Thoughts in my head is a view.
For every single thought,
Is a thought of you.
And always hits my soft spot.

This greed of mine is heavy,
Among all burdens of my wants.
My unending thoughts are messy,
Because of your rejected response.

No she said
Not without a car
Not without a house
Fill me with riches
Which resembles hope

Tears fell deep
Into the heart
Into the soul
Regrets enfold
Statement's bold

Not gonna marry
Reasons couldn't be told
Only sadness
And endless tolls

No he says
With shambling fear and deepest sorrow...

I want to tell you about my day
the feelings that hurt me so bad
until I finally sorted them out.
But the more I tell you
the more it will hurt when you reject me
for whatever reason
because you will be rejecting everything I have confided in you.

So I want to start by telling you
that I want to be closer to you
I want you to be able to confide in me.
I want to know what you care about
I want to know how I can help when you are having anxiety
I want to know you before I tell you about my day.

And like that, everything made sense. The words she had been waiting, to **** this dream and wake up into reality; The soothing pain of rejection.

The sadness is back again
Every ounce of me is weak
Loud laughs escapes my mouth
Covering up the sobs

I was trying to listen
The lesson the teacher says
But a flash of your face appears
Now, I'm tearing up again

The smile on your face
They brighten up my day
But I see you with her
My smile turns to a frown

I got a heavy heart
Constantly reminding me
Of the moment
The minute you told me no

The most painful no
No, you can't be mine
No, I can't be yours
No, I can not try

You made me believe
That love could be for me
Someone could be there
But I want that to be you

Pain has become my friend
A constant reminder
Of the existence of what I hate
Rejection of the person I love

I love you
You love me
But not the way I want you to
But the way I don't want you to

Tears flow from my eyes
A river flows in my face
Never ending because of the pain
Pain because of heart break

And yet again, I care too much.
It burdens my shoulders
and suffocates me everyday.
Thoughts of everyone, everything,
efforts to remember,
it has consumed me
as would a storm.
To think that they-even you,
never wanted me,
it was always her.
Compare us
and I will always come up short.
And? I shouldn't even care.
It is dangerously shallow water to swim in;
but I cannot yet let it go:
I wish terribly to be
just one person's first choice.