Okay, here it is.
You drive me crazy.
Some nights I want you to just kiss me already.
And then other days, I want to strangle you.

And then you smile at me like I'm the reason you're happy.
Then you go and make her feel that way too.

You say something mean
And later tell me you are interested in me.

Say it doesn't matter,
Say the opposite.
And then "What do you want?" You ask me. "Is it me?"

But I don't even know who you are.

4/19/16

I am not the girl who sits by the phone waiting for you to call

I am not the girl who will tell you that she misses you

I am not the girl who will whisper to you how she really feels

I am not the girl that will ask you to come over tonight

I am not the girl you will drape your long arms around

I am not the girl hanging onto your every word

I am the girl you are frustrated with because I am not that girl.

Am I like her?
So brilliant, so kind,
Ahead of us all shining high?
Laughter a song,
Silence a book,
Stories told
Don't need a hook?
A lovely goddess
That makes you sigh?
Or am I just a lamp you wouldn't buy?

4/24/16

Deleted,
Deleted what I feel,
I know what I should do,
But what fate will that seal?

4/24/16