And soulmate instead
Leave
A stale state
On my tongue

i purposely didn’t write poetry for you when i was still stitching back all the torn pieces.

i know all of them would be loaded with *****,unimaginable pains and sorrows.

and only would reveal words that should be left unspoken and things meant to be hidden.

i’ve waited when I no longer ache and completely move on far unreachable.

my love, yes, i welcome you to have a taste of your own medicine.

but remember my dearest,  i now realize some people are not worth the second chances.

so… i will never write and long for you again.

Isn’t wonderful my darlin’?

The summer i first met you
The day i first talked to you
now everything is just this cosmic blue.
when at first it was tinged with red
red for love.

You lied to me
every single day
every single message.
Everything since i met you
it was all just lies.

I let you in
i trusted you
but you had manipulated me
and now everything is cosmic blue.

I'm numb.
i don't know how to feel
i feel violated.
You were so deceitful
and just evil.

I just saw I side of you I never knew
And now everything is just cosmic blue...

Never again will I let you in my heart
where you took shelter in the warmest part
I gave you my heart and asked you begged you not to break it but you did it anyway. I should've known you were a liar and cheat and all those I love yous were meaningless our "love" was full of empty promises. Those big pools if green drowned me in love I thought I had for you but this poem is over now and so is this big relationship lie

don't do this
don't
don't raise your hand up
not again
you're scaring me
look
now i'm crying
why do you do this
how can you do this
now i'll wake up with another bruise
but i know you don't care
how you leave me
you just care that i hurt.

I want to tell this to you now. But I could never find the words to tell you. I wrote hieroglyphics across your eyelids, stapled memos to your chest, and flew banners in the scenery while you dreamt.

Translations of these words alone will not be sufficient enough to tell you what I want to share.  I... Miss you. I miss you like a front tooth on picture day.

I hate you
Yet everyone says differently
Do I love you?
Hell No! I won't say it quietly

You hurt me too much
You didn't even give me an apology
I flinch at your touch
I can't erase the memory

It's done and over
We'll never be friends
Don't even bother
The end is a blessing 'cause it's over.

More than the combination
Of Math and English,
More than the uncertainty
Of sour bitterness

Don’t I deserve better?

Then the hours upon hours
Of monotonous words
Then the blaring and the whistling
Of simultaneous noise


Don’t I deserve better?

More than the giggling
Flock of girls
More than the chants of
Your irritating name

Don’t I deserve better

To compete arrogance
With compassion
To argue utmost uncertainty
With obvious honesty

Don’t I deserve better?

Than the continuous
Anxiety
Than the pressure to
Ignore

Don’t I deserve better?

To choose what should
Be chosen
To love for uncertainty
One who does

Don’t I deserve better?
To love those who love me
To ignore those who misplace me
To finally be with someone of my choosing
But it rarely works that way,

Will I ever deserve better?