I feel the ebbing flow
of venomous pain in my veins.
I feel the thoughts like bullets to my brain,
the emotions crashing down like turbulent waves.
I see the scars
rawer than before.
So here I am,
listening to music
louder than before.
Painting my heart
with more colors than before,
because it all hurts more than before.

time fades and makes it's way through my fingers like my palm is full of rain
and I know that I don't have time to worry about feelings unreciprocated
I'll love without expectation
if equal affection can never be achieved
at least I can be the one who loves more

Yes your absence hurts me,
But your presence comforts me more.
.
Yes your smile makes me happy,
But your tears tense me more.
.
Yes your dreams excites me,
But having you in reality makes me blush more.
.
Yes I know you love me,
But you don't know that I love you more.

the more i let myself go
the more i pull back,
the more courage built
the more fear fed,
the more i give
the more i grieve
the more emotions involved
the more thoughts escape,
the more i know
the less i want to know.

Forever. What a strange thing.
Everlasting. But what will it bring
But even stranger... there’s love.
Something that helps you rise above.


When you’re in love, everything turns.
When they smile, your face burns.
I’m in love. Don’t want to admit.
I don’t want to. Not one bit.


I hate it, by the way.
I’ll hate it till my final day.
But I like it too. Don’t know why.
I want to confess. Not to be shy.


But I can’t. And I hate it.
You know, I should just quit.
My heart says otherwise.
No matter how much my soul cries.


I’ll live with it for a while more.
Until then, you are the one I adore.