I have a hope
In this year
The seeds of peace

So* ....

The first time I saw you
I thought you were a boy
January ten, you had just arrived
now the wild nine year old that I basically raised
too much energy, but eats too little.
the lego playing, dragon-loving, wild-life biologist
who loves Alexander Hamilton
she laughs at my jokes, she's my light

You are such a good manipulator.
You could twist things easily at your favor.
I have tried so hard to keep myself away,
But it seems like my hard work won't pay.

I know I've matured a bit.
I can now create happiness without depending on you.
Made my self busy,
even thought somebody new could replace you.

But my walls came down when you gave me that sad stare,
Made me think "Am I really ready to leave this boy?"
My heart got me so scared,
'coz I thought I was really that sure.

Oh boy why you do this to me? Why now? Why today?
I hate myself so much for being weak.
No matter what I do,
you seemed to always have this part on me that no one else can take.

Sometimes,
When you choose to,
When you want to,
You help me.
I feel loved, I feel happy.
Then you do this?
Ignore me? Never answer my calls?
I thought you were better than this.
What happened to the one I played basketball with?
The one who makes me laugh,
the one who is a stupid idiot, but I loved anyways.
Family, sticks together?
Really?
Okay, if this is sticking together,
I'd hate to see your ripping apart.