You promised me love; you promised me life,
so I walked the altar to be your wife;
you vowed to be my proponent and promised endless moments,
so I welcomed with you, all the sacraments;
Assurances were lost, beautiful occasions were bygone,
life started feeling like a morbid endless marathon;
Not sure what was my fallacy,
do I really deserve this salacity?

You said you never loved me,
and had no intentions to be my would-be;
it is fine if you wanted to leave,
please do not ask me not to grieve;
I cannot accept that I have been wrong, all the while,
I do not think I am yet senile;
I would rather think that you were terrified,
to accept the fact that you were too mesmerized;
because loving someone just requires a heart,
but standing for and accepting the love requires you to be a Lancelot;

Never knew that love can end painful..
Never realized that heart breaks can be so baleful..
No one ever mentioned that seeing another in your arms can feel like 1000 piercing knives..
I curse my fate for not getting to be your wife..
Never felt darkness on a bright sunny day, tearful on a beautiful spring day..
But..
I will do all over with you again, inspite of knowing that you will not be mine ..forever ...anyday..

Rain can not wash away my love for you..
Sunset can not take away your shadow from me..
Wind cannot take away your breath from me..
Bruises cannot take away your touch from me..
Wine cannot take away your memories..
Time cannot make me forget you..
you are always with me..in my every smile, in my every tear, in my every thought, in my every feel.. in my every hope..

Today
I saw the beautiful bronze sunrise and wished you good morning
unfolded those joggers and rattled myself up from deep mourning;
straightened my fuzzy hair,
updated our Instagram fanfare;
wired some lashes to the eyes, that you once admired,
though your presence was the only thing that my heart desired;
gasped my delight at our picture, an old memory
and freed my grief to remember you in a reverie
planted your favourite peach in our nursery
and that's how I celebrated our Anniversary

Everything around me is so annoying;
the wind that's blowing my hair,
the chills that's making me shiver,
the sun that doesn't seem to understand what shrug off is,
the loud music playing from cars,
the laughter of couples and giggles of friends,
looks like anything without you is just annoying;

I was at the top of the world..
Parched lands seemed like scenic landscapes..
Unexpected showers seemed like blessings..
Wind chimes made beautiful symphonies..
Everyone around me seemed happy..
I was singing melodies..
Looked forward eagerly for every day..
Indeed..life was beautiful when you were with me...
Now wind chimes just don’t chime..
Same parched lands spread melancholy..
Each morning seems to be another gloomy day.,
every minute seems to be a curse with out you...
life is so heavy and long without you..
Can you please come back?
Hold my hand for one more time..?
Grab my waist for a moment?
I swear I will lose my breath but will not let you go this time..
Even if all the earth forces united, I will be strong..

Another day without you has passed..
Another sunset without your warmth has passed..
Never knew that I can smile and laugh without you..
Never knew that I can create memories without you..
looks like I am letting you go..
looks like I am letting myself live...

A cool breeze blowing my tucked hair and tickling my ears,
sun rays touching me, promising to drive away all my fears;
Eyes searching for your frames from various angles,
heart unhinged from brain, words around me jangled;
Looks like you are somewhere here, near me,
if not things around me will not behave queerly.

Unfortunate are those who are scared of falling in love..
As they don’t realize..that
broken heart is also a bliss, when it comes from the person you love..from the person who mean the world to you

This unending ocean and its waves,
trying to meet the skies at a no man's island..
its Blue everywhere..
a place where I can hear my heartbeat and each of your whispers
a place where I can spread my arms but can never lock you in-between them..
its blue everywhere..
a spot where your memories were buried..
a spot where my desires were sent to grave..
its blue everywhere..
its more than a color, more than a feeling, more than a place;
its where you and me can meet and live together forever
its blue everywhere..

We share a bond..
Till the ages to come..
Distance cannot break it.
Traditions cannot crack it..
If I don't see you this life..
Will survive for afterlife..

Can I have a look at you once , at least from a distance?
Can I hear your voice for a second, swear I will not beckon for more..
Can you call my name for one last time, I profess to treasure that chime forever..

I wish I was the tide, that can kiss your feet when you stroll on the beach..
I wish I was the air that could touch your cheeks, staying always in your reach;
I wish I was the flower that you picked up, to be on your suit...
I wish I was the music playing from your flute;
I wish I was the one holding your hand on the altar today...
I wish you were the one who loved me day after day;

No worries, I will not stop loving you after today...
I will not let your memories cling away;

I promised to stay with you what may
and I will fulfill it night and day;

I will spread the cheer when you are sad,
I will be your smile when you are mad;
I will be the angel when you need me,
I will be the casket that will hold you, when you finally come to me.

Seasons came and passed by
still living in shadows that your memories cast by;
reliving our togetherness and not allowing my soul to lament.
Praying every falling star to bring back our precious moment..
learning that it is not that easy to forget, as it is to be forgotten,
looking for you all over the world, forgive me I am a little foughten;
didn't lose my locus,
trust me you are still my focus;
longing for your broad hug
in your smile is I am still drugged;
Need no warmth nor presents..not askew
All I want for Christmas is you..

Staring at myself in mirror and smiling,
not needing a reason for crying;
you are the only one who can do that to me;
I do not know a better way to say, that I love you,
it's getting dark and cloudy, come back home honey !!

Do you know if someone discovered a cure for broken heart?

A medicine to erase your memories from my brain
An analgesic for numbing my heart pain..
Atleast a sedative that can make me forget your name..
so that my tears dont have to drain..
and I can be free from your hain..

Desolation..
It shatters you from inside,
can take you to the verge of suicide..
it is more troublesome than a chronic pain..
cannot be erased by any champagne..

Desolation..
can only be related through experience..
cannot be fixed by any grievance..
it's a roller coaster of feelings..
doesn't imply that you are a weakling..

Desolation..
struck me since you left..
its something that I did not elect..
not sure how to evade it..
a broken heart story wish I can rewrite it..

I don't need a card on Valentine's
Nor a bouquet on our anniversary...
I won't ask you to remember my birthday..
I don't need expensive diners on christmas...
I swear that I will never ask for a ring...
nor a tulle gown...
I just need the space between your arms..a tight hug every morning and a kiss every night...

I am NOT missing you..
These empty roads where we used to walk hand in hand are missing you,
The coffee shop where we always got our first brew is missing you,
These four walls, which used to resonate with our laughter are missing you,
Those flirtatious post-it notes which went back and forth between us are missing you,
Waiter at our favorite eat-out who was always challenged with your complex order is missing you
My car, that travelled all the places with us, is missing you,
That old couple at the beach who used to see younger themselves in us are missing you,
That pretty pup who used to walk with us, hoping to live with us, is missing you,
The giant cardigan, which tucked-in us together is missing you..
My cheeks that are now drenched in tears are missing you..
No….don’t read me wrong,
I am NOT missing you.

My life's most embarrassing moments were with you...
staring at you..when the entire world was watching me,
feeling Aphasic, when I really wanted to express what you mean to me...
My life's most embarrassing moments were with you...

from filling an overflowing coffee mug,
till seeing you off every day, just to steal a hug;
my life's embarrassing moments were with you...

You were never my date,
You are not my boyfriend,
You are not my Mr Perfect,
You definitely can not be my prince or the knight of love;
But you are my bestest friend, with whom I wish to share my life till the end;

When our eyes first met, I became a firm believer of love at first sight
When your eyes stared at me, I was convinced that you like me
When your eyes avoided me the times you blushed, I knew that you started loving me..
When you avoided my eye contact, I understood that you are scared of showing your love for me..
Somewhere somehow.. our eyes started talking to each other ...a lot..
And
Now my eyes are anxiously searching for those beautiful eyes that left them alone in tears..

I don't know if what is feel and how I feel is, if I should feel;
I am losing, and, don't know how to cry without a squeal;
there is no misfortune in this world, than not being able to reach your loved one,
I am still not able to accept that we are done;

Trying hard to forget you..
Trying to  forget that sweet smiles
Trying to forget that deep looks
Trying to forget the fun we shared
Trying to forget the fights we had
Trying to forget your touch
Trying to forget your mischief
Trying to forget our lone moments..

looks like I am trying to forget a lifetime of memories.

I totally forgot you,
I erased all your memories
I killed every flash of your thought that crossed my mind,
I don't remember your smell anymore
I don't recognize your voice anymore
you are totally out of my system
**** it..
Not sure why these stupid tears keep rolling the moment your name is called

I don’t have to work hard to earn you,
I don't have to be worried if we had an opposing view;
I can trust you in my dark days,
you stand with me in all my life's phases;
we are not related in blood,
we were not even born in the same mud;
we don't have to share promises
we don't have to sing the same choruses
we are no soulmates,
we are best friends, a bond no dictionary really elucidates;

Life is funny...
It gave me you, when I wasn't looking for a woo;
got me used to your cologne, when I was happy alone..
made me realize as what I was missing when I was on my own..
and
took you faraway when I wanted you to stay night and day.

Forever is a very long time,
I am not looking for promises for lifetime;
I am happy if I can see you once,
to keep myself alive, I just need a glance;

Don’t say bye..
Goodbye’s are not forever,
Life is unpredictable,
Never know when our paths may cross again;
If not, atleast let me live with that hope a little longer.

Happiness is..
Laughing at silly jokes,
Wearing a cheerful face all the time,
Smiling even at your enemy..
Feeling content with what you currently hold to,
Enjoying a rose neglecting its thorns..
Humming Ed Sheeran songs even in hot sun..
Driving a versa like a Hummer..
Looking forward for each day every day..
This was how time felt like, when you were with me...

I hate these dark nights..
When I have to close my eyes..
Where I can see you all the time, but cannot feel you or touch you..
Yes, I hate these dark nights..
Which make me miss you more and more..
Which brings me dreams that can not be fulfilled..
Yes, I hate these dark nights..
Which promises me a brighter next day..
a day in which you don’t exist..
I hate these dark lonely nights..

I hate you..
Not because I am tired of these running tears when I hear your name..
Not because I long for your touch when I see a couple holding hands..
Not because you never remembered my birthday
Not because you were not bold enough to accept that you loved me..
Not because I am tired of staring at ceiling at nights..missing you..
Not because I am dreading of being alone in a summer party..
But because I want you to be happy wherever you are and with whomever you are ..
but because I want to relieve you from my ******* of love..
Yes, indeed I hate you.

I am not a disgrace to the society
Love in itself is known for its notoriety;
It didn’t know that I was married,
killed the heritage and left the world worried;

Oh my love, you should know that I am unavailable,
don’t make me fall for the unattainable;
Don’t give birth to the feelings that once died,
I have a whole world of traditions to abide;

Let me lead this life in peace,
forgive me that I have to cease;
don’t forget that love never ends till it reaches eternity
can’t live with you, but swear to die with you; fighting all uncertainty;

I am NOT missing you..
These empty roads where we used to walk hand in hand are missing you,
The coffee shop where we always got our first brew is missing you,
These four walls, which used to resonate with our laughter are missing you,
Those flirtatious post-it notes which went back and forth between us are missing you,
Waiter at our favorite eat-out who was always challenged with your complex order is missing you
My car, which travelled all the places with us, is missing you,
That old couple on the beach who used to see younger themselves in us are missing you,
That pretty pup who walked with us, hoping to live with us, is missing you,
The giant cardigan, which tucked-in us together is missing you..
My cheeks that are now drenched in tears are missing you..
No….don’t read me wrong,
I am NOT missing you.

If only had the world allowed me, to be myself..
I didn't have to sit alone, besides my shadow,
didn't have to hide from the world my true aficionado
If only had the world allowed me, to be myself..
my eyes would have been filled with shimmers and not tears.
my nights would have been filled with dinners and not lonely beers;
If only had the world allowed me, to be myself..
my arms didn't have to wrap around to hug my shoulders
my sanity wouldn't have been judged by apathetic beholders
If only had the world allowed me, to be myself..
I would have had the courage to express my love for you..
life would have ended up colorful and not in blue..

I hate you for coming in to my life
I hate you for giving me those laughs
I hate you for making me happy when I am with you
I hate you for making me feel that life can be beautiful
I hate you for caring for me
I hate you for standing up for me
I hate you for not staying back in my life
I hate you for leaving me in lurch
I hate you for not giving me a closure

Hey pink.. come back to me..
Powder my cheeks with your hue..
Polish my nails with a shade of yours..
Put some maybelline punch on my lips
Add some dazzle to my tulle gown..
Blush a little on my sandals..
Because I might bump in to him today...

I am sad again today,
not because I miss you,
but because another night has passed,
and you forgot to remember your enthusiast !!!

Imperfections are beautiful..
they make us stand apart, from the crowd..
they are not always meant to be plowed;
Imperfections..
They are not liked by any
and camouflaged by many,
but they are closer to my heart..
as they are evident on me like a schardt
Imperfections..I will not disown them for any flagships..
Because imperfection is what defines our relationship;

Its about our incomplete story...
He was there.. she was there..
He saw her captivating eyes and fell in love..
She felt his heart and fell in love::
He took a step forward and spent her days with her...
She took a step forward and shared her dreams with him..
He praised her beauty and she bowed to his flattery..
He gave her hope and she gave him the fondness of her arms..thinking that it’s beginning of a new story.. new life
He left her and she kept staring at her phone for his text.. for his missed call..
He never missed her.. and she woke up in the middle of every night searching for his warmth
He moved on and she kept waiting for his return ..to scribe an ending to their incomplete love story.

From stealing glances,
till accidental hallway meet ups,
From completing each other sentences
till waiting for each other’s good morning texts,
From sharing laughter
till caring for each other’s palate
From sneaky coded conversations
till longing for each other’s touch
Some of the best inexplicable moments of life were with you;
Hope one day you will know how special you were !!

Loved you from the bottom of my heart, its not lust,
have been waiting to have a moment with you since August;
Don’t need a night with you,
but not yet ready to bid you adieu;
I understand that we don’t stand a chance,
its okay, if I am not your fiancé
I just need you to know that I love you,
and I will never let you to fall through;
I will protect you, come what strife,
as our bond is not just for this life;
I will be there for you every moment,
Unfortunate it is, you will never know your proponent;

I promise that I will always be there for you..
when you are tired, I will kiss your eyes to fix your weariness..
when you are sad, I will be a clown that will make you laugh
when you are mad, I will wrap you around in my arms and soothe you
when you are lost, I will not rest till I get you back..
when you are happy, I will share your joy..
I will not leave your hand in life's ebb and tides..
I promise that I will always be there for you...

I wish I had the  power to stop the clock when you were in my arms
I wish I had the strength to confess my love for you..
I wish I had the courage to hold your slipping hand when you were saying your final goodbyes

You left the street where I live in
You turned around at our cross paths,
you shattered my dreams and memories
you played down my feelings
But I will still love you till my last breath

you hurt me like no one ever would
you left me without giving me a closure
you abandoned me in this life’s journey
you walked over the pieces of my broken heart
But I will still love you till my last breath

The moment has arrived,
The moment where I had the last glimpse of you
The moment that I hugged you tight, giving final farewell
The moment that I felt your last touch, which still remains under my skin
The moment when I wanted all the clocks in the world to stop ticking
The moment when my heart was aching
The moment when my tears were breaking their flood gates
The moment that I dreaded for, since the day I met you..
The moment that slipped the earth under my feet..
The moment that tore away my belief on eternal love..
The moment that I died inside

I couldn't stop the gloom that engulfed me,
didn't imagine the low spirits that touched me;
It was the moment that I saw you for the last time,
realized that my life with you was just spent on borrowed time.