Snort me; I want to be your *******.
Absorbed into your blood stream,
Riding along the coursing rivers under your skin.
Making you lack hunger lack rationality lack everything because all you can think about is me the buzz me the buzz me the buzz me
Everything vibrating
s h a k i n g
A white film still coats your nose as you rush around,
Energized,
Trying to do everything at once.
One, two, three more lines.
Weeks fly by and you're hooked onto me.

4:20 am
Can't sleep.
I remember how we discussed getting high on that bumpy car ride home with the windows rolled down and the AC cranked up to the max.
4:30 am
Can't sleep.
"Mom, I've been up all night."
Too embarrassed to admit that I was talking to Beloved, I throw my head back and wash away a neon pink pill with a gulp of water.
4:35 am
Can't sleep.
My tense body is screaming for you to be here to relieve the aching of my muscles that are far too overworked and far too exhausted.
Even despite the fact that I spend my days wasting away in a relationship with a bed that doesn't even know my favourite colour.
4:40 am
Can't sleep.
Restless because I miss him.
Restless because I have him.
Realizing that my inability to sleep spawns from the lack of motivation to exist the way I'm supposed to.

The vastitude between you and I is impossibly large and oh my how my heart aches.

Dreaming keeps you from seeing what's right there in front of you.

You're not her(e).

he reads the goosebumps on my skin like an old blind man reads braille.

She thought nobody loved her when she was surrounded by those who did.
But the empty feeling inside persisted.
She was commiserated
By those
Who cared
But somehow managed to evade the love
She took a path that helped her circumvent all of the wrong things
And ended up sprinting off of the edge of a cliff.