i am so tired
but
everything that
exhausts me
keeps me
awake
at night

i used hate the way i would be awake at four in the morning.
i remember the way everything used to feel so haunting and scary.
there were no words to describe how deep inside my mind i would sink into,
scared and afraid of no return.

but now,
oh now,
i love it.
i fell in love with the quiet.
there was no more worry or fear.

"I love you"
You say
As you lift up my chin
But you're eyes shine with metaphors
And your hand feels like sin

We spent the night
Interrupting our kisses with laughter
And looking into each other's eyes
Too afraid to tell the other
What we desperately wanted to hear

Loving you
A poison I would drink with pleasure
Any day of the week

Oh what a privilege,
to have known you.
I will carry a piece of you,
in my heart forever.

What a waste it is—
to be human
and be contained.