You kissed me softly in the rain,
then laughed gently into my mouth.
It tasted like Spring.

When you are in doubt,
you have to never forget,
there is always hope

I tripped down a lane of memories
Walked uneven sidewalks
Once lined with trees
Now barren,
Thanks to some "bug disease"
At least not every neighbor is dead

Knees hugged cement
Recalling pastel chalk sketches
Delicate fingers traced
Rugged dips and edges,
My name
Engraved in that one spot where
I failed to learn to rollerblade
At least part of me will live on here

At least until someday

the rain is playing
its jingle again
between the trees

night unravels
liquorice tongue
pricked with stars

your fingers
look perfect
between my fingers

our language
an ephemeral blush
on windowpanes

when the Spice Girls came on
I knew it was time to leave

hour hand poking midnight
red cups bloated
with spit and tangerine *****

back slaps from strangers
opening and closing their mouths
like goldfishes on morphine

try to find you
through tobacco whispers
***** shots and near-**** Twister

and you're by the front
jacket in hand
we simply nod enough's enough

halfway home you ask
what a zigazig is

Cancer called for me.
I wish I hadn't answered.
It wanted too much.

Chemo is brutal.
It wanted to take me out,
But that's cancer's job.

Radiation *****,
Fries you from the inside out;
It's sneaky that way.

Cancer - just a word;
Until it silences me,
I give it no voice.

That silly cancer
Tries to kick my ample ***...
Good luck with that, *****!

Cancer takes a break.
Is it gone or just hiding?
I'll know soon enough.

Here I am again,
Caught in cancer's undertow.
Will I sink or swim?

Poison floods my veins.
The death battle reignites.
Will I win this round?

Snowflakes at window
Beg me to come out and play.
If only I could...

Hey, cancer... hear this!
You **** a big bag of *****.
I'm coming for you!