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 Apr 2019 Renea
Lost Soul
i want to say so much and nothing at all
i want to say i miss you and just bawl
i want to say im sorry and fix it all
i want to pick up the phone and call
but i know i can't because
im afraid.. again...  i will fall
 Apr 2019 Renea
Lost Soul
i wanted you so
i kissed you
you left me and
i protected you
i dont want to hurt you
so i hurt myself by still loving you
 Apr 2019 Renea
Lost Soul
don't smile at me...
cause ill smile back
leave me alone....
i cant love you
let me lie to myself...
cause i cant want you
push me away..
cause i know i could never leave you
 Apr 2019 Renea
ejb
the eighteenth
 Apr 2019 Renea
ejb
i roll out of bed
it's the 18th again
another months gone by
and i still cry
i still miss you
my feed tells me other do too
i listen to that song and then
it cuts me open again

so i go for a drive
just to feel alive
i drive past your home
so i don't feel alone
i drive down to the park
and stay till it's dark
and i think about you
oh if you only knew

why'd you choose that day
why did you give it all away
i wonder if you had stayed
could things have changed
could you have seen that we loved you so much
or was your mind made up
do you know how hard that was
why'd you do that to us
05/22/17
 Apr 2019 Renea
ejb
I understand now that I am not the one for You,
But that hasn't stopped Me from loving You.

I know that I am not enough for You.
There is something that He gives You that I never can,
But that hasn't stopped Me from wishing that I could.

In my mind, You are still the one for Me;
The only one I need,
My everything.
But that's not how You see Me.

I understand now that I am not the one for You,
But it hasn't stopped Me from loving You,
And I don't know what to do.
01/08/18  2:04 pm
 Apr 2019 Renea
ejb
weightless
 Apr 2019 Renea
ejb
It has taken me a long time to heal
And I am still getting better
But I have grown

I again am filled with hope

Again there is room for love

I am not afraid of dying alone

I feel capable and worthy and free
I finally feel lovable again
 Apr 2019 Renea
Joliver
Rest(?)
 Apr 2019 Renea
Joliver
I lie broken, alone in this bed
As a cacophony of violence
Screams in my head
I'm being crushed
By this weight on my chest
God,
I know this wait is at my own sick behest
But why must I face this night alone?
Lonely, blue
Cursed to never feel at home?
The tears build up, but they never release
Can't I have some peace, just this once
Please?
4 A.M. and I'm feeling so frustrated and alone
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