closed as his ears
and all I want to say is *I know how it is
to be so angry you don't know where to go
because the whole world lights you up like a dry stick of explosives,
how it is to have your feelings being so big they start to feel
like extensions of your limbs,
waving uncontrollably
and all you can do to avoid their friction from setting you on fire
is either to cut them off or keep your arms down your sides*
but I step aside, because he can no longer take in my words
his six year old eyes are filled with the nothingness of
an anger so big and unlabeled
but someday, I will tell him and he will understand
I will tell him that even though my blood is not in his veins,
I will cleanse it from soot and silt,
I will be his human shield from this world
I will tear kingdoms apart and slay every last creeper
just to help him level up
and I will uncontrollably, explosively and unconditionally
love him
//
vissa dagar är hans ögon fyllda med ångest
hans armar längs sidorna, med nävar lika hårt stängda som hans öron
och allt jag vill säga är att *jag vet hur det är
att vara så arg att du inte vet vars du ska ta vägen,
för hela världen får en att tända som en torr bunt sprängämnen,
hur det är att ha känslor så stora att de börjar kännas
som förlängningar av dina egna armar och ben,
okontrollerbart viftande
och allt du kan göra för att förhindra att deras friktion tänder eld på dig
är att antingen hugga av dem eller hålla armarna längs sidorna*
men jag går undan, för han kan inte ta in mina ord längre
hans sexåriga ögon fyllda med ingentinget
av en ilska så stor och oettikerad ilska
men någon dag ska jag berätta för honom och han ska förstå
jag ska berätta för honom att även fast mitt blod inte flyter genom hans artärer,
ska jag rensa det från smuts och sot,
jag ska vara hans mänskliga sköld från den här världen
jag ska slita kungariken itu och döda varenda creeper
bara för att hjälpa honom att levla upp
och jag ska okontrollerbart, explosivt och villkorslöst
älska honom
May 30, 2013
May 30, 2013 at 4:46 AM UTC
dat betch iz out of mi liek 4 gud & out of mi baez lief bc she a sloot & nu 1 lek hur & she st00pid & sh3 tri 2 taek me bae but she didmt taek him & ily bae
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 3:07 PM UTC
Growing up as a guy I have something to admit
Its that theres so many girls that i'll never forget
So i'll jump right in and go right from the start
and tell you about all these girls that have affected my heart
So lets start with the As there is two that first come to mind
and thats Ambrea and Ashley, their each one of a kind
Now those are my sisters so their first to be said
but lets continue on to who else pops in my head
lets see...there's 2 Ashley As, but only one Ashley G
can't forget Amanda K, or all 7 Amys
There are so many As that we'd have to stay way long
let me wrap it up quick with the cutest one "akon"
You should see all these B's their so pretty it scares me
theres Beth and theres B thou, theres Bee and B. Barry
In the C's we have Crepeele with her pretty long blonde hur
and then we have Cameo, thats right, Mama Burr
On to the Ds they would never be meana
theres danielle carey, and then there is dreena
though im sure there are Es-Hs to do
i'm skipping to Js starting with J. Gubbes
Janelle, Jolene, or Jocelyn B.
Jordan, and Jen, and Jill L. you see
Jamie, and jasmine, or J. Allen
Jaylene, and Jessica, and then jen again
Oh God now the Ks, not sure where to begin...
I'll start with the departed R.I.P. Kristin
On to the girls that are more than alive,
Lets take, Keilyn, Kayla, and Karmen on a test drive
Three other K's must get named out for sure
And that's Kaley, Kansas, and Kristjana Schure
Two Girls in the Ls that are way way to awesome
And thats Lauren Borsheim, and of course, Laura Klassen
On to the Ms there is no time to spare
Just one, Maryke, and she cuts my hair
...I'm just kidding MOM you know your up there!
We do have an N there's nothing to fear
Her name is Niki, she lives in Red Deer
No Os, or Ps, or Qs to discuss
we'll move on to R's cause this next ones a must
Rachael K the Australian Wonder
Rebecca's art is so good she draws lightning and thunder
Theres a couple of shellys, and Sam 1 and 2
Tara looks like a model, and Tia does too
Don't know any Us, the Vs go in order
Vanessa M, V. Young, and VJ the reporter
If your name wasn't mentioned no need to be sour
this poem was rushed, took me less than an hour
Aug 30, 2010
Aug 30, 2010 at 10:04 PM UTC
The curious belief which drives
A man to **** so many for
The reward in martyrdom of
Seventy two black eyed virgins
Has an ironic twist in the
Disappointment that a belief
So carefully nurtured, if
Houri are hur, and the error
In translation is a paradise
Of white raisins instead.
Oct 17, 2014
Oct 17, 2014 at 6:44 AM UTC
of course i left the shit-holes traumatised,
if i didn't read extensively i'd be
stuck in some slum for immigrants -
i mean, who, in, their, right, frame, of, mind
would teach children the basis
of abortion, among lessons about sniffing
glue (a practice in the Ukraine)
as if the 1960s psychedelic revolution never
took place? only the catholic church,
which loves the ****** of a John Smith...
i might as well be listening to Billy Joel
rolling a ****** Jesus... **** off...
take your little school while i learn
from the stoic Marcus Aurelius... seriously
Ben Hur und Aesop to you too! go on grovel
on your message: gehen nord...
yeah, because the romans were evil to incorporate
Judea into its pond empire...
the north men clashed with the jews in the Holocaust;
head north jesus said... so they headed in fakes...
polnisch hebräisch: Jiddisch Yiddish Jesus Jehovah
the tetragrammaton, ********
like they built the ******* pyramids...
sheep, sheep, sheep; i do better drumming
for the rhythm guitars than anyone,
esp. Billy on the MTV single hit about Australian
bushfire and a long list of names with rock around
the clock of Bill Haley & His Comets and oh ****** days
on the McDonald boulevard.
May 6, 2016
May 6, 2016 at 7:56 PM UTC
Se hur tiden flyger
Se hur den tar dag efter dag
Ringarna i stammen växer
Jag lär väl vänja mig om ett tag
Solstänkta dagar fann vi
Långt bort från hem och hus
Vi besteg den klippiga kusten
Ingen kommer nånsin veta hur
Du nådde fram tillslut
May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 2:22 PM UTC
Why can't I remember?
I'm blocking it, why can't I just-
Who hur-
Where did it-
Why would they-
Sorry, what were we talking about?
Jul 26, 2018
Jul 26, 2018 at 8:30 AM UTC
You rode bikes with Milka
to the bridge over the river
and stood looking down
at the flowing water
and talked
of the latest
Elvis Presley film
you’d seen
and she said that she
had wanted to see it
but her mother
had forbidden it
saying it was not
the type of film
for her age
then you talked
of the film you’d seen
while working
as a cinema projectionist
called Ben Hur
and the great
chariot races in it
she leaned close to you
as you talked
her hands
on the brick bridge
her hips pressing
gently against yours
she said she like it
when you came
to their farmhouse
and practised judo
with her brothers
and she could watch
and as she spoke
you studied her
her short fair hair
her large blue eyes
her delicate hands
the fingertips rubbing
against the bricks
of the bridge
the simple
green shift dress
she had on
and do you remember
that time you had them
both on the grass at once
in that karate fight?
she said excitedly
and you noticed
maybe
for the first time
her small firm bust
her figure
kind of huggable
although you hadn’t
hugged her
and she went on
about wanting to go
out with you
but her brothers
had said
Baruch won’t be
interested in you
he likes pretty girls
and you looked
at her eyes
as she spoke
how large they were
yet not unbeautiful
the orbs blue
portraying
wide worlds of you
and how old are you?
she asked
because they
keep saying
you’re too old
for me
16
you said
well
she said
I’m 14
so that isn’t
too old is it?
no
you said
seeing her eyes look
kind of watery
like small fish bowls
then she talked
of having seen you
in her dreams
and that in her dreams
you had kissed her
where did I kiss you?
you asked
on the lips of course
she said
no I meant
where abouts
was I when I kissed you?
o
she said blushing
in the barn
by the farmhouse
o I see
you said
never having been
there with her
only with her brothers
to do judo fights
she looked down
at the water
her eyes wide
and watery
a bird flew by
a bird song sounded
you leaned close to her
and kissed
her ear
through her
fair hair
and she looked at you
and you saw
new worlds
being born there
amongst the blue
Milka smiling
at an older you.
Jul 12, 2013
Jul 12, 2013 at 1:59 AM UTC
Your time
Is
Move
Ing
Your Heart
Is
Beat
Ing
The clock
Is
Tick
Ing
What Are
You
Do
Ing
What Are
You
Wait
Ing
Your time
Is
Run
Ning
Go catch
It
Hur
Ry
You're Dy
Ing
Slow
Ly
Tic
Toc
Tic
Toc
Lub
Dub
Lub
Dub
Up
Down
Left
Right
Too
Loose
Too
Tight
Live
Die
Crawl
Fly
Old
Young
Will
Die
Soon
Er
Late
R
Do
You
Feel
It
Hate
It
Fear
It
Fight
It
To
Death
Fight
A
Gainst
Death
Can
You
Do
It
Will
You
Win
Or
Stop
Think
In
Not
A
Gain
What Makes
It
Dif
Fer
To Breath
While
Stare
Ing
Do
Ing
No
Thing
Keep
Time
Go
Ing
Is This
Live
Ing
No
I
Think
Do
You
Think
We
Drink
We
Smoke
We Made
Love
We Broke
We Drugged
And We Bragged
We Sped Up
The Clock
We ****
And We ****
Keep Repeatin
The Crap
Oh But
Your ****
Isn't A
Nice ***
You Gave
Your Body
You Get A
Free Pass
We End Up
Racing
We Sleep Up
*******
We Live
Like Hell
In A World
Like Heaven
We Did
Much Fun
Is It Quite Worth
The Run?
What Have
You Done?
Nothing,
Next To None
We All Bought
Money
Money Bought All
We
We Became All Free
But Nothing Was Free
Count One To Three
Are We Alive Yet
We All Rot Together
Are We Not Dead Yet?
Aug 15, 2017
Aug 15, 2017 at 8:03 AM UTC
i'm not trying to achieve enlightenment i just want to know why it hurts so bad when i make eye contact with you
it doesn't hurt
it winds my stomach up like a yo-yo
and drops it to the ground without thinking twice
the way you blink makes me hurt
hurt
hur
t
this isn't fair it's not fair i have goals and you don't
i'm not skipping classes anymore i'm not
skipping
lines
anymore
i can't i can't
it isn't fair
i can't
Aug 21, 2013
Aug 21, 2013 at 1:37 PM UTC
She stands.
Afraid to move.
Afraid to breath.
Afraid that she'll hurt those around her.
Then
She opens her eyes.
the fire burning in her heart
reflected in them.
She is strong.
She can't be controlled.
The group steps in.
She grasps her small knife and glares at the first.
As if daring him
to step further.
He takes a step forward
and she takes her own.
his lips curl into a cruel sneer.
He says,
"you stupid little girl...
you think you can hur--"
She looks down at the man.
Then around at the rest
Faces all in awe of what they'd learned
they back away
and she strides away
Flaming hair rippling behind her.
Oct 10, 2014
Oct 10, 2014 at 5:30 PM UTC
/ nietzsche wrote
his *ecce ****
book...
now?!
apparently we're all supposed
to write a book, entitled
mea culpa... (?)
i just want an authenticity
of using the index,
index finger,
and being able
to point...
without sacrificing
the ownership
of a shadow attachment...
and how
does the víšégrād group
(oh i'm into linguistic
sabotage,
writing such a word,
treating it as a bomb,
and knowing the "nuance"?
well...
the manchester mob,
the panic,
and what is the concept
of islam if not advocacy
for literacy? no? really?!)
invite the bulgars... (?)
like a birth of a 2nd. yugoslavia...
or the shift of
the 2nd holy empire
to the, "left" in copernican
"terms"...
there are the narrators,
the observers,
the critics,
and the: chanced eyes on the mess...
no... in the collectivist / corporate
mind-sent?
mea culpa is not on
the agenda...
"we" have already
stressed the situation past
the mea culpa:
come: ecce ****
and the crucifixion /
guillotine.
come the bulgars...
and why am i not expressing
an intellectual ben hur
of an index finger?
managed to punch myself
20 times in the face
and give myself a plum beneath
the eye?
so what's wrong with
"flexing" attributing
the tongue to an index finger
"exasperation"?
so few books are actually
ecce **** orientated...
always the mea culpa,
never, never, ever,
tua culpa:
ergo?
ecce ****
shh...
quiet...
just mention the concept
of mea culpa
to elißabeth fritzl
how much of masochistic
"moralißing" does it have
to take place, trans-temporal
and justifying
the mono-spatial realm
of a "past", and, "now"
before being crucified
is no longer deemed
the same as labouring with
a hammer, or a chisel?!
i say that: metaphorically
frothing at the mouth.
firt i learned to throw a punch
onto my face...
give myself a plum just beneath
the eye socket:
now i know the mea culpa mantra,
as i know the existence
of the index finger, being
differentiated from the fist...
and?
the tua culpa mantra.
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 10:13 PM UTC
Where what she wears
wears on their fancies
to fancy or not to fancy
it't the Josephine's Jones'
hoow to snap chat herr
Slide in GraSM
Spin GRams fa hur
Chase C.R.E.A.M fa her
flirt with RÔUS!
Fem-Pøltiks
Watch the hour glass for her
moves on moves
what does she do it for
She does it for her...
HER,HEr and Hers'
Just stuntin' on the next bih
Did it for the ratchet
Flex on dat bih
She in her feelings like a Bih
Watch wonder why
Wonder why she do it four
AYe what you about that...
Jan 27, 2017
Jan 27, 2017 at 1:39 AM UTC
he
comes praying in a whisper
then
the swearing in
the power of God
descending
upending
his prayer trumpets forth
blasting
shouting out
by the power of the Spirit
make way for the man
God has chosen
who can stand against him
if God is for him
beware
if you come against him
you
come
against
God
pray
Aaron, Hur
hold up his arms
let the battle ensue
as long as our prayers
hold up his arms
we will prevail
for awhile
we can thrive
once again.
Cj 2016
Dec 11, 2016
Dec 11, 2016 at 1:00 PM UTC
Dina ögon påminner mig om galaxen, färgglad och djup.
Ditt leende är solskenet, eftersom det lyser genom gott och dåligt.
Och ditt hjärta ... Åh, hur det sprider sig.
Hjärtans vänlighet slår som pinnar på en ståltrumma, vibrerar och slår mot alla som hör det med känslor. Du är en krusning i tiden men din mening går klart igenom minnen från alla andra. Du är min vän och du är min gåva. Det här är min gåva till dig.
Jag är glad att vi träffades. Jag hoppas att din krusning gör att du gör något omöjligt.
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To Cat, because she understands.
Feb 26, 2020
Feb 26, 2020 at 11:33 AM UTC
m
my
my h
my he
my hea
my hear
my heart
my heart s
my heart st
my heart sti
my heart stil
my heart still
my heart still h
my heart still hu
my heart still hur
my heart still hurt
my heart still hurts
Mar 3, 2015
Mar 3, 2015 at 4:00 PM UTC
Oh! Come
and walk____ Jill
loves to react
He's the Dr. Love
architect
Where is the
miracle
intellects
Jack has better
things
to spell let's not
thicken
Her miracle
saucy roue'
Packages in bulk
You could only
see the
shadow of his
smile
Through his talk
Oh! God let me see
some kind of miracle
Old news Monday suits
marine Army miracle
blue
News on the
Chronicle
We all have an alibi______?
No backup plan
If there is any miracle
Who hired this FBI
Miracle gummies
Computers don't
react well
Click away dummies
My miracle Pill
Just chill fireplace
What it cost you
Memory lane
Got a lost change of face
((Jack the miracle
swallower
Iced Frost)) follower
The book
Jack and Jill Monk pill
Getting Up !!! no hill?
Surrender to swallowing
pills more bills nothing
*Too Gong **
Santa Claus roundabout
Or squared into hope for
miracles to be practiced
Losing you he has the will
Miracle cleansed shirt
A goldmine of dirt
Gusty--------
He nailed it, Rusty
The fan is blowing_______$$$
The time gets
explosive miracle man
His chin bombing reacts
Moves to show you
So ready charming
responsive
Like the miracle drug
Repeatedly rejects
How he ripped out
your barber carpet
Stop pulling so ruling
To be pushed
It was lightening
thrush
Bolt and the
miracle earth-rush
Changed our love
Aged wine lips
expensive
Lotto riches
come and
go to be fallen
But fate pays to
be risen
Extraordinary
((Ben Hur))
But Hollywood
rodeo drives me crazy
Plastic surgeons lazy
Traveling all Golfers
So in like Flinn
The supreme baby
where did our
money go if so?
So fit the fortunate
outcome
I reckoning?
Who needs the
miracle pill
All bills---$$$ over-charges
My miracle words to be
sprinkled deleted his
damages
To the very
top that's my
guarantee
Be happy and free_____**
Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 8:48 AM UTC
Folder: I'm Bigger Than Ben Hur!
One more misread line
One more antic to decline
Open up my poetry
To the masses and this
Is what I find:
No news is good news
My pain is amusement
I crack myself open
and pour out My truths
My words,
for me.
Will you turn them from me?
Humanity bares similarity
The themes are all the same
But each has its own Play
written by the same
I will be there in the
End waiting to find out
like the rest of us
When this drama ends.
Don't read yourself into my lines
Read your pain into my rhymes
These are
my words,
For me.
I will show you my pain
And hope from it
something you gain
when you see it
As it is
through my window frame.
Tirelessly I write
to end these
spirited convexations
Whispers of unheard
conversations
The aura around
your presence
May darken my own gold
But what ever I write
I labour alone.
These are
My Words
For me.
My consolation
For skipping through
the Madness of my
Spiritual frustrations.
Can you see me
The way I need you to see?
The way I really am?
With these, that are
my words.
For me.
Feb 8, 2014
Feb 8, 2014 at 5:58 AM UTC
motłoch: meaning rabble, disfranchised mob -
the affix -ch, denoted as a hark -
motłoch etymology isn't a history:
młot = hammer
Loch, i gather means congregation,
Haggis or czarna kiszka...
(blackened intestines)...
there be i to befriend
a Malcolm or a Macbeth -
there i interim dwell:
abiding i, Cnut of the north,
or as some care to say
escaping the ᚠ (the Iron hur!),
there be lots chosen and every
turn at a choice a roundabout
with ᚠᚨᚱ - ᛝᛟᚱᛞ -
far njord or
njordé - variant softening of consonants
heading toward variant of theta / phi;
sigma and south
enigma and epsilon and east,
westward and Y....
there we were confidants in
absolved stresses, and there once more:
revisionists, mavericks,
befriending
frying, flying,
flay thru the fathom -
or the she sells sea shells on the sea shore
θought: φaθom? luckily it wasn't
****** nor condor;
but enough diatribe wording to make lecherous
scavengers congregate and feast.
numb numb nibble nibble, pecking yum;
i always loved hyenas,
i ascribed foxes to be akin to them,
less grey and more orange...
but the laughter twinned them together:
and the night really belonged to them,
and i belonged with the night.
Oct 15, 2016
Oct 15, 2016 at 6:07 PM UTC
Det var en gång
En man bestämde sig
att lämna allt bakom sig
För att söka framgång
Det var en gång
En man åkte till en främmande stad
Bara för att han hade tillstånd
Och hört om den på en verkstad
Det var en gång
En man hamnade
I en värld mer mystisk
Än han trodde
Det var en gång
En man som försökte
Vänja sig vid kulturen
Hamnade vilsen
Det var en gång
En man tänkte sig
Att åka tillbaka
Varifrån han kom
Det var en gång
En man föredrog
Att stanna lite längre
För att utforska mer och bättre
Det började som en saga
Man vet inte riktigt hur eller när det kommer sluta
Men mannen förväntar sig
Att i framtiden kunna dela med sig
Av att han levde lycklig i flesta av sina dagar
Med sina gamla och nya kompisar
Kanske med några barn
Men troligen med kärlek.
Mar 9, 2020
Mar 9, 2020 at 3:24 PM UTC
As I walk out of my door
A clichéd cacophony of birdsong
Surrounds me with beauty
And uplifts my soul.
Yet we humans too love to sing
And play those instruments:
Creating lullabies, arias, symphonies,
Serenades and rock and roll shows.
To name but a few.
Angelic choirs in lofty minsters,
Lifting us up to the stars,
Embracing God in Heaven.
Heavy metal bands
Thrashing out thunder
In stadia seething with singing fans.
Brass bands too: trumpeting and rumpeting
In a crescendo of sound.
Hear those trembling triangles and sublime wind chimes.
Feel those bouncing drums.
Twanging, sweeping, swooning
Plucking, soaring, crying
Guitar.
Tinkling pianos and weeping violins.
Whole orchestras of mind-blowing sound,
Welsh rugby crowds
And the Liverpool Kop.
Magical music:
From spiritually haunting
To simply getting laid.
Bringing out the animal in us:
Passion and desire
Raw emotion
Or else the supernatural
Ethereal skyscapes
Sometimes sheer dread
And horror.
Watch any good film:
The musical score is everything:
“Star Wars”, “Gone with the Wind”, ******
“Battlestar Gallactica”, “Ben Hur”…
Beethoven, Mozart, The Beatles
The Stones, Queen, Genesis…
So much to love
Chuck Berry and Elvis
Rocking and rolling and reeling
And stealing our minds away.
So let’s get singing
And dancing
And banging those drums,
Flexing our plectrums
To make one helluva
Noise.
Let that magical music play
For Ever.
Paul Butters
© PB 10\4\2020.
Apr 10, 2020
Apr 10, 2020 at 6:47 AM UTC
“Hey, how's it going?”
What a terr-
It's a nightm-
Awf-
Unbear-
Unbelie-
Ba-
Not gr-
Horr-
Wors-
So stres-
Tire-
Hung-
Hur-
Sic-
No goo-
“Not too bad. And you?”
~
NM
11/18/16
Dec 11, 2018
Dec 11, 2018 at 10:48 PM UTC
jag skulle ljuga om jag inte erkände att jag minns dig
jag minns hur din famn var som en vagga för min trötta kropp
jag minns hur ditt leende satte ett stopp på allt jag trodde att jag var
för med dig så räckte inte mina andetag eller trösten jag trodde skulle göra dig hel
det räckte inte med maten jag fyllde din kyl med eller när jag träffade dina vänner som kollade på tjejer som om de vore tårtor i ett skyltfönster
precis som du gjorde
du höll upp mig med ett snöre med saxen nära till hands
snälla klipp ner mig och låt mig träffa marken innan du hinner skada mig igen
tänk om jag hade sagt så
tänk om jag sa åt dig att sluta
istället lät du mig vakna i fläckar av blod och i en kropp som inte längre kändes som min
men du lät mig aldrig vara ledsen för det var ju din själ som skulle vara trasig
det var ju du som förtjänade sympati
för en gång sa du ju
f ö r l å t
och om jag inte säger okej till allt du vill så är det mitt eget fel
det är mitt fel att dina ögon inte längre är blå
men att mitt lår är lila från ditt grepp
jag minns den mörka parkeringsplatsen och hur jag gick från skratt till chock av din hand runt min hals
tänk om det hade varit suddigt som en dröm
istället minns jag mer än jag önskar
hur allt var så naturligt och självklart för dig
och då var det redan för sent att säga nej
min rygg mot din vägg blev min plats och jag skämdes över såren som du skapade
för kanske var det jag som låtit dem ta form
smärta
du bar en mantel av svek och ändå kunde jag inte se igenom dig
din skönhet försvann i ögonblicket mitt namn och våldtäkt nämndes i samma mening
men även nu känns det fortfarande som att jag vill säga okej
att allt är...
okej
Jul 10, 2021
Jul 10, 2021 at 8:20 PM UTC