The thought of death, it pushes me harder
Because overworked bodies don't last longer This equation backfired because now I'm stronger Now I'll have to experience the pain for much longer.
I don't want to hear
What you have to say about me I already know How to think 'bout who I am It leaves me so scared Knowing you'd notice the bad things I already know That you're going to lose your calm I never asked, I never asked! I never wanted to be born The way we treat me, It leaves me feeling forlorn I never asked, I never asked! I never wanted the hurt I guess this treatment's Showing me how much I'm worth
Sometimes I just want ot tell people "When I want your opinion, I'll ask for it!"
"Go commit die"
That's what she said. Guess that makes two of us That wants me dead.
I never asked to be born, anyway.
I saw them, I sw**r
Sometimes they were in line, Sometimes scattered everywhere I saw them around me They were on the ground Leave them alone and They'll never make a sound Touch them the wrong way And if they’re close, they’ll crumble In their downfall In the end, they'll always lose their humble I can’t see the difference Is it just me or they are all the same They’re just clones of each other I can feel their pain I couldn’t tell them apart Without my fingertips They’re all duplicates A species of a looped never-ending clips What if I am just as bare, Another domino I can’t recognise my own reflection So I guess I’ll never know.
These aren't the colours I should see! Black and white and black and white
I never knew,
I saw her cry: I felt her tears; Pain liquified. It isn’t real, It’s all a lie! A fantasy Of crystal skies! It’s all a dream Of crystal skies! Conspiracy: She never died!
I am a very LOVING person.
Any and everyone I see, Even before I ever know you, I love you to the ends of the world, But.If.You.Dare.Try.To.Abuse.My.Love, I'll love you to the end of your life.
Afterall, love is an action word.
I’m hiding the hurt,
I’m hiding the pain. I’m hiding the tears, Although they flow like rain. I’m hiding the fear- Just let me brood; I can’t tell you the secrets trapped inside my skull, Don’t call me rude. Let me Protect you. I’ll tear myself apart To put you together I’ll make it worse for me To make you feel better It’s all about you Don’t focus on worthless things like me These aren’t the colours I should see Get it right: You’re priority. In layers I hide Behind my mask Maybe there’s a monster? To remove it Should you I dare ask? I’d loved you while you lasted I’ll love you through your plastic I’ll love you when you’re finite I’ll love you as fantastic I know it’s not the best I know it’s not that healthy In this case especially Because it is killing me! But how can I tell you? How can I deliberately disappoint? How can I **** all dreams you have for me? How to tell I need oil in my joints?
I don't have BDP, I sw**r!
They keep laughing at me
Their noise flow forth from the DEPTHs of their throats On their thrones they point their fingers I see their diaphragms trembling in glee hAHaha So what if you don't like the real me? hAHaha I don't CARE hAHaha These aren' the colours I should see ... They're not there. I see the colours, the pictures The words never come
Plot twist! (Actual scene): Just did bad on a test I give my all in and the teacher calls out my score in front of all the class. They stare in surprise at me since I'm one of 'those guys' that's perfection as I try not to fall apart in public.
Why does when I get tense, my vision loses colour?
I don't want to be the chains
I just want to make and see a change With whatever good judement's left As priorities rearrange.
I feed my habits
And ignore my needs As distasteful as it seems My plan succeeds I plant the seeds That grow the weeds Won't feed myself I starve, deceased.