Watch me walk away
I’m smiling
You don’t know it
You never will
But I’m smiling
And I hate myself for it.

I’m not a liar
Not to you
So please don’t ask why I cannot look you in the eye
When I plead that I love you.

My hand was open
But you,
You chose her
Closed fist and everything.

i watched you fade away from me.
your hand wasn't mine
and my heart wasn't yours.

ill love you again and again without fail
but it's not enough is it?
love doesn't fix wounds
and I haven't got the patience to watch you heal.

Just stay awake
Just keep talking
Just pretend you love me
Just hold on
Please
Everything is so much scarier in the dark, love.

Warning: side effects may include: Dizziness. Lack of sleep. Nausea. Butterflies. Lack of speech. Daydreams. Irresistible urge for closeness. Tingles in fingers and toes. Intense need of eye contact. Dryness of the mouth. Feelings of addiction. Heart pains. Lung shrinking. Love. Love love love love love love love.

This is my safe place away from you
These are my feelings i’d never let you see
I will not lie to you darling
You know me better than that
But I will hide these thoughts far away from you
in my own little castle I’ll build out of deceit and misplaced trust.