I want to go back, to when I was gorgeous to you
When you thought I was kind, protective, and loving too
When you said I was perfect, and everything you wanted
Back to the days before I was haunted
by the ghosts of the past, and promises broken
and by all of the words that once were spoken.
I want to go back, to the days when I mattered
Back to the days, before my heart shattered.

I want to live, before I die,
I want to stay, I have to try,
because when, I go
the one thing, I know
is all won't be well,
when I sit there in hell,
and you are so far above.

I was everything that you were wanting,
and it seems that you've forgotten,
but it's too late now you see,
'cause now you'll never, ever get to me.

The words are right there, on the tip my tongue,
but I can't get them out  and I'm coming undone,
if I take chance, perhaps she'll feel that way too,
and I will whisper the words I love you.

I wish that night could have lasted forever
and that didn't have to end.
I wish we were still together
Rather than just being friends

I love you, and you love me
You know the only place I want to be
Is next to you, with you under my arm
lying there protecting you from harm

Oh dear sweetheart, I played you for a fool.
Did you really think I cared? I didn't care at all
I merely cried those tears in hopes of manipulation
You were so **** and so I faked my devastation

I wish you were here I could put my arm around you
Making you blush, the way you do
I wish I could stare into your eyes
More beautiful than any sunrise
I wish our lips, could once again meet
In a kiss full of passion, of love, of heat
I wish that you would be here with me
Because when I close my eyes, it's still you I see.

I woke this morning with a smile
I think it'll be my last one, for a while.
I am drowning, not yet dead
It was all just in my head
Everything we ever were
Now my vision starts to blur
Because now I struggle for each breath
and I would gladly welcome death

I know I won the battle, I know I won the war,
but I lost what it was, that I was fighting for,
It isn't coming back, for it is too far gone,
I'm gonna have to play, with the cards that I have drawn,
Such a hollow victory, I'm not having fun
What's the point in winning, if you lose everyone?

I hope he compares her eyes to endless stormy seas,
Because I regret writing poems that were anything like these.
I wish I'd never lost any sleep looking for the words,
So I hope he compares her voice to the song of birds.
But I hope he knows poems aren't enough,
She never deserved any of this stuff.
I never loved her, never will,
But I wish her the best even still.

'It's the right thing to do'
doesn't make it hurt any less
I'm happy just being friends,
but it means my life's a mess.

I always saw everything in black and white,
Never had to doubt if it was wrong or right,
But then along you came,  all acting so cute,
Causing an attraction I couldn't refute.
It's wrong to feel this and to want so much,
But right now baby I'm craving your touch.
Just for the summer, just a little fling,
Just a couple of dates, but here's the thing,
I think I want more, like a chance at forever,
But it's just for the summer, then after that never

I can't decipher what you're thinking,
but you know I wish I could,
as you're sorrowfully drinking,
and I'm not doing all I should.
But how do I begin, when you're so far away?
How do I find the words, to say what I've got to say?
Because I fear your too far gone,
that you're forever moving on,
but something makes me stay,
if only you also felt this way,
then maybe, I don't know...
I wish you'd let, your feelings show.

I'm fine...forever just wasn't as long as I expected

I look out, at the moonless night,
thinking about how you were right
I should be in your bed with you
Holding you close, it's just us two
But I can't be there, my arms round your hips
So I'll get some sleep, that last kiss on my lips.
It was so perfect last the time, that lips met
and I'm willing to bet, it made you wet.
A kiss so perfect, how could any compare?
To the soft, sweet lips, of an angel so fair.
So no one else shall have my kiss
Except for you, the girl I miss.
Good morning angel, this poem's for you
What I'm trying to say...Is I love you

I should be heartbroken, but really I'm not.
Because a heart's something I've no longer got
I gave it to you, not too long ago
I didn't expect for you to let go.
But you did my dear, and you let it fall
Just when I thought, that we had it all

Here I am, king of thieves,
she's out there, queen of the seas
but there is something I'll admit,
as all lord-like here I sit,
I miss the days so full of wonder,
risking being torn asunder,
just to adventure with the girl,
who makes my happy enough to twirl.
I want to quest and to explore,
with that girl that I adore,
her hair in the sun's great light,
or stolen kisses by moonlight,
what an adventure that would be,
if it were only you and me.

Now I feel empty, I feel light
My head is clear, but I've nothing to write

I thought 'perhaps she's someone I'd like to know'
and my god, I nearly let my secrets show.
I nearly told her how my nights full
of analogies of the ocean's pull,
and how her eyes shine perfectly bright,
and she looked so good under the party light,
but I retain my posture, and don't let her in,
because last time I shared a poem, I certainly did not win.

The last words I plan to write
before the darkness, of endless night,
will be just these, short and few,
I'm sorry for what, I did to you.

I can't handle caring any more,
I'm just another thing for them to ignore
I have to be up in six hours, but hand me that drink
Till they're not on my mind 'cause I can no longer think
Don't let them distract, you must stay alert
and don't ever be happy, you'll only get hurt

It's hurts to know that you are gone,
and now every word I say is wrong,
I can't even be your friend,
I just wish that it would end.

Part of me wants to take my secrets back,
and let the blood bleed onto black,
but I promised I'd never do that to you,
so here I am. Trying not to.

Maybe dying will hurt less

Slowly approaching, the final minute
Life goes on, without me in it,
There's no need for another goodbye,
You won't notice, and I will die,
Time goes on as the earth spins,
and in the end, time always wins.
Life goes on, without me in it,
From your story, I will omit
Myself

I looked at you, and my mind went 'wow'
Because I loved you then, and I love you now.
But you don't believe me, you think I'm lying
So now I lie here, and I'm slowly dying
Because I still love you, beyond compare
But you don't believe me, 'cause life's unfair
I remember all the kisses, we shared in the past
I can't believe, we may have had our last

Listen to me Aiden, and listen to me well
Don't say goodbye, 'cause you love her like hell
You know that she's everything to you,
So listen to me; here is what you do,
Find her and tell her how perfect she is
tell her quickly, before she is his.
You need her, you love, you really do
Why would you let anything stop you?
She is your light, your life, your love
Swear to me Aiden, upon god above
You won't give up on her, won't say goodbye
At least not until you give this a try
She is your everything, she's perfect to you
and tell her you still love her, 'cause I know you do.

How did the night arrive so soon?
Now lone wolf's howling to the moon.
He's pacing on, snow under paw,
dreaming of, just one chance more,
at the thing he wants, his true desire.
Need burns within him, like a fire.
Then there it is, second to none,
that perfect beauty, the rising sun.

A beautiful verb, now only past tense,
Felt from that day, to all the years hence,
From beautiful voice, I held it so true,
But tell me just when, was it past tense to you?
We promised the moment, it happened we'd say,
But I haven't yet, and you didn't that day,
Sometimes conversations, they still feel like home,
Like you did that day, by the sand and the foam.
This poems not finished, no it doesn't feel done,
But as I think of a title, past tense's not the one

I love you little angel,
your art, your smile, your voice,
I love you more than anything,
you'll always be my choice.

Another simple word
but one with a meaning beyond comprehension

Inevitable, unconditional and forever true
These words describe, my love for you.
You with your lips, so soft and sweet
Making my love burn, with undying heat.
Your eyes shine more than any star in the sky
I'll remember them forever, till the day that I die.
Words such as beautiful cannot begin to describe
For it's sheer perfection that I imbibe
When looking at you, my perfect love,
You're like an angel belonging, so far above.
For there are no way on earth to describe you
But as long I live, I'll always try to.

Love's an endless wild sea
But I'm glad you're here, next to me
The beauty of your perfect smile
Is the sort of thing making life worthwhile
The feeling of each perfect kiss
Is something I hope, I've no chance to miss

Love is giving someone the power to hurt you
Love is trusting that they won't
Love is crying when they hurt you anyway
Love is accepting when they say they're sorry
Love is giving them the power to hurt you yet again
Love is trusting that they won't even though they did last time
Love is stupid
Love is pointless
Love is painful
Love is disappointing
Love is the worst feeling in the world
Love is weakness
Love is what I've fallen in so far, that I never want to get out
Love is perfect...She's perfect

I'm sorry but
I'm gonna let him win
Cause love's too hard
So I give in

So no more poems
not one more song
for now I see
my love was wrong

You know, I loved you once
and we shared a kiss
but now that is gone
for you are his

No more of my poems
and no more competing
Because it's over now
and I've been beaten

Words are just tools, or things to be used
they can make sense of the world, or leave you confused.
Love's just a word, so's beauty, perfection;
they once conveyed meaning of undying affection
but they're now overused, and so seem cliche
what good are words she won't believe anyway?
But say them I shall, just to let her know
that for me love means the same as it did long ago.

Now yes I remember, exactly what I said
Now I'm back, don't let it go to your head
So maybe one more poem, or maybe more
It's one way to stop, my heart being sore.

Don't get me wrong, I happy here
she is nice and fills me with cheer.
But I'm still a wordsmith you're still my muse
The only person for whom I use

The skill of rhetoric and rhyme and song
But I still think, that my love was wrong.
But so was quitting, I don't give in
and there is no way, I'm gonna let him win

So yea, he has got competition
they all have now, that's my mission
Because if my poems aren't enough for you
Then neither is anything they can do

You'll never love me again,
But that's okay I got time,
Never can't be that long,
'Cause forever was no time at all.

I would give my life, I would give my soul
to just for a moment, once again feel whole.
Where went the time for us? I still got the scars,
I guess I wasted it, matching words to bars.
I want another moment, or hour, or day
to be happy, free and with you without life in the way.
But what I want doesn't matter, what I want I can't get,
so I'll be stuck with these feelings for a while yet.

Maybe one day, we'll meet again
Till then I promise, that's the last bloodstain
Until we next meet, I shall wait
Because perhaps there is, such thing as fate
And perhaps that we said can still come true
Perhaps there is a future for me and you
I don't think I'll ever stop being in love
But at your request I'll move on, sort of

"No, Cassius, for the eye sees not itself
But by reflection, by some other things."

Maybe that is why she won't believe the things I say
Doesn't agree she's perfect in every way.
She say's she not perfect, beautiful or amazing
But she doesn't know it's her I'm craving.
She only see's a pale reflection of her true self
in the imperfection of those like myself
But she is more perfect than anyone
If beauty were stars she'd be the sun.
If only she knew, just how I see her
So perfect she makes everything else a blur.
Because when I look at her she's all I can see
And I know she's as beautiful, as beauty can be.

Not romantic, not poetic, just a chance to not exist
Slowly drawing, a cold steel blade, across the neck that she once kissed
I won't be remembered, I'm forgotten even now
I managed to make it this far but I'm really not sure how.
So goodbye to everyone, who won't read this
Goodbye to everyone who will barely even notice
So this is it, goodbye, I hope
So this is it, I'll get the rope

It's been over a year since I made you smile
and I won't do it again, for a long while
We never could promise that forever
but I'm starting to think it'll happen never.
And so I just sit here, hating love
because of the girl, I'm writing of

Memento mori, but not until,
of earthly pleasures, I've had my fill.
Oh perfect sweetness, upon my lips,
and fabric beneath, my fingertips.
Oh voice of angels, of times gone by,
such mortal pleasure, I long to try

I miss the days, when I could say,
all the things I needed to,
When I could stutter through some poems,
And explain why I love you.

I miss the days when I could call,
At 2AM in tears,
And you would be there for me,
And brush away my fears.

I miss the days when I was there,
And you were by my side,
When you laughed your sweet sweet laughter,
And I didn't have to hide.

You love me more? Well I love you most
I'm writing you poems, not trying to boast
But I love you and it makes my heart soar
It makes me write, and I make you go 'aww'

You miss me most? Well I miss you more
Because you're the one thing, I truly adore
I love you each and every single day
I'll love you forever, in every single way

Pearl, do you remember, the fifth of November,
When fireworks lit up the sky?
We lay in the sand, and I held your hand,
as you curled up in my arms.

Or perhaps you recall, that late night phone call,
when I told you I had a crush.
I didn't want to say, you made me anyway,
and I am so glad that I did.

How about the day, we got carried away,
when I invited you to see the dogs?
That very first kiss, is something I miss,
I knew that I wanted more.

Then when the party came, things were never the same,
we had an amazing night.
You were all mine, the world seemed fine,
and I was awed by every kiss.

And our very first date, you taught me to ice-skate,
though I wasn't any good.
So I sat in the stand, yes I sat and I planned,
and I finally asked you out.

Then our days in the sun, became second to none,
as our exams approached.
We sat in the park, and kindled our spark,
and I fell asleep on your lap.

A little later a different park, our meetings now held in the dark,
but they were so perfect.
Kisses were stolen and hands were held, my feelings for you they only swelled,
you became my world.

Then nights were spent by your side, sure one day you'd be my bride,
happy beyond belief.
I slept so well with you right there, you calmed each fear took away each care,
more than you will know,

That first kiss after weeks apart, set a fire within my heart,
that weekend was perfect.
I loved every second I could spend with you, I loved every second every of thing we'd do,
it was so hard to leave.

Weeks of nothing then two weeks of you, never was a love so true,
what a perfect time.
Cuddles, museums, and the zoo, I loved every single date with you,
it was so perfect.

But the best things are those we've not yet seen, our greatest kiss it's not yet been,
not if I can help it.

So anyway, all this to say,
I've missed you more than anything, to this day I still wear your ring.
I would love to be back in your narrative,
and I'll be there in my dreams where you still have me.

There never was a love as true
As this love, that I feel for you

I'm looking back fondly on all the good times we had
And I'm terrible sorry, for every time I've made you sad

For example I love, your **** voice,
And your soft, sweet touch, makes me rejoice

There will never come a day
When from you I shall stay away

I loved you months ago, and I love you still
And even with my last breath, I always will

This morning the sun's rays reminded me of you
The colour of your hair...The warmth of your voice too
Not that I'll be hearing you, not any time soon
I see that now, as I stare at the moon
Ah yes, my every day starts and ends the same
but in the middle, my anger's aflame
I hate who I am, I miss who I was
I miss my angel, who is without flaws
but hey, I'm fine, I'm really okay
At least on the outside anyway.

My god she's beautiful, with those ever perfect lips,
through which in my dreams my tongue, effortlessly slips.
My god she is so funny, with the way she makes me smile,
her every witty comment, leaves me laughing for a while.
My god she is so perfect, in every single way,
and oh how I wish she knew, that she always makes my day.

I'm drinking amongst the veterans
of this endless hellish war
I kind of almost envy those
ending problems knee deep in gore
My problems can't be ended
with falling axes or swinging swords
Because I've been in my share of fights
and won great many awards
But all of that is worthless when
my enemy is myself
So I just bottle up emotions,
leave them sitting on the shelf.