I walked with heavy feet towards a river that runs deep
And I put stones in my pockets to keep me weighted on the floor.
I felt the red creep in and settle into every bone within my frame,
And I felt death's grip get colder as I approached the haunted shore.
I put one foot into the river and felt the water running cold,
And I clenched both my fists tightly as I prepared for my next step.
I thought about my lungs, how they will desperately gasp for air,
And then I took a deep breath in and I let the water take my life.

And it was cold,
And it was dark,
And It was heavy on my chest,
And I was scared,
And I was wrong,
And I was too late to live on.

I felt the fire in my lungs, the burning embers of my mistake,
And I knew that within in moments, I would have to cave in.
I shut my eyes and said a prayer, words to a god I never knew,
And at last I opened my mouth, gasped for air, and sealed my fate
I tasted the salty pallet of death as the river filled my lungs
And I felt a pain like no other as I lived my final moments
I wondered what I would be remembered for, if for anything at all,
And then I felt your hand grasp me, and pull me to the shore.

And it was life,
And it was beautiful,
And it was you who pulled me up
And I was safe
And I was breathing
And I was wrong to have jumped in.

And there will be days where this river will taunt me in my sleep.
When deaths lips will persuade me into a "beautiful" mistake.
And I will fight, and I will live, And I will never let it go.
I have emptied both my pockets, I have learned to stay afloat.
And I am troubled, And I am fabled, And I am easily convinced,
But I get a certain confidence when I see you on my side.

YOU ARE HERE BECAUSE YOU ARE STRONG

I feel like you like me less every day, as I like you more.

I hate feeling lonely.

I’ll get my *** kicked by someone better than me just to keep you from having to deal with creeps.

If only you could feel how I felt.
There wouldn’t be any confusion.
If only you could feel how I felt.
Your writings would sound a lot different.

I hate watching myself slowly **** up all of the good things I have in life and not being able to stop it.

You step onto a platform that you know only I can see,
and you speak your words saying you’re a tease,
and when I ask why you say such words, you don’t reply, as if they were unheard.
Do you not trust me, did I **** up?
I wish I wasn’t left thinking I’m dumb.
I never said those words, but someone did.
And you won’t tell me. I feel like ****.

I close my eyes
and rest my head
and hide inside your touch

And all my pains
and stupid fears
get lost inside your love

I hold your hand
and see your smile
and everything is okay

From stupid jokes
to loving hugs
my sadness is miles away.

She has coffee eyes
And the summer night sky
Is blessed when she looks upon it
And the stars in space
Mirror the freckles on her face
As I sing her a song or a sonnet
Her words dance
And they put me in a trance
While she makes me smile forever
She rests in my arms
And I keep her safe from harm
As I hold the universe together.

I think part of problem is that I idolize my friends, so it hurts like hell when they leave me again.

She held my hand tight as she danced with me in the rain,
And I realized that I never wanted to let go.
She smiled at me lovingly as she made my heart burst,
And I listened to the rain sing bella.

Concerts crescendo into breakdowns and my friends could care less.
I want to spend summer with them but the feeling isn't the same.
Hallways spread lies as fake smiles are passed,
But summer shows candor as I cry alone.

You’re like a candle in the rain when I miss you.
I know I’m heavy and I’m broken but I still need your help.
You’re like a coffee shop day dream when I’m with you.
You know I’m trying really hard and you see footsteps behind me.

If I could,
I’d stay up forever
Just to make you smile.

I don’t understand how someone can beat the **** out of you and then you can keep crawling back.