i haven't let
a blade
dance upon my wrist
in months

but now it aches
and it feels like
i'm coming home

sleeping with self destruction

large mobs,

listening from the outside,
poking and prodding at our lives,

upholding our monkey brains 
while manipulating our emotions;

everyone tries to fix things for us

he actually thought he did

You thawed the ice around my heart
but you set my insides on fire.
Today, I'm only ashes and smoke.

I met a girl

whose pretty blue eyes

have more depth than the sea.

I'm drowning and I don't know how to swim.