We feel better when the sky owns up to the bleakness of the world; it turns grey and endless and it cries with us. We hide from the sun because it warms our skin and lies about a better tomorrow. Ice bites our noses and rattles our teeth- it makes us feel alive but it too, is swallowed by the warmth we have taught ourselves to hate. We are fighting for happiness but waiting for the warmth and the flush and the laughter to end, that we might envelope ourselves once more in our depression, anxiety and pain.
But I am tired of my cocoon of misery; this atmosphere filled with the sensation of waiting for rain. You three are my best friends. I have made an astonishing number of mistakes in my life but loving you is not one of them.
So I will wait for rain with you.
**And I will revel in the sun when you find it.
Libby, Callum and Chris. Nothing means as much to me as you three do. Nothing. We all hurt right now and I don’t know how to help so I give you this in the hopes that it gives you just a little bit of hope. I love you.