Dear my love, we've come a long way with our lives together
We've shared almost everything, rainy days and summer
Can't compare to anything all the moments that we have
And it's worth treasuring all the memories with you my love

I started to look over the year we are together
How we made it and making it last till forever
How we were to each other and what we are now
How we change for the better as we make eternal a vow

A song will never be enough to sing how happy and greatful I am
A line from a movie will never give life to days that we shared
And I just can't get a love quotes from someone and dedicate it to thee
For the words will never verbalize the exact feelings you've given me

You will always be the reason of my smile in everyday
Of how I keep on going and striving for better in every way
Of what I decided and what I chose it's always because of you
I won't do any way of hurting the heart of my unending truth

I am sorry for I haven't given you the best
Sed tu iure optimo dare spondes
As long there is tomorrow I'll wake up knowing how I love you
You are intrinsic to me, and my heart always beats for you

Always remember that I have found love in you, and I'll always will
Even if the sun refuse to shine for tomorrow, I'll be loving you still
Like a rainbow in Niagara it has no ending
May we filled our lives with colors of faithful feelings

I may not be the best boyfriend, may not be the best in this world
But I will do anything to make 'forever' not just a word
I promise you again that I won't let go and always hold your hand
May we always find and fall in love to each other, foreverly yours, **Gian

I never asked you for the things you gave me
I never asked
But you didn't even care

If I had asked,
would you have shut me out?
Or would you have given more?
Of your overflowing wine
of life or love or energy
( or whatever it was
  that you folded into my hands
  like the most secret-sacred treasure map )

You would sometimes catch me
In a gaze like a doe
Ask me things
That took time to sink in
Because I was being distracted
By my urge to count your eyelashes

We could never go outside in the cold
Because you were terrified
That your breath would crystallize  and twist inside your lungs
But you loved to see how long you could hold your breath for
Underwater

There would be pauses
As time stilled to take a look at us
To check that we really were still there
And everything around us swirled
Like autumn leaves or glitter stars
Our glances would solidify
And memory struck out to capture snapshots

Everly, I never asked
Not even once, but you still gave
Everly, I can't quite grasp

I see you sometimes
When the sunshine's wounding bright
Yellow, cheerful, heavenly
And I look into the shadows
To find rest for my eyes
I can never keep straight the present and the past
So when I look in the shade
I see ghosts of you sprawled out, laughing, head tilted back, hands splayed

Your sighs were soft
But you only ever sighed them
When your face shone
With a lovely glow of indulgence

We watched Hitchcock religiously
We wouldn't give them up
You said that you liked Vertigo the best
But you never told me why

I'll hold your friendship
In the cup of my hands
While wonder fills up slowly
Where my thoughts should be
I'll peer over my thumbs
To steal a peek at the clear blue crystalline
Effervescent memories

I will remember you foreverly
My word

you will come back
in every five seconds
in every five minutes
in every five round clock
in every five changing snowdrops
on the pavement
eon of epoch, your tardy shortcomings and
my in-sync horology

still i wait for you,
and sundial
of your promise

you will come back
in every winter
in every summer
in every spring
in every fall
weathervane foreverly prevail

still i wait for you,
with glimmering eyes
and avalanching hopes

you will come back
in every monday
in every wednesday
in every friday
in every sight of sadderdaze
a repertoire of mystical moments
per diem of price

still i will wait for you,
in every sunrise,
in every twilight

to sit. and stare.
in silence. burning.
surrounded by flames.
encircled. and hurting.
hurting. hurting.
eternally pained.
foreverly sitting.
still. staring.
in silence.

i know you're out there
maybe painting poems
using hues thru journeys
on your life canvas

while you're strolling through
the decadency of 'ups and downs'
a chess piece once called blue
hope you'll be back around

i'm writing this memoir
in hope you can hear these lines
in hope you know,
i hope you are foreverly alright

It began one night when you asked could you hug me. I said yes gratefully. At that moment a hug melted my heart. I fell for you because of your act of kindness and heart of gold. I never wanted to leave you from that moment.

I had to leave two weeks later. Would our love grow or would it fold? At that moment i didnt know. But everyday we stayed in touch my heart grew leaps and bounds. Every walk at night my hand in yours, as we watch the sun fading you miles away but still beside me.

Later a visit back to Wisconsin, finding my lover because there will never be another. I enjoyed every moment everyday, i had with you. From visiting your home town to eating chocolate covered strawberries. I wanted you to say, "stay". I wouldve never your side forever.

I had to leave, it was quite the time, for forever. Our love has grown even more since those days. Even when i found out, i may have cancer. The first time was only a scare. The second time, it felt like id never. But love wins it over everytime. I know i will be well soon. My heart is like a balloon lifting me higher, to my lover.

As days go by i recover, ill soon be with my lover. I know we are made for each other. We will never be apart foreverly, its been written in my heart.

This is our love song, you are there for me forever and ill be there for you whenever till the end of time. Im yours and you are mine. Walking side by side through this life forever. Holding hands and dancing without music just the echo of our hearts for one another.

Dedicated to Special K one day my wife

One day, ill be on my way to meet my beautiful brown eyed angel. I cant wait to hold you. Our journey is just beginning, the trisls have been tough. But our love is everlasting. I cant wait to gaze into your besutiful eyes. And pull you into me like its the first time. Your beauty overtakes me everytime. I want you, i need you, i love you forever. You make me so happy even when my world feels as if it is falling apart. You saved me from the big c. You are my superhero. I will love you foreverly. I told you our love has no boundaries, time, space, distance, disease. We will overcome always!

Dedicated to Special K