I walk down
This street of misery
An try to get this
Cloud to stop following me
Sit down and buy myself
a drink
While thoughts of you
Coming flying back to me
I try to smile an fight back
Those memories
But then I buy myself
Another drink
I begin to wonder
If you think of me
But then I pour myself
Another drink
Why does love include pain?
When will I be okay again?
The time has come
For me to move on
An hope you'll think
Fondly of me..
But if not then
Why don't you come in
To the bar of broken dreams
An I'll buy you a drink
We can talk about how
Life used to be
As you pour yourself another drink
God I hope you think of me...

When you wake
An your body aches
An all you can do
Is think about
a touch that haunts
Your memory...
How do you escape
From the endless possibilities?
You make yourself believe
That everything is fine
Put on that smile an charm
So no one knows your
Dying every day.
But just when you think
Your bones are about to
Break an that you can't
Take another breath
That's when you'll learn how
To be okay again...

I hate you
I can't stand you
I hope I'm never like you
You killed us
You beat us
You broke us
It took years to repair
All the damage that you caused
You never can recall
All the anger you
Displayed
While the tears ran down
Our faces
We had to learn to lie
To hide from all the pain
To keep you safe
Because you were supposed
To be our protector
You were supposed to be a father
An now matter how
Much you hurt us
We still loved you
We still took up for you
When the world turned
It's back on you
We tried our hardest
But it was never good enough
We always just a little less
Than the perfection
That you wanted
So you drowned us in a bottle
And all of your sorrow
Then we finally good see
All the greif an pain you
Caused us
We stood up to you
An you hated us
Threw us out
An we swear we would never
Be you I swore I'd never hurt
Anyone like you always seemed too.
Now that I am older
I can forgive you
But I'll never forget
The pain I saw every time
On my mother's face when
You hit her
An I'll never forget
The effect you had on me
Or the pain you afflicted on our family.

You seem so happy
Away from me
I guess that proves
You honestly never
Loved me
You do things
You say things
You try things
That you never
Did for me
You left me broken
You lied to me
You tore my heart out
Then left it on the ground
Even after I forgave you
For every time you hurt me.
When cheated on me
And left me hurt
I took you back
I put back the pieces
Of your heart
That the person you
"Loved" broke
I cared for you
When you were sick
I held you when you
Were sad
I wiped your tears away
And kissed the pain away
I Loved you with everything
In me
I gave you everything I had.
But why can't I just
Let this all go?
Why can't I hate you?
....why... Can't I move on?
Because somewhere in my
Heart I guess I hope....
That there may still be
A piece of your heart..
That still belongs to me.

I gave you my heart to protect...
Not to watch it fall from your hands
And shatter on the floor.

My Darlin,
You are my world
You are my heaven
You are my hell.
My world because
I do not exist without
You in my life.
My heaven because
I found heaven
In your arms.
My hell because
When you are gone
I am in hell without you.

The world we live
Is a judgemental place
Society has a twisted view
On the people like me
An the people like you

Society likes to
Believe we just pick
An choose
Yeah because that
Kid down the street
Choose to have cancer.

I didn't choose to be
This way
I just choose to
Accept my change.
So ridicule me all
You like
Tell me I am going
To hell for fixing myself
Because in the end
You can't make me happy
Only I can.

I am perfectly happy
Being a transgender man.

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