I'm freezing from the inside out
as cold seeps into every pore,
spreading its dark tendrils inform of creeping numbness
that suffocates my soul.
Everywhere feels like a suffocating chill
and it's wrapped around my heart.
Leaving my breath in a startled gasp,
The air around me thickens, refusing to fill my lungs,
And my chest tightens in a vice grip that won't relent.
Each heartbeat a drumbeat,
echoing fear and desperation.
My thoughts turns to fragment,
shattered like broken glass,
Showing reflections of a mind in chaos.
Memories linger, taunting me with happiness,
that's lost in the haze of anxiety's relentless grip.
Emptiness consumes me, and turns me to a hollow shell,
Soulless,
devoid of warmth or light or hope,
that echoes with every heartbeat,
A chasm between what was and what is.
Time becomes distorted, stretching each moment,
Minutes become hours, hours become eternity,
Then the world retreats, leaving only darkness,
and a neglected landscape, lacking comfort or solace.
In this hell, I search for a lifeline,
A thread to cling to, a beacon to guide me through,
A reassuring voice, a gentle touch,
Anything.
But every handhold slips away,
leaving me falling, as my body trembles like a fragile leaf,
Shaken by the winds of fear and uncertainty.
My mind screams in a silent cry,
Drowning in silence, and desperate for rescue,
I strain to recall calm moments,
Serene skies, peaceful nights, loving arms,
But they fade like mist in morning sun,
Leaving only the stark reality of this panic.
And the realization that I'm fighting for a breather,
to remember and to forget,
And if God's willing,
Then I won't slip away,
or get lost like these tears that slipped away.
