Very much Alive
Very much Here
Very much waiting for a Career

I don't know how to explain it,
But somehow, it seems like the world
Has gotten louder AND quieter
At the same time

Why can’t I let it show?
Why can’t the tears flow?
Behind this fragile mask,
All the pain I hold.
I need to cry but I can’t,
The silence is too loud,
Falling in this empty trance,
Tears can’t break the shroud.
Memories like ghosts at night,
Haunting every whispered plea,
Trying to find the light,
But it's lost inside of me.

I know You're happy, but I'm not,
I'm unhappy with what I got
While You get happiness and friends,
I'm fighting suicide attempts
I'm Number 1 in class, I know,
They think I'm happy, but big NO
I just can't do this anymore,
It's only me who knows the lore
You say: "Just NEVER suicide",
But I don't know with what I side…